Today I have 321 days clean from meth and weed. Im so excited that I have finally broken free from these demons in my life. However I will be the 1st to tell you that it was not easy at all in the begining. I traveled what seamed to be one of the longest journey's in my life. The cravings that I had when I 1st quit were so bad. It seamed like no matter what I did or who I was with I thought about meth and weed and what I could do to get high.It was so horrible. Thank god that I did not give in on myself. That would have been the easy way out and I probably would still be an addict today. I have had many temptations along the way to today, including finding out that my mom has cancer :(. This is the hardest, and the most difficult thing for me. I lost my father in 98 to the same kind of cancer and now my mom too. I have been taking care of her as much as i can. I am an only child so its proven to be very difficult. During this time I have been fighting cravings and thoughts of using, but I know that I am strong and can make it. Anyways I wont ramble on anymore, just wanted to share.
If anyone is interested in hearing my "story" feel free to let me know and i will share it with you
Congratualtions!! You are an inspiration!
So sorry to hear about your mother, but nothing is worth losing yur sobriety over. What a blessing you have been for her, seeing you get your life back.
Faith and Hope(always)
Kerrbear
So sorry to hear about your mother, but nothing is worth losing yur sobriety over. What a blessing you have been for her, seeing you get your life back.
Faith and Hope(always)
Kerrbear
congrats! i know meth is a hard drug to get away from. quiting meth and pot at the same time must have been really difficult. but you did it. sorry to hear about your mom and dad. i can sympathize. my father in law is dying of lung cancer right now. have given him less than 3 months. stay strong. you will always cherish the days you have been able to spend with her.
Thanks for the response guys. My mom is doing good right now. She has to do chemo for the next nine weeks then we see what happens from there. Im still holding up and doing ok. Im still clean. I dont have any cravings right now. But they do come and go. The marijauna cravings and dreams are the only things i have now. I dont really crave the meth anymore (thank god), but that was a nightmare when i 1st quit. Im proud of my sobriety. Some think im silly for making "such a big fuss" over it, but im proud of it and willing to help anyway i can to get somone clean. Anyhow ill stop babbling now. I just wanted to thank you guys for your responses to my post.
You should be very very proud of your awesome acheivements so far, that 1st clean year is just around the corner.
You should be proud. That is really great, and to be able to stay straight when times are tough is really admirable. I will say a prayer for your mom. Stay strong!
