andnnn, hey this is florida girl/pam, i've been worried about u cause i haven't heard from u in so long..Please let me know that u are okay.
love
pam
Hi Pam, thankyou for your message and concern. Not been too good and so not been on line. Afraid to really as I have relapsed. The counseller I saw has been away for ten days holiday and I just saw it as the famous one last time. So not been very happy with myself. I haven't used in two days and I am seeing him tomorrow. I feel like a child having someone I need to check up on me otherwise I fail. I hope I stick to it and accept his support.
I couldn't face coming on or didn't want to because I have been using, I have never used in ten days before what I have done this time. So as you can imagine a bit p****d off with myself.
I am going to tell him everything and start again, hopefully stick to it. I just feel really depressed at the moment. Coming down doesn't help. Anyway I am back and admitting again. So from here I suppose. xx Take care hope you are alright.
I couldn't face coming on or didn't want to because I have been using, I have never used in ten days before what I have done this time. So as you can imagine a bit p****d off with myself.
I am going to tell him everything and start again, hopefully stick to it. I just feel really depressed at the moment. Coming down doesn't help. Anyway I am back and admitting again. So from here I suppose. xx Take care hope you are alright.
glad you are back andrea...we all slip and fall, it's the nature of the game...just keep on posting, whether you use or not...there are many of us that have been there...
there is no such thing as a "perfect" recovery
may God Bless You
keep coming back!!!
there is no such thing as a "perfect" recovery
may God Bless You
keep coming back!!!
Hi Jan
Hope you are well, I haven't read many posts yet so don't know how everyones been or any gossip. ah. so I hope this message finds you alright and happy , I haven't beenn logging on so need to catch up. Thanks for your message I will keep you updated. I just feel pretty drained after my own self infliction of using for 10 days, and more than usual.
Oh well I suppose it's move on time again. And I just hope I can stay strong, You are all so brilliant I admire you. Take care
x
Hope you are well, I haven't read many posts yet so don't know how everyones been or any gossip. ah. so I hope this message finds you alright and happy , I haven't beenn logging on so need to catch up. Thanks for your message I will keep you updated. I just feel pretty drained after my own self infliction of using for 10 days, and more than usual.
Oh well I suppose it's move on time again. And I just hope I can stay strong, You are all so brilliant I admire you. Take care
x
it's amazing how fast and how hard you fall the first relapse...i speak from experience...
oh and pam, i already posted to kiwi...not the same one...suggested a name change...nicely enough i hope
oh and pam, i already posted to kiwi...not the same one...suggested a name change...nicely enough i hope
Janet/Pam, anyone tell me what happened this afternoon?
i'm not really sure to tell you the truth...some excessive leg pulling from what i've been told.
Hey Andrea, i've been in time out on the board since last thursday. today is the first day that i have been allowed back on. Don't worry about your slip, just start over and do the best that you can. I am pulling for you either way. No judgements from me. Best of Luck to You..... Your Cyber Friend, Pam
thanks pam, hope you are ok, I will text you tomorrow. Only came on the pc to print letter off, it's 2.30am here, had a few friends a bbq and really tired. take care xx
andrea, if you have msn messenger i can give you my email addy and we can intstant message one another. It is so good to hear from you. Love, Pam
hey, if you can't find me on here, go to the pain pill forum and look me up. that is where i'm usually at. Love, Pam
hey, if you can't find me on here, go to the pain pill forum and look me up. that is where i'm usually at. Love, Pam
andrea, where are you at girlie.. get back in here and talk to us, we love you regardless.
Love,
Pam
Love,
Pam
bump for andrea,,,,,,,still looking forward to talking to you.
pam
pam
sorry and thanks for caring. I have posted in pain pills a bit of what's been happening. Hope you are well.xxx
Hey Andrea, it was so good to hear from you. I'm proud of you just the way you are. Hang in there and things will get better for you eventually. Please don't stay away for so long, I miss you. Love, Pam
Thanks for your messages Pam, I didn't see my counseller he couldn't keep the appt and offered me one a hour later but I couldn't make it. seeing him again in ten days, why do I keep looking it as it will be the end the escape of it all. When I know it's only me that can stop, he can't make me. I wish I could think these things about doing it myself, more often. I haven't been coming on the pc so much, I have been using but it's not been the same as I have been thinking "anyday now I stop" and it's all gone wrong. Well I mean life hasn't quite gone to plan. I have been off work this week, I lied about the reason. I feel so weak compared to when I used to post. I hate this feeling. I am going to pull myself out of it, I am going to withdraw over the wk end, and give it another shot next week. Got to keep trying, it's no good, I am miserable. I am not sure if I have msn I will have a look and give you my add: . Thankyou for caring and listening, sorrry for going on a bit, my fingers just empty my thoughts. Take care, hope you are well. xx
Hi there, this is my msn I think,
ajnjjh@hotmail.co.uk
speak to you soon, off to bed now. take care x
ajnjjh@hotmail.co.uk
speak to you soon, off to bed now. take care x
Hey Andrea, i've got you down in my msn messenger buddy list. You should be receiving an email any time now alerting you that I've accepted you as a buddy and asking you if you want to add me. Hope things get better for you really soon. Take care and I look forward to talking to you in the near future.
Love,
Pam
Love,
Pam
hey Andrea, that email addy is not working on my computer. Here is my addy for you............... pamgottleib@yahoo.com
Talk to you soon. It was good to see you posting the other day.
love,
pam
Talk to you soon. It was good to see you posting the other day.
love,
pam
Hi Pam, How are you? ok I hope
I am fine I have done nearly two weeks clean now, with no help from my counseller. He was useless. I feel so determined this time. I am rubbish at email etc, my yahoo address is andnnn@yahoo.co.uk and my aol email is star1lady31@aol.co.uk. HOpe you can get in touch. I passed my driving test last week so as you can imagine I am over the moon and never at home much. I will be on the net tonight about 7pm hope to speak to you later.xxxxxxxx
I am fine I have done nearly two weeks clean now, with no help from my counseller. He was useless. I feel so determined this time. I am rubbish at email etc, my yahoo address is andnnn@yahoo.co.uk and my aol email is star1lady31@aol.co.uk. HOpe you can get in touch. I passed my driving test last week so as you can imagine I am over the moon and never at home much. I will be on the net tonight about 7pm hope to speak to you later.xxxxxxxx
hey andr1 Pam is on a lil mini vacation, this week, she will be back in a few days. Take Care ..
