Just wanted to stop by and share a milestone...eight 24 hours in a row! This is the most clean time I've had since the begining of November! I can't say it has been easy...in these eight days my parents have told me they don't want to see me, my sister betrayed me, my best friend has distanced himself from me (reasons besides sobriety...in this area, he supports me completely), my bank has had issues and so I have no access to money until Monday (possibly god doing for me what I can't do for myself...no cash, no booze), and I've had many uncomfortable and demeaning interactions with a co-worker....guess what, I've stayed sober.
Interestingly, just a few weeks ago I was realizing how emotionally constipated I've been and actually said outloud, "I need a good cry". The universe sure heard. I've gone into the bathroom at work at least twice a day and bawled.
This is not the first time I've tried to get sober...my first rehab was at the age of 21. I can honestly say that this time I am sure being tested to see if my desire is greater than the challenges set before me. I am grateful to say that thus far, my desire has served me well.
Thank you all for being here and for letting me share.
In spirit,
Zipper
Gidday Zipper
Well done on 8 days and keep posting, are you able to get to AA meetings and have face to face contact with other alkys? It really does help to actually see the endless hope in another recovering alkys eyes.
light and love zac
Well done on 8 days and keep posting, are you able to get to AA meetings and have face to face contact with other alkys? It really does help to actually see the endless hope in another recovering alkys eyes.
light and love zac
Thank you Zac for your response...yes, there are meetings all around town. I used to be quite active in the 12 step program and definitely appreciate the face-to-face interactions. I am still working through some issues I carry about meetings. I've had some bad experiences. I know that shouldn't keep me away. I praying for willingness!
Thanks again for your response.
Zipper
Thanks again for your response.
Zipper
Zipper,
The key to meetings is Acceptance. Honesty, Openess and Willingness--they are the HOW of AA and HOW I manage to stay away from that dreadful foe. It damn near ruined me. Ther IS A SOLUTION.
The key to meetings is Acceptance. Honesty, Openess and Willingness--they are the HOW of AA and HOW I manage to stay away from that dreadful foe. It damn near ruined me. Ther IS A SOLUTION.
ZIPPER!!!!!!!! CONGRATULATIONS!I am SO GLAD to see you here! I was worried and wondered what happened to you. I am so proud of you for your 8 days of soberity . We all can identify with that first 8 days. WONDERFUL! keep it up. I have 5 weeks done now and it's easier but I still have my days where I want to drink but there is no way I am touching the bottle. Please keep posting on this board. I find that this site is the thing that helps me the most. I really really am glad to see you came back on. I have thought about you often since your last post. God bless and be safe.
Thank you all for the love and support. I feel honored.
Long day at work but heading into the weekend feeling strong and optimistic.
Again, thanks to all.
Hugs,
Zipper
Long day at work but heading into the weekend feeling strong and optimistic.
Again, thanks to all.
Hugs,
Zipper
How did your weekend go?
Congrats on eight days.
I don't post much, but I like to come here and read. I too struggle with sobriety. I go a few weeks here a couple of months there, even went a year not long ago. Deep down I guess I really don't want to stop, but alcohol has caused me so many problems in every aspect.
I am going to a psychiatric hospital right now for intense out patient therapy and will probably join AA again after I am done. Before I was an inpatient to withdraw.
I have good and bad things to say about AA, but it's a great support system....It's hard to do it alone. I try and stay busy, go to meetings, but it is still tough, but it does get easier the longer you abstain.
Best wishes to you.
I don't post much, but I like to come here and read. I too struggle with sobriety. I go a few weeks here a couple of months there, even went a year not long ago. Deep down I guess I really don't want to stop, but alcohol has caused me so many problems in every aspect.
I am going to a psychiatric hospital right now for intense out patient therapy and will probably join AA again after I am done. Before I was an inpatient to withdraw.
I have good and bad things to say about AA, but it's a great support system....It's hard to do it alone. I try and stay busy, go to meetings, but it is still tough, but it does get easier the longer you abstain.
Best wishes to you.
Hi Zipper,
Everyday we don't pick up that first drink, just for today we can't get drunk. You are a miracle because you want sobriety and better health and happiness it brings. Be gentle and loving to yourself these first few wks. You deserve love and happiness. The bottle only brought a fake feeling of happiness and love. You can do this one day at a time.
Everyday we don't pick up that first drink, just for today we can't get drunk. You are a miracle because you want sobriety and better health and happiness it brings. Be gentle and loving to yourself these first few wks. You deserve love and happiness. The bottle only brought a fake feeling of happiness and love. You can do this one day at a time.
