Hi you!! I just wanted to let you know Ive been thinking of you today.Worrying really.I dont have to tell you that you are at lethal levels.I know you may be in for a real ruff road but Im thinking that you can do this,
I will try & give you whatever support I can.
Anyways hang in there it is so worth it...mj
Molly jean,
Honey for ME...the "Lethal levels" are long gone...Im down to 4.5 pills in 24 hour period and trust me, they are nothing compared to what my past dosages were like.Please remember I have a VERY high tolerance to this drug.
I appreciate your concern, I really do.....but I will be fine...and am seeing my Dr today....the worst of the w/ds are the spasms and twitching..some sneezing and a constant constant backache.
Ive been given some great advice, hot baths work wonders...
Im in the best posssible state emotionaly considering....lolol
and do not have the slightest desire to grab and use the pills.
I am grateful to have found this board and found comfort in the people here.
Hope you are well and thankyou for thinking of me..
But PLEASE do not worry...dont waste one moment of your time worrying about me.....I'll be great!
hugs to you honey
Ali
Honey for ME...the "Lethal levels" are long gone...Im down to 4.5 pills in 24 hour period and trust me, they are nothing compared to what my past dosages were like.Please remember I have a VERY high tolerance to this drug.
I appreciate your concern, I really do.....but I will be fine...and am seeing my Dr today....the worst of the w/ds are the spasms and twitching..some sneezing and a constant constant backache.
Ive been given some great advice, hot baths work wonders...
Im in the best posssible state emotionaly considering....lolol
and do not have the slightest desire to grab and use the pills.
I am grateful to have found this board and found comfort in the people here.
Hope you are well and thankyou for thinking of me..
But PLEASE do not worry...dont waste one moment of your time worrying about me.....I'll be great!
hugs to you honey
Ali
Ok FIRST MISS if I want to worry I will.LOl.Stupid me Id forgotten you have tapered down.Sorry mind fart sometimes.No I think it is awesome that youve gotten down to what your at.It isnt easy at all is it?Make you wonder why any of us start usen to begin with.
Ive been thinking alot about my life with or without drugs,.i can honestly say in the beginning yes sure I got a nice buzz BLAH BLAH BLAH,but at the end of my use it wasnt even like I was getting that buzz.It was like I was just keeping my body from going into WD.
Anyways I hope you feel better,you certainly sound better
And like I said if ever I can be of help please just post to me Ok.Also Im sure other besides myself want to know how you make out at the Dr today so please let us know.Take Care Ali....mj
Ive been thinking alot about my life with or without drugs,.i can honestly say in the beginning yes sure I got a nice buzz BLAH BLAH BLAH,but at the end of my use it wasnt even like I was getting that buzz.It was like I was just keeping my body from going into WD.
Anyways I hope you feel better,you certainly sound better
And like I said if ever I can be of help please just post to me Ok.Also Im sure other besides myself want to know how you make out at the Dr today so please let us know.Take Care Ali....mj
I ditto MJ's feelings, please update us about the dr. We do care!
Oh, and don't even try to tell MJ who to worry about...lol!
Oh, and don't even try to tell MJ who to worry about...lol!
Molly Jean..
lololo, hey it was easy to forget where I am cus everyone was talkign about where i was 3.2 weeks ago..at my MAX....
Its terrible the games weve played withourselves you are right.
I can honestly say that I can no longer imagine doing the amount i did at one time only a short time ago...and your right..no buzz...when ive had serious bone pain though...my pills NEVER gaveme a buzz..would just go straight to the pain..weird huh?
Okay Missy...worry away..lolol but know im fine...a little bruised and battered..but just fine....
I keep teetering back and forth about whether to cold turkey from here, my Dr sorta said no but he might have just been covering his butt in case i went in a seizure or something ( NO IM NOT ON BENZOS EVERYONE...lolol)
Sometimes when i mentioned seizures people assume its benzos im on...its not...but these weird spasms remind me of them and sure wouldnt want a full blown one..lolol I look so rididvulous with my arm or leg shootingout on me..lol
Anway Miss Molly Jean,
Be good to yourself and thanks for posting..lol
Hugs
Ali
lololo, hey it was easy to forget where I am cus everyone was talkign about where i was 3.2 weeks ago..at my MAX....
Its terrible the games weve played withourselves you are right.
I can honestly say that I can no longer imagine doing the amount i did at one time only a short time ago...and your right..no buzz...when ive had serious bone pain though...my pills NEVER gaveme a buzz..would just go straight to the pain..weird huh?
Okay Missy...worry away..lolol but know im fine...a little bruised and battered..but just fine....
I keep teetering back and forth about whether to cold turkey from here, my Dr sorta said no but he might have just been covering his butt in case i went in a seizure or something ( NO IM NOT ON BENZOS EVERYONE...lolol)
Sometimes when i mentioned seizures people assume its benzos im on...its not...but these weird spasms remind me of them and sure wouldnt want a full blown one..lolol I look so rididvulous with my arm or leg shootingout on me..lol
Anway Miss Molly Jean,
Be good to yourself and thanks for posting..lol
Hugs
Ali
Im sure someone has mentioned this to you already but I wanted to say,I went on Suboxone last Jan.Not only for addivtive issues but also for pain issues(I have Chrons)Im not sure how you feel about Sub.There is alot of debate on that too.For me though it has really given me my life back.you have mentioned your pain issues so I thought Id just let you know my thoughts on this.
Too me I dont think anyone should have to live in pain so for me the sub is a saving grace ya know.anyways if I know Im not around on here much these days(Christmas & life stuff)but if you ever want to talk just post to me I read the board everyday & if I dont post.
You take care & I hope to talk again with you soon....mj
Too me I dont think anyone should have to live in pain so for me the sub is a saving grace ya know.anyways if I know Im not around on here much these days(Christmas & life stuff)but if you ever want to talk just post to me I read the board everyday & if I dont post.
You take care & I hope to talk again with you soon....mj
Molly Jean,
Sub just came to Canada...i only recently learen it helps with pain..Mytumor is non cancerous but painful non the less...by the Grace of God it been good lately but know its an issue that Ill have to deal with again..
I will ask him about it..my first instinct is to find a non narcotic.
Well better toodle, my dog is staring at me..ready for his walk..lolo..god give me energy to do it..lolo
Hugs'
Ali
Sub just came to Canada...i only recently learen it helps with pain..Mytumor is non cancerous but painful non the less...by the Grace of God it been good lately but know its an issue that Ill have to deal with again..
I will ask him about it..my first instinct is to find a non narcotic.
Well better toodle, my dog is staring at me..ready for his walk..lolo..god give me energy to do it..lolo
Hugs'
Ali
