Well, I have actually made one whole year without any drink or drugs. Amazing!!
Thinking back to this time last year I can safely say I never wish to go through those awful first days of sobriety - yuk.
I woke up that morning and looked at the light on the ceiling. Where am I? was the first thing that came to mind. Slowly I realised I was lying on the settee in the lounge with my then boyfriend. There was smashed glass all over the floor. I felt absolutley horrendous, oh no, not again. In the kitchen there was bread and marge all over the place. In the back room there was coffee stains all over the desk, up the walls - I used to knock back loads of large brandy coffees - and all over my computer which sat there completely destroyed. I had smashed the screen up, smashed the keyboard up and splashed brandy coffe all over the poor machine. There were half bottles of empty brandy all over the place. All I remember is several trips to the shop for more booze and then getting angry because I couldn't log on to a website. After that ??????????????
The agony, the despair, the darkness from the depths at the realisation of having to get through that day was awful beyond belief. Having to clear up the destruction of yet another hellish night was so painful. I guess I knew this was it, I could no longer cope with living like this.
That day was hell. Never ever ever again do I wish to experience that pain.
I am really pleased I have managed one year. It has been slow and difficult but I am definatley starting to see positive changes in myself. I am feeling better at long last!
Gidday Lacey
Congradulations on 1 year and walk with pride in the knowledge that you are sober and proud
Light and love Zac
Congradulations on 1 year and walk with pride in the knowledge that you are sober and proud
Light and love Zac
Happy Birthday Lacey...
One year is such a huge accomplishment...thank you for sharing your story and the best part is today you are a miracle!
Have an awesome day....do something special for yourself...
(((hugs)))
Stacey
One year is such a huge accomplishment...thank you for sharing your story and the best part is today you are a miracle!
Have an awesome day....do something special for yourself...
(((hugs)))
Stacey
Congradulations Lacey,
Its wonderful to hear your story and read your posts, your effort to get well is insiring. It will be spring soon and you will be digging in your allotment. Good luck with those slugs! Keep us up to date on how things are going for you.
Bye for now, Cookster.
Its wonderful to hear your story and read your posts, your effort to get well is insiring. It will be spring soon and you will be digging in your allotment. Good luck with those slugs! Keep us up to date on how things are going for you.
Bye for now, Cookster.
Lacey...Congrats!!! Happy Birthday! So happy for you...a year! I remember celebrating my first year and being so happy I did it....and actually surprised quite a few people...but I was also pregnant for 9 months out of that year....so I didn't quite feel that I did it for myself...the second year...I earned!
One day at a time...{{{HUGS}}} Love Gina
One day at a time...{{{HUGS}}} Love Gina
Happy 1 year sober birthday! Such an inspiration, your story could of been my story too. I am grateful that you have a year and are helping to keep me sober by posting here. Congratulations!
Wow, thanks guys!!
I am definatley proud of myself for staying sober and drug free for one whole year. Sometimes I crave alcohol badly. Sometimes I really wish I had some marajuana and my pipe. Other times I don't know how I am going to get through another autumn without magic mushrooms. I was all set to go mushrooming last year after much agonising too-ing and fro-ing. I finally decided to go, got my gear out for the weekend, took the dog to the park......and she broke her toe!! We would be going nowhere for the next month, she was confined to the house. Mushroom season over.
I am really glad now, because I wouldn't be here congratulating myself on one year of no mind altering substances.
It has been hard. I hope it gets easier. I am definatley alot better in myself - mentally and physically. I thank my wonderful homoeopath for her great wisdom at prescribing the right remedies for me over the years that have helped me struggle to this point I am at now.
I am moving forward but sometimes wistfully remember my old life. Sometimes I feel I am betraying drugs and alcohol and the people involved, and the non materialistic lifestyle. Sometimes I don't know if I can live the rest of my life without substances, but I know I have to. I cannot go back to that life, it is as simple as that.
At least I know where I stand!!
I am definatley proud of myself for staying sober and drug free for one whole year. Sometimes I crave alcohol badly. Sometimes I really wish I had some marajuana and my pipe. Other times I don't know how I am going to get through another autumn without magic mushrooms. I was all set to go mushrooming last year after much agonising too-ing and fro-ing. I finally decided to go, got my gear out for the weekend, took the dog to the park......and she broke her toe!! We would be going nowhere for the next month, she was confined to the house. Mushroom season over.
I am really glad now, because I wouldn't be here congratulating myself on one year of no mind altering substances.
It has been hard. I hope it gets easier. I am definatley alot better in myself - mentally and physically. I thank my wonderful homoeopath for her great wisdom at prescribing the right remedies for me over the years that have helped me struggle to this point I am at now.
I am moving forward but sometimes wistfully remember my old life. Sometimes I feel I am betraying drugs and alcohol and the people involved, and the non materialistic lifestyle. Sometimes I don't know if I can live the rest of my life without substances, but I know I have to. I cannot go back to that life, it is as simple as that.
At least I know where I stand!!
Congrats on your first year!!! I'm so glad you escaped the Hell you once were living & that you remember the insanity. I also can not cope with living like this any longer. So, I'm doing this one day @ a time. I can relate to your story. Thanks for being a big inspiration. Thanks for sharing about that you still have the cravings. I bet one day thats going to disappear from your thoughts. I hope they will for me to. I hear how freed you feel now compared to then.
Chris
