She's got the number's now Ali and they can surround her with a lot of support & love...now all she has to do is pick up the phone & call...
Jodi...
I hope you've called and asked for help...you are worth it and you do deserve it...
Let us know how you're doing when you can...
xoxo
stacey
Hey Jodi!
I left you a message on the "people I have missed" thread.
Michelle
I left you a message on the "people I have missed" thread.
Michelle
Stacey,
thanks for letting me know..
This is the 2nd time today that it seems im missing out on recent events..
Just signed on 20 mins ago..
Glad to hear that happened however..exciting
ll be thinking of her..praying for her..
Hugs
Ali
thanks for letting me know..
This is the 2nd time today that it seems im missing out on recent events..
Just signed on 20 mins ago..
Glad to hear that happened however..exciting
ll be thinking of her..praying for her..
Hugs
Ali
Okay.
I'm starting to feel really squirrely. Doubting myself.
I did just talk to Lisa on the phone.
She seems to have faith in me.
Although I don't know why.
Just today, Jodi.
Just today.
I'm starting to feel really squirrely. Doubting myself.
I did just talk to Lisa on the phone.
She seems to have faith in me.
Although I don't know why.
Just today, Jodi.
Just today.
As sick as I was last night, as bad as my gut has ached all day, as bad as I want to just get one day....just 24 hours...
I really feel that if I can just get through today, I will have a little bit of pride and feel like I accomplished something major. And that will give me something to build on.
Just knowing that one....one pill, one drink, will stop the shakes (for now) is what does me in every damn time.
By the way, Thanks stacey for the website. I found 2 women's meetings...one tomorrow, one the next day.
Also,
I like the online big book. I ditched mine about 20 years ago. Time to buy a new one.
I really feel that if I can just get through today, I will have a little bit of pride and feel like I accomplished something major. And that will give me something to build on.
Just knowing that one....one pill, one drink, will stop the shakes (for now) is what does me in every damn time.
By the way, Thanks stacey for the website. I found 2 women's meetings...one tomorrow, one the next day.
Also,
I like the online big book. I ditched mine about 20 years ago. Time to buy a new one.
That's totally normal Jodi...I still get those squirrely thoughts in my head that's why I go to meetings...seems for me, the only way to shut the committee up sometimes....
Keep posting & talking Jodi....did you find a meeting?
xoxo
Keep posting & talking Jodi....did you find a meeting?
xoxo
Jodi honey
So many of us have faith in you
You know why?
Cus most of us have been there....
We KNOW you can change your life, cus we felt the same as you now and we did it...
So are you going in somewhere?
getting away will make a huge difference honey..sometimes we need to pull back some in order to get a better focus on things..
Even though you are feeling shaky right now, keep going through the motions...keep acting as if you DO have confidence...
Fake it till one day you make it...
We are so here for you honey
Hugs
Ali
So many of us have faith in you
You know why?
Cus most of us have been there....
We KNOW you can change your life, cus we felt the same as you now and we did it...
So are you going in somewhere?
getting away will make a huge difference honey..sometimes we need to pull back some in order to get a better focus on things..
Even though you are feeling shaky right now, keep going through the motions...keep acting as if you DO have confidence...
Fake it till one day you make it...
We are so here for you honey
Hugs
Ali
Stacey,
(see above post) we must've been posting at the same time.
By the way, can I give you a different email address for me? I got your email yesterday but I hardly use that account anymore...prying eyes, ya know?
Here's the one I like to use. jroach1279@hotmail.com
Thank you.
I'm just trying to keep myself busy and moving.
I managed to get a couple of things done around here today and working on laundry. Just to keep my mind occupied.
I'm going to clean out the fireplace, bring in a s***load of firewood and prepare to hunker down curled up in front of the fire for a long long night.
Please God, let me make it through today. I'm so scared I won't.
I know I can.
Please.
(see above post) we must've been posting at the same time.
By the way, can I give you a different email address for me? I got your email yesterday but I hardly use that account anymore...prying eyes, ya know?
Here's the one I like to use. jroach1279@hotmail.com
Thank you.
I'm just trying to keep myself busy and moving.
I managed to get a couple of things done around here today and working on laundry. Just to keep my mind occupied.
