I got my 30day chip at AA. I am having a s***ty day. Because I am letting my mind get overtaken with my child who is OUTOF f***ING CONTROL. He is staying with his dad and yet he has been at my moms house everyday. I can't control it and its killing me. AHHHHHHHH! I guess this is what God wants me to do. So I guess I will do it but I will do it only kicking and screaming!... Now if I make it through this day. I will have thirty one.
This sucks,,
Jane
31. Just for today no smoking. This weekend will be interesting I am going with my friend who I used to smoke with. Only she isn't like me because she can just stop and doesn't consider it monumental or anything. Jeez some people. She knows I am not smoking and she doesn't have a hard time not. It will just have to be me not saying "You know what sounds good ?" and it totally does this morning. I didn't sleep well last night and that is huge for me. Cigarette would just give me a little bump. Bleh. Ok so here I go onward with my day. 1/2 day at work then a few hours drive. I will be in the red rocks filling my spiritual cup. What a great way to celebrate 30 plus days smoke free . Can't wait to go on a long run through the red rock canyon. Daaaang. I guess life it is good. I really feel like s*** beause of lack of sleep. but it wil get better.
Jane
Jane
