well i have been doing VERY well myself clean for 3 years this comin march. but 3 kids and i mean kids 18 -20 that i went to school with have died in the last month from an overdose. It makes me so angery to watch these kids go down like this they r dropping like flies. But at the end of the day or the end of another funeral i cant help but think i had something to do with it. along time ago when i was 17 i used to drive the biggest JUNKIE in our town down to the D to get heroin. he got ALOT of people to try it in my CAR and that set off an epidemic. i kept drivin them down and kept drivin and kept drivin it took 2 cars from me becuz of how much i drove. then i started to use with my X boyfirend (and he was that at the time as well.), and 2 of our "friends". after a 3 month run him and i quit together. but no one else quit... EVERYONE that tried it b4 we used and during kept goin. one of my best frineds is in jail/goin to prison, another is in a year program rehab and even after that... i kno they r never goin to be happy like they were before it came around. but i feel that if me and my friends never would have even brought it to little old fraser these kids would be at home with there familys but that was only 3 in 1 month not counting all the rest that died in the last year and those that r still out there using and goin to there friends funerals after shooting up.
but i guess the one thing i really want to kno is .... how do i help these kids? how can i feel better with my little brother who is my life going to school with all these junkies and i help make it a safer school? i kno its alot to ask for but every little bit helps.
the best you can do is keep leading by example--you are not at fault if it hadnt been you it wouls have been someone else
DeS, That's great you are doing well...........that's the first thing.....congrats to ya DeS........no easy feat like we all know.
Secondly, exactly like Amity says all ya can do is what you keep doing.......set by example.
Absolutely it would have been someone else driving..........or walking or running or crawling.........so DeS that guilt ya gotta drop it like a load of bricks........it's tough but it's truly not on you!!!!!!!!!!!!
Gotta say I hear ya though cause I too just worry sick about all the kids out there.......young kids............that used to eat me alive waiting in the line.......looking at college kids with their book bags with them all squatting in the wait line for their get well so they could make it to school.........young girls with their babies with them........just all young, young kids..............it made me so sad and oddly really pi*sed.........considering I was waiting for the same thing.
Then I'd lecture them on the way to the bus or the walk in the same direction to get home..........AFTER we FIXED of course..........yeah lecturing.....it ain't your fault DeS.........maybe up the road ya may look into speaking at schools or something..........that would help you and the kids.
Secondly, exactly like Amity says all ya can do is what you keep doing.......set by example.
Absolutely it would have been someone else driving..........or walking or running or crawling.........so DeS that guilt ya gotta drop it like a load of bricks........it's tough but it's truly not on you!!!!!!!!!!!!
Gotta say I hear ya though cause I too just worry sick about all the kids out there.......young kids............that used to eat me alive waiting in the line.......looking at college kids with their book bags with them all squatting in the wait line for their get well so they could make it to school.........young girls with their babies with them........just all young, young kids..............it made me so sad and oddly really pi*sed.........considering I was waiting for the same thing.
Then I'd lecture them on the way to the bus or the walk in the same direction to get home..........AFTER we FIXED of course..........yeah lecturing.....it ain't your fault DeS.........maybe up the road ya may look into speaking at schools or something..........that would help you and the kids.
Hey DeS,
it's a dilemma isn't it? I have recently come off methadone and have seen a counsellor, who said to me that as my parents are addicts(mums an alcoholic, dad's a H user) I have only learnt that way of dealing with things. So like it was said..lead by example.
It's bummer tho, losing people to this addiction is awful, I think a lot of people think it will never happen to them..when I first started I never thought I would become an addict..but I have had to sort it out. I look at my 55yr old dad who is still doing crack and heroin on pay day and look at the state of his life and I know I don't want to be like that
it's a dilemma isn't it? I have recently come off methadone and have seen a counsellor, who said to me that as my parents are addicts(mums an alcoholic, dad's a H user) I have only learnt that way of dealing with things. So like it was said..lead by example.
It's bummer tho, losing people to this addiction is awful, I think a lot of people think it will never happen to them..when I first started I never thought I would become an addict..but I have had to sort it out. I look at my 55yr old dad who is still doing crack and heroin on pay day and look at the state of his life and I know I don't want to be like that