I'm going to clean out the fireplace, bring in a s***load of firewood and prepare to hunker down curled up in front of the fire for a long long night.
Please God, let me make it through today. I'm so scared I won't.
I know I can.
Please.
I know, Ali.
In a perfect world, I could check in somewhere for a month or two...or even just a few days. It's nearly impossible for me to do that right now. That's a last ditch effort. I've gotta give this way a shot.
My job will not be held for me. I am self-employed. I have a contract that I will either be there every day or I will find my own replacement. Which means I have to train somebody for days, pay way more than I make, and let my bills go while I'm not working.
My husband is bringing home $150 a week at best. That doesn't pay the bills. s*** he costs me more to have around than he brings in.
I've got to do this.
I've got to do this.
I'm scared but I've got to conquer my fear and face it head on.
I just want today.
In a perfect world, I could check in somewhere for a month or two...or even just a few days. It's nearly impossible for me to do that right now. That's a last ditch effort. I've gotta give this way a shot.
My job will not be held for me. I am self-employed. I have a contract that I will either be there every day or I will find my own replacement. Which means I have to train somebody for days, pay way more than I make, and let my bills go while I'm not working.
My husband is bringing home $150 a week at best. That doesn't pay the bills. s*** he costs me more to have around than he brings in.
I've got to do this.
I've got to do this.
I'm scared but I've got to conquer my fear and face it head on.
I just want today.
Hi Michelle! Love your avatar!!! It's so you! Stop by more often!
I just want today.
f*** that. What I REALLY want is a cold beer and....
It's been about, what, only 18 hours since I swore I was done? How quickly we forget.
But not today, Jodi.
Okay, I'm done freaking out. I'm going to go fold a load of whites. Matching socks should keep me busy, huh? lol
Am I going to make it?
f*** that. What I REALLY want is a cold beer and....
It's been about, what, only 18 hours since I swore I was done? How quickly we forget.
But not today, Jodi.
Okay, I'm done freaking out. I'm going to go fold a load of whites. Matching socks should keep me busy, huh? lol
Am I going to make it?
You CAN do this..
I understand what you mean about your job...that does put you in a tough position im sure..
Being self employed has its set backs in situations like this..
Hey honey...
You said something that really spoke to me..
Cus i wrote the exact same thing in my diaries when i stopped..
and it was true...
Once you get that FIRST 24 hours under your belt...
It will spur you on and giveyou a level of confidence that you forgot you had..
Honestly thats what happened to me and thats what i wrote..
in our minds, 24 hours has just never been done before, so once we actually DO it...we think..well what else can i do that i thought i couldnt..
Then next thing you know, your at 48 hours, next thing 3 days...
You can do this
You can do this..
You can SO do this...
hugs
Ali
I understand what you mean about your job...that does put you in a tough position im sure..
Being self employed has its set backs in situations like this..
Hey honey...
You said something that really spoke to me..
Cus i wrote the exact same thing in my diaries when i stopped..
and it was true...
Once you get that FIRST 24 hours under your belt...
It will spur you on and giveyou a level of confidence that you forgot you had..
Honestly thats what happened to me and thats what i wrote..
in our minds, 24 hours has just never been done before, so once we actually DO it...we think..well what else can i do that i thought i couldnt..
Then next thing you know, your at 48 hours, next thing 3 days...
You can do this
You can do this..
You can SO do this...
hugs
Ali
You are doing great...everytime that urge/trigger comes up and it will a lot, give it to God...just pray for him to help you, even if it's every minute...Keep reading the Big book...an keep yourself hydrated, water preferably....and have some chocolate around because detoxing off of the alcohol, your body is going to crave that sugar and you can somewhat trick your body with chocolate instead of alcohol....
I will send you an e-mail in a minute to the new account...I remember just watching Lifetime movie channel for 24 hours straight in the beginning but it does get better.....You are so worth it!
I hope so much you can get to the woman's meeting tomorrow but we can talk about that tomorrow...
xoxo
I will send you an e-mail in a minute to the new account...I remember just watching Lifetime movie channel for 24 hours straight in the beginning but it does get better.....You are so worth it!
