bad days (like today) How long does it last. I was around 90 mg a day and quit 3 weeks ago c/t. It was tough, I still have no cravings but today and yesterday it felt like day 3 or 4. Just some insight on someone who has been there, done that.
Thanks alot!
Charlie,
Yeah, you will still get some bad days here and there, are you talking about depression or withdrawel like syptoms? For me, I really felt alot better after about a month, and after three months I felt Very good.
Best Regards,
Tom
Yeah, you will still get some bad days here and there, are you talking about depression or withdrawel like syptoms? For me, I really felt alot better after about a month, and after three months I felt Very good.
Best Regards,
Tom
Hi Charlie, What did you use? I'd ben doing pretty good at nearly 6 weeks, but was just crying for no reason. It gets better, but there will be moments. Stay clean and it will get better. I hope you're very proud of yourself...hope you realize what you've accomplished. Sometimes it's hard to remember. I try to remember how desperate I was to stop using the oxy. I'm so grateful for the weeks behind me instead of in front of me. Try to see that. You have 3 tough weeks you don't have to in front of you. God Bless, Beck
It was the "Hydros" the little blue devil pills, ha! I thought in a week or so it would be fine but these last two days it felt like flu symtoms again, bummer. I was still out and about, just had to fake it. Feel a little better this morning but we'll see what today holds.
I have no cravings and gag at the thought of it. I will never put my body and mind what I went through to get off of those things. It took a year of frustration, shame and the thought of spending all that money to flush them one morning (3am) Me and God had a conversation and to me it was real. I have never regretted it and even found some more pills in another bathroom that belonged to my wife, they are still there. I think that may have been a test as it really bothered me the first day I found them, now I forget about them.
I am on my 6th night of Ambien and will probably quit that in a day or two, I don't like the feeling. At the end of the day, I am absolutely exhausted without doing a whole lot. I do work out in the day time and it's down hill from there. I've tried the B12 thing, can't really tell any difference but will keep doing it.
I guess I'm just looking for re-assurance, I know the only way is to not use and I have to accept the way I feel. I just hate I've done this to myself, how stupid!
I have no cravings and gag at the thought of it. I will never put my body and mind what I went through to get off of those things. It took a year of frustration, shame and the thought of spending all that money to flush them one morning (3am) Me and God had a conversation and to me it was real. I have never regretted it and even found some more pills in another bathroom that belonged to my wife, they are still there. I think that may have been a test as it really bothered me the first day I found them, now I forget about them.
I am on my 6th night of Ambien and will probably quit that in a day or two, I don't like the feeling. At the end of the day, I am absolutely exhausted without doing a whole lot. I do work out in the day time and it's down hill from there. I've tried the B12 thing, can't really tell any difference but will keep doing it.
I guess I'm just looking for re-assurance, I know the only way is to not use and I have to accept the way I feel. I just hate I've done this to myself, how stupid!
Just got in from a Football game with the knot in chest and VERY tired. I'll be glad when everything gets back to normal. It's very hard to fake it and you hate to complain about not feeling well when you had the "flu" for a week. I'm taking 2 vitamin B-12 (under the tongue) in the mornings. Don't know if I should take more or just stick it out. I really hate this!
Hi Charlie, You're doing so great! Keep hanging on. Don't like platitudes, but it's really wroth fighting for. It has incomparable worth. Funny, I've been having a hard time as well. Don't have the urge to use really, just very blue and achy. Not sleeping well. But I've come 6 weeks and I'm not going back. There will be a day when we're "normal". When the thought of a pill in the morning will be foreign. Until then my friend. Beck
Thank you Intodeep!
I just need the re-assurance, don't know why. I hate this moping around, I'm not that kind of person. I just got back from a walk ( we have 6 acres of electric fence and it's not working right) I decided to walk instead of the 4wheeler for excercise. I remember the w/t's and how much excercise helps.
