5th Day

Heroin
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I have just found you site - think it's great
I was using for about 3 months. Today is my 5th day cold turky. It has been hell. Frist time for me. I do feel a bit better. Have not had much sleep - or eaten much all week. I have to be in work mon. morning hope i can make it.
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Good on u. keep up the good work . BUT..Please take heed.......................If u decide that it wasn't all that bad and decide to " treat youself"in a week , or a month or whenever . Please don't because you will just b putting youself on that slippery slope. U think this time was rough . Every time gtettin clean again gets harder andharder. Mentally and physically. Truss, i've been there. Just like 90% of other addicts. Go 2 the cinema instead ha ha ha !!! No seriously , do something else or u really will regret it. U should b proud that u stopped now.A good achievement. U take care and good luck 4 the furure......................................And don't b late 4 work L.O.L.
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Paul
welcome to the board i am usually on the coke board but i like to spread my wings.

Good luck on getting clean

stay safe

Emily
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I had been on Vic's Perc's Oxy's for several years. The withdraw is almost the same. I made the switch to dope when the pills got to be a b**** to get a hold of. It seems everyone is hooked on those harmless little pills. I am not the same person I was just a few years ago. The money I have spent on drugs makes me sick. I'm 34. I want my life back. I was not even getting high anymore just mantaining.

Thanks for reading
feels good to get it out
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oh silly..... i know that feeling of not getting high anymore and just maintaining......that was the last yr of my addiction...a full time job that is, and like mi girlfriend says if this is unemployment, then these r the best benefits I could ask for.
hang in there kid..........doing great. Cold Turkey is admirable.couldnt do that myself. Like Herman said keep busy, a meeting might help, they kept me clean in the beginning..just to have something to do if nothing else, and mostof the people there r way cool, just nuts like all of us, ppl r good there though, they will help you help yourself
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Paul, like everyone has said I have to warn you also.....good for you....you have a chance....3 months turns into ten years real quick....so you're at the right point to do this....please do it.

Here's something I was told by a "Lifer"....you have to listen to these people who've been doing it for twenty years.....they'll tell you that.

O.K. so here it is.....your first kick.....every single kick is different....now if it's not all that bad like Herman said don't figure what the heck.

The minute you feel that first craving.....the moment of it.....if you give into it, and say you have seven days....can't take it anymore, and score....the next time it will be way, way worse.....the cravings because you fed it....you gave it what it wants....so next time around it's gonna try to take you out the same way.....I believe that because I experienced it....you keep going there...hope you get a tiny bit of sleep even.....hang tight.

Silly, you too....doing good....just keep it up.
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I did get a bit of sleep last night. Not the best, the sweats are the worst. When will this be over. today is day 6. I do feel better. Just weak ans tired. I have not been outside all week. Today it's cold and rainy here. Who wants to go out in that. I have to go to work Mon.

I understand what you talking about. I have a brother who has used off and on for the last 15 years ( Crack ). I have heard everything there is to hear. ( he does great for months - a year ) I have asked him 100 times what makes him go back. You can't pick up just for a day.

I just want to get better, and then maybe try to help some of the people I care about get clean. My little sister eats pills like Pez. How do I make her understand.

Thanks again, Wish me luck for work!!!!!!!!!!!
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may feel that tired feeling for quite some time....took a long time for me to get my energy back, never thought it would come back, but it did..........but thats me, everyones different
as for helping others....Lord knows i wish there was a magic way.i try and help my son every day and the best thing i can do is stay clean and show him there isa better way..hang in there and God bless
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Paulie good on ya! Stay strong, dude! Check my post Panicky? Crying? Food helps- this is the secret weapon I have discovered-after much self-experimentation, a 20+ yr problem, etc. It works! Eat to re wire yr. brain. I am telling all who seem to need to hear this good news.Magnesium also helps w/ the cramps & all over clenched fist feeling but don't take too much.. U probably have zero appetite now but please try to eat & eat right and no sugar if you can .I cleaned up, & discovered this food-mood thing when I still felt wretched, so started reading, eating & observing the affects.I got my sleep pattern back, evened out the moodies,didn't have crying jags or panicks. Certain foods (nothing weird or disgusting) can help yr brain start back up producing dopamine, seratonin, enkephalins, etc. Mild exercise helps the production of natural endorphins, which smack-use has put out of kilter in yr body. There is hope w/o dope! & doing it w/ food, the right types of food, is great, as you gotta eat anyway, right? Feed yr head & good luck Keep posting. Bless u
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Today is day 9. The wrost is over. I still feel so weak and tired. I thought I was going to wake up on day 7 and feel like a new man. I was so wrong. I am sleeping a bit better. The night sweats suck. I have been eating better. How long is this going to last?

