5 Months Of Heroin Use.

Heroin
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I've been using heroin for five months now.
It started when I met the most beautiful man I've ever met in my life.
[but he's been addicted to heroin for 2 years]
We are now very much in love. We have been through so much together already...
But I know I will never stay sober if i'm with him.
Everyone is telling me to dump him. Even I know it's my key to recovery.
But we have the most amazing relationship. We are absolutely perfect for eachother.
What happens when you find the one and you cant be with him?

I had tried heroin before. But broke up with thatboyfriend, one of the reasons being he was an addict. and i wouldnt date an addict.

But this guy is so different...
He warned me in the beginning that I shouldnt be with him. That I should stay away. Get sober.
He tells me he loves me so much, but he doesnt want me to throw my life away....
I'm not listening.
I'm addicted to him too.

So now I'm trying to get sober. Been on suboxone on and off. I'm trying to stay clean.
But I always give up......
Because He's still using.
He's not ready to get clean yet.
I just don't know what to do.
I can't switch back and forth with heroin and suboxone every day.
What kind of recovery is that? I don't recognize myself anymore.....

Any advice?

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Narcotics Anonymous.

Here is NA's HOW IT WORKS :
http://www.na.org/admin/include/spa...0it%20Works.pdf

I wish you the best.

Bob R