"hate Me"

Methamphetamines
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I am with a guy that all women dream about.long befor we met he was a dealer and a heavy user of meth .I was using when we met and have been using off and on during the almost three years we've been together (behind his back).He's busted four times and each time i promised never to use again ,but no matter how much i love him and my kids i just haven't been able to quit for good. I've quit for two weeks at the most.I like the extra energy it gives me , when I'm not doing it I feel cloudy,my body wants to get up and go but my mind won't let it .How long does this feeling last because its my biggest weakness.Any help would be nice.
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Got to do a reality check here. Most women do not dream of being with drug dealers and users. That is just your reality now.
Welcome to the board. Have you considered meetings? Rehab? You are admitadly a chronic relapser. What are you going to do differently this time? Keep posting you may find someone with more answers.
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Welcome to the board! Justjane is right...I don't think many women want a drug dealer....well at least not any that have gotten clean.

So what are you willing to do to get clean? Rehab, AA/NA meetings....counseling??? In order to get clean you must change people places and things....lose phone numbers...hang with clean people...

You have to want to get clean for yourself, no one else can do it for you.

Personally (I am an IV cocaine addict) I had to go to an inpatient rehab....then months of outpatient and NA meetings. I have 14 months clean.

I wish you the best in your recovery, keep on posting.
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Jane and Janet, really good posts ladies! Good advice!