Today marks 21 days sober!!!! It was a great day. Received a beautiful ecard from a special friend I've made on this site and then a co-worker (one I love) asked me to come down stairs...she doesn't know I am also a recovering alcoholic and surely didn't know I was celebrating 21 days today. I went down stairs and she gave me this beautiful bracelet, saying, she didn't know why but felt she needed to give it to me today. Wow...what a wonderful token to remind me of the hard work I've done the last 3 weeks...and she didn't have a clue she was giving me something on a special day. Then, went on myspace and ANOTHER friend I know through the program whom I haven't talked to for almost 5 years. He has remained sober...he hasn't stuck with the program but finds his inspiration and strength to remain sober through religion. But the point is: in the last two days I've heard from 4 people with considerable amount of sobriety and who had no idea I had relapsed and now on the road of sobriety, again. Our HP's sure do work in our lives...if we let him/her/it. That has been the biggest gift I've received over the last 3 weeks...a relationship and confirmation that my HP is, has been, and will ALWAYS be there for me. He/she/it hasn't turned it's back on me, ever...I've abandoned him/her/it and now that I am developing this relationship again, I continue to keep confirmation that I am NOT ALONE, that a power greater than myself is at work in the universe, and that when I allow, miracles do happen. I am excited to see what the future holds. Never have I seen in such a short period of sobriety such confirmation that I am where I need to be and I am exactly where I need to be.
Thank you all for being part of my begining of a new life. This website has been such a blessing. The ESH I continue to learn and the posts that get right to the point, are candid, and even the posts that have been hard to read with concepts that I still struggle with...I have continued to glean wisdom from each. As they say, true friends tell you what you need to hear, not what you want to hear. And thank you, again, for allowing me a place to rant and rave, even when it is about trivial things that are really just luxury problems. I can honestly say that at this very moment, my spirit feels bright, hopeful, and peaceful. Thank you all for being here.
In spirit,
Zipper
Great Job Zipper! Keep up the good work. I don't have any great words of wisdom for ya at the moment but I just wanted to pop on and give you some support!
CONGRATS!
Ciao for Now!
CONGRATS!
Ciao for Now!
Hi Zipper,
It makes my day to hear about your progress! I know what its like to abuse and be abused by alcohol, I'm always glad to hear of some one escaping..
Keep it up,
one day at a time, Cookster
It makes my day to hear about your progress! I know what its like to abuse and be abused by alcohol, I'm always glad to hear of some one escaping..
Keep it up,
one day at a time, Cookster
Brilliant Zipper, and those everyday miracles are....well, miracles lol
I remember sitting in a restuarant in Palma last August, writing in my journal - which I did ALL the time to try to control/manage my emotions....I was drinking like mad then...I think we'd been constantly drinking for about ten days on the trot by then, morning until morning, absolutely unconscious, staggering around with my reformed major drug dealing friend and the local gangsters...madness.....
Anyway....I hadn't been at all spiritual....I'd been going to Al-anon and open AA meetings for a few months and the HP thing......I'd slammed the door on GOd 35 years previously...
anyway...for some reason I wrote in my journal:
"God doesn't turn His back on you unless you turn your back on Him...
but the instant I finished that sentence I KNEW it was wrong and I put a line through it and wrote:
"God doesn't turn His back on you EVEN if you turn your back on Him" and I looked up into the sky at the very instant my hand finished writing those words and my eyes fell on the Cathedral and a statue of Jesus standing with His arms open in welcome....
I didn't even know the Cathedral was there, zipper, let alone the statue....and it all happened in the instant....the moment....like a symphony reaching a bloody climax!
I'm not religious, and I don't know about Jesus, but whoever He is, He really doesn't turn His back. Never for a moment, not for an instant.
You take good care. He loves you and you know it.
I remember sitting in a restuarant in Palma last August, writing in my journal - which I did ALL the time to try to control/manage my emotions....I was drinking like mad then...I think we'd been constantly drinking for about ten days on the trot by then, morning until morning, absolutely unconscious, staggering around with my reformed major drug dealing friend and the local gangsters...madness.....
Anyway....I hadn't been at all spiritual....I'd been going to Al-anon and open AA meetings for a few months and the HP thing......I'd slammed the door on GOd 35 years previously...
anyway...for some reason I wrote in my journal:
"God doesn't turn His back on you unless you turn your back on Him...
but the instant I finished that sentence I KNEW it was wrong and I put a line through it and wrote:
"God doesn't turn His back on you EVEN if you turn your back on Him" and I looked up into the sky at the very instant my hand finished writing those words and my eyes fell on the Cathedral and a statue of Jesus standing with His arms open in welcome....
I didn't even know the Cathedral was there, zipper, let alone the statue....and it all happened in the instant....the moment....like a symphony reaching a bloody climax!
I'm not religious, and I don't know about Jesus, but whoever He is, He really doesn't turn His back. Never for a moment, not for an instant.
You take good care. He loves you and you know it.
CONGRATULATIONS ZIPPER! I am so proud of you. I know how difficult this road is that we have taken. I am glad to know things are finally going well for you. and YOU my friend deserve it and the happiness it can bring to your life. You are a special person and it does my heart good to know that things are looking up for you. So enjoy being sober and be thankful. God bless and be safe....(((( ))))
Congratulations Zipper,
Your a ray of sunshine. I'm glad you found your way back to sobriety. You chose had the desire to live a happier, healthier way of living. I believe angels were sent to guide you! God never leaves us, he's always waiting with open arms for are return. I'm thankful he was looking out for you, even when you weren't looking his way.
You are a miracle and you deserve to live a life free from alcohol and all it's ugliness and pain that eventually comes with it. How wonderful that miracles are popping up all around you and that you are able to see them with a grateful heart.
Your a ray of sunshine. I'm glad you found your way back to sobriety. You chose had the desire to live a happier, healthier way of living. I believe angels were sent to guide you! God never leaves us, he's always waiting with open arms for are return. I'm thankful he was looking out for you, even when you weren't looking his way.
You are a miracle and you deserve to live a life free from alcohol and all it's ugliness and pain that eventually comes with it. How wonderful that miracles are popping up all around you and that you are able to see them with a grateful heart.
Martin, your story gave me chills. Thank you so much for sharing that!
Lookinup, amazing that you said "ray of sunshine". For some reason my entire life people have said this to me & I even won the "most ray of sunshine" award in elementary school. :) Thank you for reminding me of this...some days I feel like an ominous cloud.
In spirit,
Zipper
Lookinup, amazing that you said "ray of sunshine". For some reason my entire life people have said this to me & I even won the "most ray of sunshine" award in elementary school. :) Thank you for reminding me of this...some days I feel like an ominous cloud.
In spirit,
Zipper
Congradulations Zipper
keep posting your E.S.H and storing the gratitude:)
light and love zac
keep posting your E.S.H and storing the gratitude:)
light and love zac
