If any of you here have done addiction counselling how did you feel after a session? Before I go in I think I am doing good and then after having a session I come out feeling like crap. I don't know if it's the actual fact of having to bring up some things that I have kept buried underneath gallons of alcohol or if it's the fact that they are working with me to change my thinking patterns and I realize how far down the scale I am when it comes to being a well rounded "happy" person. Whatever the reason the next day I always feel kinda sad,nervous and I get this feeling in the pit of my stomach like dooms day is just around the corner.Can anyone here share something of your experience with me and how you dealt with it or am I different from everyone else who has gone through addiction counselling? thanks for letting me share. Ye all have a good day.
I remember in early sobriety feeling. Yuck. I hated feeling. I had absolutely no idea how to handle emotions that I had drowned and drugged for a lot of years. I learned that I had to go thru them without picking up no matter what. Meeting with my sponsor was uncomfortable in the beginning. I didn't know her from Eve and here I was supposed to trust her to teach me how to live sober. Most of the time I thought she was just another nut case which she was but she helped me get thru those early months without drinking. You have a trained counselor that hopefully knows what she's doing. She can guide you thru those feelings of uncomfortability. We are all over emotional when we quit drinking. Learning to deal with those emotions are part of recovery. Let your counselor take you thru your feelings and you'll learn how to handle them like an adult and we sure haven't been too good at handling anything like an adult up till now. You're doing great, Marie, keep your mind and ears open and you'll be fine. What you're going thru is normal. Don't fret.
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Ahh........The F word.Remember that syrupy song from the 70's "Feelings" that you only hear now in the obnoxious elevator rides or at Target?
I know exactly what you mean.
I use to leave therapy contemplating homicide but I wasn't sure who I wanted to kill.My therapist was usually my first choice.
After I did my 4th & 5th I was waiting for this bright light to envelop me and blue birds land on my shoulder.Didn't happen.In fact I felt like crap for a couple of days.It's not exactly pleasant to share secrets and feelings you've manage to anesthetize for 30 years.
I did start feeling better though.It just wasn't the quick fix I expect with anything I do.It made me realize I'm not such a bad person afterall.I got on my knees afterward and my sponsor took me through the 5th step prayer.I was able to give all that s*** to God.Gradually,I was able to even laugh at myself.
You are exactly where you are supposed to be.This is a process.None of us are bad people.This is a disease of the body,mind and spirit.We come to and then we come to believe.
Today I can make better choices.Sobriety has given me that gift.
I know exactly what you mean.
I use to leave therapy contemplating homicide but I wasn't sure who I wanted to kill.My therapist was usually my first choice.
After I did my 4th & 5th I was waiting for this bright light to envelop me and blue birds land on my shoulder.Didn't happen.In fact I felt like crap for a couple of days.It's not exactly pleasant to share secrets and feelings you've manage to anesthetize for 30 years.
I did start feeling better though.It just wasn't the quick fix I expect with anything I do.It made me realize I'm not such a bad person afterall.I got on my knees afterward and my sponsor took me through the 5th step prayer.I was able to give all that s*** to God.Gradually,I was able to even laugh at myself.
You are exactly where you are supposed to be.This is a process.None of us are bad people.This is a disease of the body,mind and spirit.We come to and then we come to believe.
Today I can make better choices.Sobriety has given me that gift.
Great thread pirate, and two great responses so far.
You've seen my mess unfold in real time on the board. There's my answer to your wuestion.
Once I'd heard that dark voice that wanted me dead I had no choice but to stop using counselling to try to figure out my feelings about my ex or the kids' situation and look inside and see what was really at the root of my choices and the situation I'd put me in.....and boy, of course it's difficult....otherwise we wouldn't be alcoholics, addicts, workaholics whatever, we're all avoiding....some coping mechanisms are healthier than others and the ONLY healthy choice is to STOP COPING and start living......give up, give in and find the power beyond any you dreamt that will help you live this challenging, beautiful life on life's terms.....easy words for me and you know I'm not speaking from that freedom yet, ...but from the middle of it....Band of Brothers (and sisters)....I'm off to counselling in a minute....feel really good....usually a really bad sign....lol....it could mean I might be well enough to be strong enough to discover something else I really don't like....and I'll be back here tonight crying again....if I am be gentle....lol...and I'll recover....it isn't going to kill me and it IS going to make me better....
You too.
Courage, mon brave!
You've seen my mess unfold in real time on the board. There's my answer to your wuestion.
Once I'd heard that dark voice that wanted me dead I had no choice but to stop using counselling to try to figure out my feelings about my ex or the kids' situation and look inside and see what was really at the root of my choices and the situation I'd put me in.....and boy, of course it's difficult....otherwise we wouldn't be alcoholics, addicts, workaholics whatever, we're all avoiding....some coping mechanisms are healthier than others and the ONLY healthy choice is to STOP COPING and start living......give up, give in and find the power beyond any you dreamt that will help you live this challenging, beautiful life on life's terms.....easy words for me and you know I'm not speaking from that freedom yet, ...but from the middle of it....Band of Brothers (and sisters)....I'm off to counselling in a minute....feel really good....usually a really bad sign....lol....it could mean I might be well enough to be strong enough to discover something else I really don't like....and I'll be back here tonight crying again....if I am be gentle....lol...and I'll recover....it isn't going to kill me and it IS going to make me better....
You too.
Courage, mon brave!
Gidday All
Funny those two words addiction counselling and is it me as a person being counselled or addiction and the answer for me was both
I needed the mayhem of the past and the unremembered but feared, in my mind to warrant the insanity that i lived while drinking
The sh@t i felt after any counselling was grief and fear on addictions part because i was getting further away from a drink and guilt on me as a sober person for all the justifications and lies that became my reality and how to fufill my addiction i went with it and added to it easilly
In early recovery i was like a rabbit on a highway at night, i got run over alot because the headlights/feelings dazzled me and i froze, all these emotions and feelings, its like when i have a really good massage and leave feeling really relaxed and the next day or days i can feel like crap because the released toxins are leaving my body, same happened after counselling and the crap that leaves was generally via my mind, emotion and feelings
This is where having a higher power, meetings, willingness to change, a healthy fear of drinking, courage to change and just being sick and tired of wanting to drink and die all came together and one day at a time kept me grateful for being alive and sober
Tim thanks for mentioning that bloody song i will be humming the bugga while i postLOL
light and love Zac
Funny those two words addiction counselling and is it me as a person being counselled or addiction and the answer for me was both
I needed the mayhem of the past and the unremembered but feared, in my mind to warrant the insanity that i lived while drinking
The sh@t i felt after any counselling was grief and fear on addictions part because i was getting further away from a drink and guilt on me as a sober person for all the justifications and lies that became my reality and how to fufill my addiction i went with it and added to it easilly
In early recovery i was like a rabbit on a highway at night, i got run over alot because the headlights/feelings dazzled me and i froze, all these emotions and feelings, its like when i have a really good massage and leave feeling really relaxed and the next day or days i can feel like crap because the released toxins are leaving my body, same happened after counselling and the crap that leaves was generally via my mind, emotion and feelings
This is where having a higher power, meetings, willingness to change, a healthy fear of drinking, courage to change and just being sick and tired of wanting to drink and die all came together and one day at a time kept me grateful for being alive and sober
Tim thanks for mentioning that bloody song i will be humming the bugga while i postLOL
light and love Zac