I hope so much you can get to the woman's meeting tomorrow but we can talk about that tomorrow...
xoxo
Jodie
RIGHT ON!!! you go girl.
Heck I did that too in those first real bad days. I'd crave so bad and I'd think, OK just go wash 5 dinnerplates first. Then when the cravings come bad again, OK just load the clothes in the washing machine.
Just break the chores down into tiny components then take a quick break, then force yourself to do the next bit. It really helps and before you know it a couple of hours have gone by that you haven't picked up.
you're doing great - it takes a lot of energy to do this at first - so don't be too hard on yourself.
Idg.
RIGHT ON!!! you go girl.
Heck I did that too in those first real bad days. I'd crave so bad and I'd think, OK just go wash 5 dinnerplates first. Then when the cravings come bad again, OK just load the clothes in the washing machine.
Just break the chores down into tiny components then take a quick break, then force yourself to do the next bit. It really helps and before you know it a couple of hours have gone by that you haven't picked up.
you're doing great - it takes a lot of energy to do this at first - so don't be too hard on yourself.
Idg.
(((((((((((((((((((jodi)))))))))))))))))))))))
big gentle *hug* for you............
you are so strong. you can do this........
these yucky feelings will not last forever............
you are such an inspiration........
i bet you would not believe all the people that you are blessing with this
thread, people that are not posting and just reading, lost in their own world of addiction............are watching you walk through the fire and i know that somewhere ,someone is empowered to do the same, because of your will to be clean and sober.................
your strenght and your courage is powerful .............
i am so pulling for you.........sending you tons of encouragement........
praying for the day when you just feel better and the dope sickness has left your body and mind............
i think of you often through out my day and pray for you.............
keep on keepin on...............
you are amazing and i am just sending you love to your heart from mine.
thumper
big gentle *hug* for you............
you are so strong. you can do this........
these yucky feelings will not last forever............
you are such an inspiration........
i bet you would not believe all the people that you are blessing with this
thread, people that are not posting and just reading, lost in their own world of addiction............are watching you walk through the fire and i know that somewhere ,someone is empowered to do the same, because of your will to be clean and sober.................
your strenght and your courage is powerful .............
i am so pulling for you.........sending you tons of encouragement........
praying for the day when you just feel better and the dope sickness has left your body and mind............
i think of you often through out my day and pray for you.............
keep on keepin on...............
you are amazing and i am just sending you love to your heart from mine.
thumper
Jodi, I will be more than happy to locate any rehabs close. Iwill be your advocate and get you in...just let me know.
You are doing it...it only takes us a minute at a time. Thats all. And just tell yourself no matter what, using is not an option.
By the way, thank you. You have reminded me exactly why I stay away from that first one. I know your pain, I lived it. And I know you can do it.
Please, go to that meeting. Put your hand up and say you have one day and I promise you, you will not be alone after that. Those people will help you, Jodi.
I really wish you could go away to a safe rehab, but I think you can make it. Girl, if you can EVEN FOLD SOCKS ON THE FIRST DAY, you are gona make it.
Don't give in to that demon....time to take your life back.
You are doing it...it only takes us a minute at a time. Thats all. And just tell yourself no matter what, using is not an option.
By the way, thank you. You have reminded me exactly why I stay away from that first one. I know your pain, I lived it. And I know you can do it.
Please, go to that meeting. Put your hand up and say you have one day and I promise you, you will not be alone after that. Those people will help you, Jodi.
I really wish you could go away to a safe rehab, but I think you can make it. Girl, if you can EVEN FOLD SOCKS ON THE FIRST DAY, you are gona make it.
Don't give in to that demon....time to take your life back.
LB, You are so right about the sock thing.(LOL) I couldn't even move out of my bed for the first few days. I had no energy at all. Shantel
Has Jodi posted at all today?
Jodi, you are doing so great. I loved what Thumper posted to you...
{{{hugs}}}
Jodi, you are doing so great. I loved what Thumper posted to you...
{{{hugs}}}
Hey Jodi...
Check in if you can...even if it's just to say you're still breathing...
Thinking about you,
xoxo
Stacey
Not yet, Janet...
Check in if you can...even if it's just to say you're still breathing...
Thinking about you,
xoxo
Stacey
Not yet, Janet...
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