Again???

I left the computer along time ago.
I put the kids to bed.
Watched a few t.v. show's.
And then went to bed. Only to have the feeling that i wanted to take another pill.
Couldnt sleep and the debating on taking another pill, when i know that i shouldnt, kept me awake.
So i decided to get on the board to find some help. Help from people that may be going through the same thing. Help from friends that i met that have written to me to help get that feeling out of my mind.
And all i read are horrible things about fighting and yelling and getting upset.
What would this word come to if ALL addicts could just get along????
I guess it was bound to happen on here at some point. But i didnt think it would happen to the people that it did. I'M TRULY SCARED NOW. I dont want this to happen to me when i make it to that world of RECOVERY!!!!!!!

Anyone want to talk??? I could use it right now.

Your Friend, Christina
Hey Christina,
What's up?
Hi Christina-
I'm fairly new to the board, and I hope I never fall into the BS. But remember, even addicts are human and we fight, disagree, and piss and moan! I still thank God everyday that I found this board!
Went to my first NA meeting tonight; caught s*** from one person there because I'm tapering and not going CT. I told her I'm afraid of seizures and she got all high and mighty on me. SHE quit CT and told me to do the same!!! I was ticked! However, I am going back to the meetings on Wednesday and also I have an appointment on Wednesday with a counselor who will hopefully give me the REAL scoop on CT vs. tapering.
If anyone has any real knowledge of getting off Fiorinol, I'd be glad to listen!
Hang in there Chrissy!!!!!
Christina, the board will calm down soon. Everybody's in the same boat -- and these disagreements happen in relationships. Emotions are just running a little high. Be easy on yourself.
I could have placed all the money i have in the bank that YOU would be the one that would post back!!!!!

Your awsome!!!!!!! Thanks.

Im just having this horibble urge to take another pill. Not sure what set it off. Im trying to remember what i was doing when it popped into my head.
Im not sure if "triggers" are involved at this point cause im not off them all the way yet! Wish i was .
Im dowm to only about 2-3 a day and sometimes its only a half of one that im taking.
Feeling realy depressed and angry at myself for lieing to basically everyone that i know. Its a horrible feeling inside and maybe thats the reason im still awake.
I might be a user of pain pills, and feel numb half the time , but the constant feeling of hurting the people that love me and care and have had all this faith in me is killing me and hurting me worse and worse everyday. NO PAIN MED> IS TAKING THAT AWAY.!!!!!!!!!

Thanks For Listening to me tonight. What time is it there?? Forgot were you lived. Sorry!!!
Your Friend, Christina
Dont mean topost 2 in a row....buti just read all the others that posted me and wanted to say thanks. I know and understand that the board will calm when everybody calms down a bit.
Its just scarey as he** to think that when you get into the RECOVERY part of this addiction that you could be so nasty to someone.
Guess i'v been sheltered my whole life???!!!!!

Your Friend, Christina

P.S. ADDITEDMOM....i have no idea about your problom. Havent herd of that pill yet. What is it for and why do you take it and how long have you been on it?? Sorry lots of questions.!!!
Hey if your talking to me,it's 11:50 pm here in Tampa,Florida.
O.k 3 in a row..........
Bob...Are you the Dr.Bob that has been on here every so often??? Just wondering if its the same person???

Excuse this if your not him.

Christina
I cant write fast enough to keep up on the post that people are writing.
Ya its you...and i had no idea that you lived in Florida!!!
thats wonderful. Same time here. but you already new that. (lol)
Im glad to talk to ya again. Sorry i havent e-mailed lately. I e-mailed you a bit back and never herd back from you , so i thought i was buggin you.

I wish i could be someplace warm right now. I would love nothing more than to get on the bike(harley) and ride around wth the warm breeze and the sun. I got the picture in my head now. It feezing here. And i just saw on the news that there is another snow sorm comming my way.

Christina
Chris, the power of forgiveness is very, very strong. It will come in time. You will find and experience forgiveness as you find a way and the strength and the willingness to forgive others.
Fiorinol or Fioricet is prescribed for headaches. It can come with codeine but the ones I've been taking don't have codeine. It's ingredients are butalbital (a barbiturate), tylenol and caffeine.
About 12 years ago I went to a doctor who prescribed them. They worked like a charm on my migraines. I took them as prescribed, then occasionally for recreational use.
Soon I was refilling my Rx way too often, and I knew I was in trouble. Then my sister found a bunch of sites on the web that you can order Fiorinol from, no evaluation, no questions asked, just a Visa number required!!!
Anyway, I've been ordering for about 3 years. 500 pills at least once a month at $317 per order.
My liver and my Visa bill really took some hits!
No, I'm another Bob.

Bob B.
Hey I am send ing you some pic's,check your e-mail in a few. Anyway, I knwo what you are going through. Mind games. The mental part will get better with time. The physical will only last for so long. I got through it last year Cold turkey with Vicodin. I found out I was pregnant and quit just like that. i took 500 mg of tylenol to sleep and prenatal vitamins once a day. Try and get a good multi vitamin and some B-12 lozegnes. They dissolve under your tongue and work great for energy. Try and exercise as much as you can. I know you are post surgery so don't kill yourself. Exercise does help and so does vitamins. Take 800 mg of motrin whenever you feel the need to take a perc. and keep yourself busy.. It does get easier with time. I have been there and done it one to many times. Hot bathes and benadryl works great for sleep. Christina, it can be done. I know it is always on your mind and hard to stop thinking about the"pills" but it will get easier. Take care! Rae
Hey check your e-mail. I just sent ya some pic's. I am off to bed now. Midnight. Let me know how you are doing tomorrow. Hey you are never bugging me. E-amil me anytime,girl. Good Night!!!! Rae