Off to work
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Hi there , only me , Herman. Just a suggestion 4 ur sleepless nights. Ttry acupunture , electro-stimulation therapy and massages. I know they all sound a bit "out there" but they can really help.They help with sleeplessness, anxiety, aches etc... good luck and keep up the good work. As for the other symptoms , they're differenr with everybody but They Don't Last Forever.
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Paul,
Its good you went cold turkey cause its good to feel the pain.It reminds us what we do not want.i was clean for 13 years then 6 years started doing coke then oxcycontinthen herion again.each time you go through withdraw it gets worse.I know from experience.check into rehab if your serious about staying clean.last time i went through 3.5 days before going to detox.
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Paulie, kid stay with it- r u eating?The Tiredness: U may have a slight iron deficiency,try a steak if possible. If u are feeling sorta clenched all over cramps I REALLY REALLY reccommend Magnesium tablets- My man has chronic bad back-that's a big part of his using-self medicating, u know- HE got a bottle of mag. tabs, took one & w/in 1 hour felt a whole lot better- like night & day, he swears by it. I tried it & felt it too, can't emphasize how bloody miraculous this stuff is. BUT follow the directions carefully dont take too much. That tiredness is a result of yr Adrenaline surging thruout yr bod., I bet. Try to avoid sugar if u can.Sugar is an adrenaline kicker, we wanna tamp it back. Hard, yeah, as many kicking crave sugar like crazy but try orange juice if u can. Sweet but the right kind of sugar, u know.Symptoms of too much adrenaline:chills,yawning, tiredness,runny eyes & nose,tension, nervousness, loose bowels-sound familiar? Try exercise: walk down the street 10 min. (time yr self), turn around walk back. Increase this by 5 min. every other day.This will help generate new endorphin production, which by yr opie use you have caused to cease. The endorphs WILL come back.I found around 2 full wks.Really hot showers or a hot bath is grand for a bit of a break. But all this about the food, magnesium, etc. I know works cause I've used it on myself. Hang in there keep posting.
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Hot baths r the best. Gives relief 4 ages. I myself think taking multi vit's , extra vit c and omega 3 oil whilst recovering helps and as the others mentioned, although u might not feel like it, eat regularly and proper.Hope u conquer this. all the best ., herman
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Your over the worst now, I lasted 3 days the last time I done this, and went right back on the smack, that was about 5 or 6 weeks ago, it's my first day now again and am dreading it, was smoking a half garden a day (a 16th), it's going to be heavy.

I just hope I can do it this time.

Goodluck hope I get to day 5
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Pardon my observation. I Iive with an addict who goes out after day 4 or 5 and uses. He seems to get really mad at everything at that point instead of looking at it as the fact that he just passed the pysical worsed. Today he said to me that he looks at it as negative that he hasnt used in that long and needs to start looking at it as a positive. He was using today. When he is mad at at that day he is not posting he is flipping. YOu are already ahead of the game on that!
I already said that to him months ago. . All i know is he face down in the next room high right now and my heart is broken for him. It is broken for me too because i am going to be 34 next week and have been waiting on life for 6 years. My fault. I wont look at the ring on my finger because it has been on mu right hand and he doesnt even notice.
Look.You are here that is more than him. I wish I could get him here. I have told him to come here and get support. GET PASSED THOSE DAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I I AM ASKING TELLING YOU..WHY waste what you just went through?
Jen
PS GOD BLESS YOU! Keep it up. Some of you have to win this battle.
Give everyone hope! If you are here you are already open and can do it!
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Paul,
You have just about made it withdraw is allmost over completley.it will take about a month or two to regain your legs completly,and for me it took about a month before i wasn't sensitive to cold or hot.So keep strong brother and keep posting hope to hear more from you.Don't know if they have NA meetings where you live but if they do start going!
Bruce B, recovering addict.