I do believe I am having a breakthrough!!!
So huge was my ego that it has stubbornly refused to accept a higher power, it wants to be in control and have what it wants and that's that.
The last couple of days a wall seems to be coming down and I am admitting that there is indeed what at the moment I am calling a greater intelligence than my ego operating.
Denial, denial, denial has plagued me for so long. A warped religious upbringing has severly interfered with my connection to this intelligence. But somehow, after being brought to my knees about the way I operate in this world, I am finally allowing the acknowledgement of an intelligence far far far greater than ego.
Hey Lacey
I love those breakthrough moments - they make life worth living don't they?
I grow vegetables. Now when I plant that dry looking seed and a few weeks later there's a plant and a few months later there's edible food! Wow - no that's an amazing thing - only intelligence could have designed something so wonderful.
who or what that intelligence is? Well - that's a whole other story!! LOL
10pm on a saturday night and I'm going to bed - pretty sad? Well at least I'm going to bed and not passing out.
have a good one Lacey.
I love those breakthrough moments - they make life worth living don't they?
I grow vegetables. Now when I plant that dry looking seed and a few weeks later there's a plant and a few months later there's edible food! Wow - no that's an amazing thing - only intelligence could have designed something so wonderful.
who or what that intelligence is? Well - that's a whole other story!! LOL
10pm on a saturday night and I'm going to bed - pretty sad? Well at least I'm going to bed and not passing out.
have a good one Lacey.
That's wonderful Lacey, whoever or whatever He/She/It is......what a relief not to carry the entire World on your own shoulders!