I know pain pills serve a purpose, but how do Dr's know that we are not going have a problem with these things, don't get me wrong, I blame no one but myself, but for the people who can't quit and just go through their lives as a zombie and ignore their family and friends, as I did for awhile. My heart goes out to them. I've lost a close cousin and just recently (during my withdrawel's I had a best friend disappear for a week, they found him in the lake) to alcohol and prescription drugs. What a waste.
Thank you for replying, it really helps.
C
I just need the re-assurance, don't know why. I hate this moping around, I'm not that kind of person. I just got back from a walk ( we have 6 acres of electric fence and it's not working right) I decided to walk instead of the 4wheeler for excercise. I remember the w/t's and how much excercise helps.
I know pain pills serve a purpose, but how do Dr's know that we are not going have a problem with these things, don't get me wrong, I blame no one but myself, but for the people who can't quit and just go through their lives as a zombie and ignore their family and friends, as I did for awhile. My heart goes out to them. I've lost a close cousin and just recently (during my withdrawel's I had a best friend disappear for a week, they found him in the lake) to alcohol and prescription drugs. What a waste.
Thank you for replying, it really helps.
C
Hey there! Thank you for posting your feelings and your experiences. I am currently tapering of hydo's. Have been on them off and on for 5 years. I have quit in between and was once a member of this board about a year ago and just recently came back.
I have all the faith in the world in you and find it wonderful that even when you found your wifes pills you haven't touched them. You are a great inspiration for me and I"m sure alot of other people. I can tell you that when I did quit a year ago cold turkey I was up to about 80mgs a day.I thought I had it whipped but did go through alot of the same things you are now...flu likesymptoms and things even months latter about a month in a half. I didn't have the urge to use again but those symptoms angered me because it was just a reminder of those darn things. And honestly I was upset I felt as though I had suffered enough. But one thing that helped was thinking about the suffereing that I did all those years of using that ws just masked by the pills and the suffering that my husband family and friends went through. So I realized although it's a reminder and very uncomfortable to try and keep my head up and like you mentioned earlier exercise. That was really helpful for me. Also reading ...anything books, articles, newspaper ..just soemthing to keep my mind off things. I also have most recently discovered a product out there called the breath of life. It's liquid stablilized oxygen. If you look it up on the net the kind tht I have will talk alot about herpes and things..Uncle thought he had it and found this stuff..lol..it's not a funny thing but funny to everyone I tell about it because they are thinking sure.....but anyway. If you get a chance cherck it out . It helps with headaces, energy, sleep, nerves, memory stimulate, the heart, blood preasuer,anxiety, fatigue and so many other things. You mize a certain amount in water or juice and can take it up to three times a day and with my tapering off and qiuting I blewieve that it is really helping. Let me know what you think.
I have all the faith in the world in you and find it wonderful that even when you found your wifes pills you haven't touched them. You are a great inspiration for me and I"m sure alot of other people. I can tell you that when I did quit a year ago cold turkey I was up to about 80mgs a day.I thought I had it whipped but did go through alot of the same things you are now...flu likesymptoms and things even months latter about a month in a half. I didn't have the urge to use again but those symptoms angered me because it was just a reminder of those darn things. And honestly I was upset I felt as though I had suffered enough. But one thing that helped was thinking about the suffereing that I did all those years of using that ws just masked by the pills and the suffering that my husband family and friends went through. So I realized although it's a reminder and very uncomfortable to try and keep my head up and like you mentioned earlier exercise. That was really helpful for me. Also reading ...anything books, articles, newspaper ..just soemthing to keep my mind off things. I also have most recently discovered a product out there called the breath of life. It's liquid stablilized oxygen. If you look it up on the net the kind tht I have will talk alot about herpes and things..Uncle thought he had it and found this stuff..lol..it's not a funny thing but funny to everyone I tell about it because they are thinking sure.....but anyway. If you get a chance cherck it out . It helps with headaces, energy, sleep, nerves, memory stimulate, the heart, blood preasuer,anxiety, fatigue and so many other things. You mize a certain amount in water or juice and can take it up to three times a day and with my tapering off and qiuting I blewieve that it is really helping. Let me know what you think.
