january 16 was the day bubba j and i smoked our last big fatty. (recording that here so i wont forget again and have to ask bubba) man all those years of smokin must have really caused alot of brain damage. anyway, after 18 days i am still feeling so crappy. still slepping way to much, especially on my days off. hippie, were talking 16 hours of sleeping out of 24. when i am up i am anxious all the time. i feel like my stress weighs about 100 pounds more than i do. at times i am so moody i cant stand to be around myself. oh dear god please send relief soon. find myself thinking about baby t (see the rest of the story) alot. maybe that smokin just kept me numb and now im feelin the pain. i miss baby t's sister and brother so much it hurts. i cant wait to hold them in my arms again. i cant hardly see the screen through my tears so it must be time to go to bed.
some good news is that bubba j is back to his happy go lucky self, only better. and that we are both still pot free.
Hang in there, this is all so normal. You are right, your emotions are re awakening and it is tough for awhile. Just remember feelings won't kill you and they often pass as quickly as they come.
The story of baby T makes me so sad and I pray things work out for the best for all of you guys soon. Very soon.
Take care of you first for right now and give yourself permission to get the extra rest, your energy will slowly come back.
I was 10 months yesterday, with the exceptiong of my recent medical procedure I was feeling great. (now remember that isnt 100% of the time, we are but humans).
The first 4-6 mo. are the hardest.
The story of baby T makes me so sad and I pray things work out for the best for all of you guys soon. Very soon.
Take care of you first for right now and give yourself permission to get the extra rest, your energy will slowly come back.
I was 10 months yesterday, with the exceptiong of my recent medical procedure I was feeling great. (now remember that isnt 100% of the time, we are but humans).
The first 4-6 mo. are the hardest.
Wooie! A chance to do some math! %and I say this during tax season, I am so warped% (yes jamv, you already knew that).
Cajun lady, it runs in my memory that you posted you work long shifts, sleeping very little when you are "on" so here goes-8hrs/night x 7days/week = 56hrs/wk.
How does this stack up? When we are sleep deprived we need to catch up with long periods of rest. And as any addictions conselor will tell you, sleep deprivation is as bad as being on drugs, so some of your emotional stuff might be due to that too.
Cajun lady, it runs in my memory that you posted you work long shifts, sleeping very little when you are "on" so here goes-8hrs/night x 7days/week = 56hrs/wk.
How does this stack up? When we are sleep deprived we need to catch up with long periods of rest. And as any addictions conselor will tell you, sleep deprivation is as bad as being on drugs, so some of your emotional stuff might be due to that too.
hippienerd
i love your sense of humor. i always feel better after a good laugh. i am starting to feel a little better and sleeping a little less. thanks for your support. hope you have a great day and no urges come your way.
i love your sense of humor. i always feel better after a good laugh. i am starting to feel a little better and sleeping a little less. thanks for your support. hope you have a great day and no urges come your way.
Hipster,
There has been a time when you were not warped?
Jamv
There has been a time when you were not warped?
Jamv
jamv-
Have you been talking to my mom? She promised not to tell anyone my condition was congenital!
Have you been talking to my mom? She promised not to tell anyone my condition was congenital!
