Hi gang, I'm still hanging in here, 13 weeks and hopefully many more! I'm trying not to analyse things too much tho I'm finding it hard. I thought I had a good sponsor I had been texting and emailing her and then all of a sudden..nothing, I even started to get paranoid I'd upset her, which of course I havent as I have only phoned her once emailed a few times cant seem to get this " I dont want to trouble anyone" out of my head its always beenwith me since birth. Why has she suddenly stopped any correspondence it seems strange. Maybe she isnt well. Oh I worry too much and I'm sick of it. I know I need to get to a meeting and have one to go to tomorrow but I really feel down. I almost had a drink the other week, I was away with my friend and the old demon popped into my head, anyway I dont know how I did it but I forced myself to order a coke and was so so glad I did afterwards, I told myself how bad and guilty I would feel. I think I just need to have a word with myself dont I for Gods sake there's thousands of people worse off than I am in this world!! At the moment I'm feeling a bit like I'm bein taken for granted by my partner I'm chasin my tail up early with my one yr old doing stuff all day then working of a night til 9, then I have my other two (which is wonderful I miss them dearly) they even see it of Dan, my youngest makes comments occasionally which amuse me but dont amuse him! sometimes I wish he would help me take a load off so's I could concentrate on my sobriety..hell I need to get to a meeting dont I just to relax and soak in the sanity of it all!! sorry for going on
Get thee to a meeting post haste!
Seriously, though, you know what you have to do--get to meetings, get another sponsor, and don't take that first drink. We've all been there and we all "get it." You don't have to do it alone, 'cause that's inevitably the mindset that pitches you back, as you know.
Get thee to a meeting!
Seriously, though, you know what you have to do--get to meetings, get another sponsor, and don't take that first drink. We've all been there and we all "get it." You don't have to do it alone, 'cause that's inevitably the mindset that pitches you back, as you know.
Get thee to a meeting!
When the big picture overwhelms you; focus on this moment; what you can do right now to continue on the right path.
Gidday Fljo
Why do i worry....it is because i was fearfull that i had offended people and also i was raised to see the negative in EVERYTHING before it happened so my mind is a area filled with landmines and if i go in there worrying alone i dont have a chance, the clearing of these landmines has caused me a few explosions but i have a track through now and it is lined with experience, strength and hope and the flowers are gratitude and willingness.
I find if i am worrying about something in my head to much i just ask the person involved if everythng is all right otherwise my worry turns into self paranoa and whatever you do talk and talk some more to people you can trust.
You are doing so well keep it up
light and love zac
Why do i worry....it is because i was fearfull that i had offended people and also i was raised to see the negative in EVERYTHING before it happened so my mind is a area filled with landmines and if i go in there worrying alone i dont have a chance, the clearing of these landmines has caused me a few explosions but i have a track through now and it is lined with experience, strength and hope and the flowers are gratitude and willingness.
I find if i am worrying about something in my head to much i just ask the person involved if everythng is all right otherwise my worry turns into self paranoa and whatever you do talk and talk some more to people you can trust.
You are doing so well keep it up
light and love zac
Hey Flojo...Just thinking about you and wondering how you are?
Check in when you get a chance...
Lots of love,
Stacey
Check in when you get a chance...
Lots of love,
Stacey
Hi there to you all, thanks for your post Stacey, I'm doing good, still going to meetings, I've found a really nice one which I've been going to for the last 4 weeks now and I've really gelled there. Still not got a sponsor but there are people I can ring if I need to. I took my last drink on27th July so I'm really chuffed with myself. I dont pressure myself now, its like last night, when I went to my meeting I found my mind wandering to other things but I knew I was tired so instead of punishing myself all the time for not being perfect I just accept and I think thats the big thing is'nt it? I hope u r all doing ok, hanging in there and still smiling. I do think about the drink occasionally now but the compulsion has gone, my HP reminds to replay in my mind what happens when I do and that in itself is enough for me to put the brakes on!! Take care, thinking of u all...................x
It's soooo good to see people work the program, Flojo! You're doing exactly what I did. I wasn't in a hurry to get a sponsor, but relied on those of the group (and THIS group) to help keep me sober. I've since picked up a sponsor simply because I want the FULL effect--ALL of the Promises! Yep, it's a selfish program...
Hi Flojo!
Its great to hear from you. Glad to hear that you are still sober; remember, there is no wrong way to stay sober.
one day at a time, Cookster
Its great to hear from you. Glad to hear that you are still sober; remember, there is no wrong way to stay sober.
one day at a time, Cookster
That's so awesome Flojo! Remember it's progress not perfection! You're doing terrific! Geri
Congradulations Flojo
13 weeks is awesome and well done, be proud of your self and acknowledge the good work done.
I have heard some people share the same story for 4 years and in the 5th i finally click on something they say that i have heard a thousand times before, a light goes on in my head and it makes sense.
Things I have done at meetings, i have day dreamed, nearly fallen asleep, sorted my grocery list, judged someones sharing, relaxed, pre thought the perfect share only to have a topic suggested and f it all up, been honest, seen the hope in others eyes, felt the dream, stayed sober and listened long enough at times to learn a whole new life that just gets better and better with every meeting and read post etc
The great thing is Flojo we are not perfect so my recovery is ongoing and i need to keep my gratitude intact and also keep some spare for the days i need it.
Thanks for your sharing i am grateful for your experience, strength and hope
light and love Zac
13 weeks is awesome and well done, be proud of your self and acknowledge the good work done.
I have heard some people share the same story for 4 years and in the 5th i finally click on something they say that i have heard a thousand times before, a light goes on in my head and it makes sense.
Things I have done at meetings, i have day dreamed, nearly fallen asleep, sorted my grocery list, judged someones sharing, relaxed, pre thought the perfect share only to have a topic suggested and f it all up, been honest, seen the hope in others eyes, felt the dream, stayed sober and listened long enough at times to learn a whole new life that just gets better and better with every meeting and read post etc
The great thing is Flojo we are not perfect so my recovery is ongoing and i need to keep my gratitude intact and also keep some spare for the days i need it.
Thanks for your sharing i am grateful for your experience, strength and hope
light and love Zac