Breath of LIfe, thank you, I'll look it up and see.
Well, that's exactly the way I feel, I've sufferred and feel like I have paid the price, evidently I haven't, it's hurting now, but not where I want the pills, there's nothing I know of that will calm this except time, although I will check out the BOL!
As I said, I was at the point where it didn't feel good, it was just a pain having to take those pills, believe or not, I don't like to take medicine. Just doesn't make since. I will get through this, I don't have a choice. I have a wonderful wife, great son and a real comfortable life style that I worked real hard for and I'm not going to flush it down the toilet, only the pills!
Thank you for your insight and it is well apprecitated!!!
C
Well, that's exactly the way I feel, I've sufferred and feel like I have paid the price, evidently I haven't, it's hurting now, but not where I want the pills, there's nothing I know of that will calm this except time, although I will check out the BOL!
As I said, I was at the point where it didn't feel good, it was just a pain having to take those pills, believe or not, I don't like to take medicine. Just doesn't make since. I will get through this, I don't have a choice. I have a wonderful wife, great son and a real comfortable life style that I worked real hard for and I'm not going to flush it down the toilet, only the pills!
Thank you for your insight and it is well apprecitated!!!
C
Hello Charlie2, I'm so glad to hear of your great success. I'm 10 days today and feel good, yesterday was kinda hard but all woirth it! I wanted to tell you that B-12 is for heart and circulation, what you need for energy is B-6. B-6 will help you w/ energy and metabolism. Please keep posting as I can only post during the day b/c of work. Much luck!
Struggler
Struggler
Thanks Struggler, I'm on the way!
Charlie - so great that you have 21 days clean. That is amazing!!! I haven't had 21 consecutive days clean in .....I don't think 2 years. I started Sub 5 days ago so I'm hoping that one day you will see my post here that says "21 days clean!" Maybe you have a bug? You should be so proud of yourself. Just ride it out. Think of the first few days of CT WDs...you survived that and you can survive anything!
No kidding, that was the worst flu I ever had! I never want or will go through that again. Life's so much better now, you know, if I could have taken a pill to feel like I do now, I would have. This is a bargain as it doesn't cost a thing, maybe a little achey now and then, but still, better than before. I can go out, plan a trip and not worry if I have enough pills or not. Great Feeling!
yes Charlie that is what I"m really lookin gforward to and tring to work on now. I'm still tapering but considering C/T with all the great support and medicine aides that I can take I will make it. I am doing things now even tapering but doing them without being high. On purpose becasue it is still hard for me to think of doing anything without being high ever again..does that make sense? Did you ever get a chance to check out that breath of life stuff?
LBC (Looking to be clean)
Haven't checked it out yet, had a good day! Worked, took a car of mine to be restored, then went to 5 acres of land we own and bush hogged it, just got home, it's almost 7:30. I had 3 days that were yukky but finally today I feel normal. I'm so excited about the fact that soon everyday will be normal, yeah! I was on those pills for about 2 1/2 years, starting out 1 a day, 2 a day, etc.
As far as cold turkey, well, I'm very impatient and usually hyper so I didn't taper. I actually knew I couldn't as I have been trying to quit for two years. I just looked so forward to coming home from work (it got earlier and earlier) and taking my pills, usually have a project of something to do when I took them. I used to take them before I went to my favorite stores, Home Depot, Lowes and Costco's, ha! It made me want to spend $$$, go figure. I really enjoyed it but it slowly vanished and then I was stuck with having to take the pills just so I wouldn't have the w/d's. I would panic when I would get low on pills and start hounding my supplier. I only had one so it was pretty tough at the end. About two months ago I did go two days but that was because I couldn't get any, I hated it, and DIDN"T want to quit.
