Here I sit, nauseated, chilling, sweating, twitching, all that fun stuff that addicts go through and telling myself what a fool I am. But at hte same time, I'm movong inthe right direction again. Go to see my counselor in an hour to work on trauma issues (she's really the last person that I want to tell that I've relapsed, but I will) and am still going to my first NA meeting tonight. Talked to my VA Dr. and she's going to start me on the Naltrexone, but I have to be clean for 10 days, first. That's my goal right now -make those 10 days...no I change my mind, let me stay clean for the next five minutes! You guys know what I mean. I have the next 2 days off, so I can rest and take care of myself -plenty of water, rest, Immodium, healthy foods, get out and enjoy the weather. Wish I felt more like doing those things.
Hey Raquel, I really respect your strength, courage, and honesty in starting over.... not to mention your attitude ......like you say, take it bit by bit. It also sounds like you have a plan with your doctor that should help a lot come Day 10. My view: the more tools the better. Hang in and know we're cheering from the sidelines! M.
Rachel,
You can do this and it will get better. Please know that you are in my prayers.
Love,
You can do this and it will get better. Please know that you are in my prayers.
Love,
It gets better. Sometimes it feels like it won't, but it will. One day soon you will be past all this. Everyone knows how you feel, we've all been there. Just remember, it's temporary, soon you will feel good. Good luck and God bless, Kat
Rachel, That's really inspiring of you to have the courage to post and share your relapse with us all. I'm behind you 150%. Keep up the good work.
