ok and thanks, hope you ok, I am so excited it will be two wk clean tomorrow and feel so much better and confident that I will stay clean, thanks to you allxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Thanks for updating Andrea on my hiatus Brookshire.
Andrea, I am so proud of you. I just knew that you were going to kick this habit when the time was right for you. Good Girl. Keep up the great work. I'm so glad to hear that you passed your driving test too......... Now look out world, Andrea is rolling down the street, get out of her way........Honk, Honk.......lol
Love,
Pam
Andrea, I am so proud of you. I just knew that you were going to kick this habit when the time was right for you. Good Girl. Keep up the great work. I'm so glad to hear that you passed your driving test too......... Now look out world, Andrea is rolling down the street, get out of her way........Honk, Honk.......lol
Love,
Pam
Hi and thankyou for your message. I am really pleased about passing my test I am never in the house. I just want to go everywhere and nowhere. I have mostly been visiting friends and family more often, they live close, within walking distance (15mins). They used to say between themselves that I wasn't that keen on spending time with them (my family). I used to wait mostly until my friends visited me, except for nights out. But now they are saying they are really happy that I am spending more time with them and visiting more often, also saying it's since I have got the car.
I am really happy that they think that it is because I must have been lazy and I see them more because of driving. It is a real good cover up for me. Because I have been clean since passing my test, so it's the same time scale.
What they don't know is the real reason they see me more is because I really want to see them more, I now have feelings and time for people. I am genuinly interested in their lives and enjoy been with them. And it's nothing to do with driving as I could have got there before, it's the fact that since stopping two weeks ago my head is so clear and I feel happy again. I feel like I used to feel andlove them all so much. However it is good they think what they do, this saves them from the hurt of ever finding out my habit.
I know now they feeel like this and how I feel, there is no way I can turn back.
It really is strange how I have a different way of thinking, on managing to stay clean. I don't know why it never happened before. Whenever I did try and stop I really felt depressed and felt I was bored and missing out on something, maybe it's the freedom of driving that has replaced that buzz. I used to get home and although my life could have been so good it never felt it. I think I am typing so much and trying to explain it in my own head at the same time, there was one thing that kept making me go back and that was me seriously thinking I could use one more time. That thought enters my head so much and it's the only one that would lead me to use, but I really do know now there is no such thing.
I am taking every day a day at a time, I am not denying that I think about it alot everyday, because I do. I just really want to stay strong. And keep feeling really excited at how far I have got, so I am going to do my best not to ruin that feeling.
I do believe driving as a lot to do with it, it has given me something to do that I really enjoy (the freedom) but besides that I am going to keep trying.
I am also going to keep hoping and thinking about everyone I have spoken to on this forum and genuinly wish everyone happiness and success in what they want in life.
This forum is the only place I have been able to share the good and the rubbish truthfully, I am so grateful for everyones advice support and comedy on here.
I love it, I want to stay like this. thank you so much xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Especially to everyone but especially for the special friends.
(please don't let that come out wrong, I mean the one's I have spoken to more)
Oh wow coming out all wrong.
Thanks florida girl this was initially a reply to your message, but as usual I started blabbering. Hope you are alright, lovesssssss andreaxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
I am really happy that they think that it is because I must have been lazy and I see them more because of driving. It is a real good cover up for me. Because I have been clean since passing my test, so it's the same time scale.
What they don't know is the real reason they see me more is because I really want to see them more, I now have feelings and time for people. I am genuinly interested in their lives and enjoy been with them. And it's nothing to do with driving as I could have got there before, it's the fact that since stopping two weeks ago my head is so clear and I feel happy again. I feel like I used to feel andlove them all so much. However it is good they think what they do, this saves them from the hurt of ever finding out my habit.
I know now they feeel like this and how I feel, there is no way I can turn back.
It really is strange how I have a different way of thinking, on managing to stay clean. I don't know why it never happened before. Whenever I did try and stop I really felt depressed and felt I was bored and missing out on something, maybe it's the freedom of driving that has replaced that buzz. I used to get home and although my life could have been so good it never felt it. I think I am typing so much and trying to explain it in my own head at the same time, there was one thing that kept making me go back and that was me seriously thinking I could use one more time. That thought enters my head so much and it's the only one that would lead me to use, but I really do know now there is no such thing.
I am taking every day a day at a time, I am not denying that I think about it alot everyday, because I do. I just really want to stay strong. And keep feeling really excited at how far I have got, so I am going to do my best not to ruin that feeling.
I do believe driving as a lot to do with it, it has given me something to do that I really enjoy (the freedom) but besides that I am going to keep trying.
I am also going to keep hoping and thinking about everyone I have spoken to on this forum and genuinly wish everyone happiness and success in what they want in life.
This forum is the only place I have been able to share the good and the rubbish truthfully, I am so grateful for everyones advice support and comedy on here.
I love it, I want to stay like this. thank you so much xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Especially to everyone but especially for the special friends.
(please don't let that come out wrong, I mean the one's I have spoken to more)
Oh wow coming out all wrong.
Thanks florida girl this was initially a reply to your message, but as usual I started blabbering. Hope you are alright, lovesssssss andreaxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