I'm so thankful that I had my conversation with God that night. It was so real and the voice was so gentle. In my heart I know it was real, how else could I have quit c/t without the cravings. I promise to you that I have not had a craving for the pills. I do think about them all the time but I know what the ending is, pain, despair, shame, and that guilt feeling from the financial stand point, Gosh, all the stuff I could have bought or the amount of $$ I could have saved.
I've actually planned a trip in July to go Scuba diving in Bonaire for me and my son. We went on a trip in March but I had my drugs with me and didn't feel a thing from them while I was there. What a waste!
If you do the c/t thing, borrow a tread mill or eliptical trainer so you can excercise any time of the day. Expect to stay up all night or only sleep a few hours. The Restless leg thing killed me!~ I finally went to a Dr and got the Ambien which I'm going to stop tonight or tomorrow, depending on how my legs feel . The Dr gave me 2 weeks of pills. I would highly suggest getting them before I quit c/t! That's the only thing I would have done different, oh, and the Klonipen (sp) I didn't have that but the Dr said it would have made it a lot easier, She also told me she was proud of me which made me feel good.
Well, rattle,rattle rattle
GOOD LUCK and God Bless you!
C
Haven't checked it out yet, had a good day! Worked, took a car of mine to be restored, then went to 5 acres of land we own and bush hogged it, just got home, it's almost 7:30. I had 3 days that were yukky but finally today I feel normal. I'm so excited about the fact that soon everyday will be normal, yeah! I was on those pills for about 2 1/2 years, starting out 1 a day, 2 a day, etc.
As far as cold turkey, well, I'm very impatient and usually hyper so I didn't taper. I actually knew I couldn't as I have been trying to quit for two years. I just looked so forward to coming home from work (it got earlier and earlier) and taking my pills, usually have a project of something to do when I took them. I used to take them before I went to my favorite stores, Home Depot, Lowes and Costco's, ha! It made me want to spend $$$, go figure. I really enjoyed it but it slowly vanished and then I was stuck with having to take the pills just so I wouldn't have the w/d's. I would panic when I would get low on pills and start hounding my supplier. I only had one so it was pretty tough at the end. About two months ago I did go two days but that was because I couldn't get any, I hated it, and DIDN"T want to quit.
I'm so thankful that I had my conversation with God that night. It was so real and the voice was so gentle. In my heart I know it was real, how else could I have quit c/t without the cravings. I promise to you that I have not had a craving for the pills. I do think about them all the time but I know what the ending is, pain, despair, shame, and that guilt feeling from the financial stand point, Gosh, all the stuff I could have bought or the amount of $$ I could have saved.
I've actually planned a trip in July to go Scuba diving in Bonaire for me and my son. We went on a trip in March but I had my drugs with me and didn't feel a thing from them while I was there. What a waste!
If you do the c/t thing, borrow a tread mill or eliptical trainer so you can excercise any time of the day. Expect to stay up all night or only sleep a few hours. The Restless leg thing killed me!~ I finally went to a Dr and got the Ambien which I'm going to stop tonight or tomorrow, depending on how my legs feel . The Dr gave me 2 weeks of pills. I would highly suggest getting them before I quit c/t! That's the only thing I would have done different, oh, and the Klonipen (sp) I didn't have that but the Dr said it would have made it a lot easier, She also told me she was proud of me which made me feel good.
Well, rattle,rattle rattle
GOOD LUCK and God Bless you!
C
My pill taking made me want to shop too! I think it makes us weak to temptation of all kinds. I am only 24 hours clean and my legs are aching though I took Motrin, warm bath, exercised. I guess time will do the trick. Either way..my head is clear! Feels good and I am glad yours does too. I went cold turkey as well.I cant taper.I tried. Every time I got weak, stressed or upset-I made another excuse to take a pill. I cant do that when I have none left!
and guess what..I lived through whatever mini crisis came up! So I actually dont need the pills and neither do you! Stay on track.Write anytime.I'll be here.
and guess what..I lived through whatever mini crisis came up! So I actually dont need the pills and neither do you! Stay on track.Write anytime.I'll be here.
