Hey Girl,
How are you holding up? You hanging in there?
Just checking in and sending you my best...
SP
I'm not doing to good. Still feeling like sh*t and been taking more pills. I should of went of went to the hospital, but instead I took the easy way out and took pills. I feel like a failure, well I am a failure. Supposed to go to rehab monday and i already know i won't go, not taking high doses of pills, just half a pill when i start feeling like s***.
So, I'm gonna have to go through all of this again, and i have no one to blame but myself.
Right now I hate myself. Thats why i haven't been posting, just been getting on once in while reading what's going on. Thought i'd let you know whats up, interested to see what everyone has to say.
Thanks for your support. sorry to disappoint everyone.
God Bless! Susan
So, I'm gonna have to go through all of this again, and i have no one to blame but myself.
Right now I hate myself. Thats why i haven't been posting, just been getting on once in while reading what's going on. Thought i'd let you know whats up, interested to see what everyone has to say.
Thanks for your support. sorry to disappoint everyone.
God Bless! Susan
Susan, You are not a failure. Why do you say you already know you won't go to rehab on Monday? You have not disappointed anyone we have all been there. Shantel
Why not go to rehab? You are NOT a failure, you're a person. Opiate addiction is no joke, and no one who has been through it could blame you one little bit for taking a pill. We all did it, over and over and over again we took the pill. If you want your life back, there are options, and when you're ready, they will be there.
Don't give up. If you only took a little bit then you have still started clearing a lot of it out of your body. Just don't go backwards take the very minimun to survive and get some help on monday. Please don't give up.... We are in this together. L
Susam,
You are far from a failure for not bein able to go completely cold turkey. You need to be gentle with yourself, be proud that you are really trying and that maybe by accepting that you can't do this completly alone, you are asking for help and that is more of a success than anything.
I also relaly think that in order to move forward, there have to be spots wher you move back, or get stuck, or otherwise you can't do any real growing.
Email me, let's talk about this some more.
And if you could do any one thing to help yourself (with the exceptio of stopping drugs completely), what would it be right now?
What do you think?
And don't ever be ashamed to post here. Do you think any of us have't done (or do) things we are ashamed of all the time... hell no. This (for the most part) is the most unjudging group of people you will find (we're all in very delicate glass houses) and one of the safest places for you to express yourself.
You are still amazing and strong - this is just a part of the process.
xo
SP
You are far from a failure for not bein able to go completely cold turkey. You need to be gentle with yourself, be proud that you are really trying and that maybe by accepting that you can't do this completly alone, you are asking for help and that is more of a success than anything.
I also relaly think that in order to move forward, there have to be spots wher you move back, or get stuck, or otherwise you can't do any real growing.
Email me, let's talk about this some more.
And if you could do any one thing to help yourself (with the exceptio of stopping drugs completely), what would it be right now?
What do you think?
And don't ever be ashamed to post here. Do you think any of us have't done (or do) things we are ashamed of all the time... hell no. This (for the most part) is the most unjudging group of people you will find (we're all in very delicate glass houses) and one of the safest places for you to express yourself.
You are still amazing and strong - this is just a part of the process.
xo
SP
P.S. If you don't go to rehab. I will make it my personal mission to kick your a**. what do you think about that? Hmmm??
*Stands with he arms crossed in front ofchest*
Wai. what part of the country are you in again? *wink*
*Stands with he arms crossed in front ofchest*
Wai. what part of the country are you in again? *wink*
