I sit here and read these posts and really feel like I wrote them!!! It is amazing to me that these exact symptoms are in your bodies too. This support system is WONDERFUL. I too am a mother and wife. If you met me on the street, you would never know I take at least 15 Lortab 10 per day. It really doesn't matter what it is, as long as I have 15 per day. WD's really scare me b/c if I even go too long w/out taking one, WD's set in. Use to, it took about 24 hours. This is going to be a b****. My plan is New Year's, when I get back from my trip.
Why not start now? I said so many times that I would start and never did until I was forced to withdraw. Of course it was at one of the most stressful times, but I had no choice. There is no good time to withdraw, but if you make yourself a plan, try to start on a weekend. I have kids too and I didn't get a break. I just worked through it. It was no picnic believe me. Horrible flu symptoms, and the "foggy" clumsy feeling was AWFUL. Today is day 27 for me. I have had good and bad days. My house has suffered greatly and I am grouchy. But, I am pill free. I have had many temptations but stayed away. I wish all the luck to you!!!! You can do it. Keep reading this site, it really helps. You will find so many of us are all the same.
Allision Welcome Where are you traveling too...My name is mollyjean and I just joined a bit before Thanksgiving.Everyone I've talk to has been very sweet and caring.I don't think I have EVER met people like the ones I have met here.I am very glad I finally broke down my walls far enough to reach out and there were to my surprise many hands held out from here that reached to help.Take Care.....mollyjean
Here's why "after the trip". I'm getting my last refill of 90 on Monday and my plan is to taper with those. I hope I can do it. My goal is 6 per day to start with. Maybe the WD's will be a little better that way.
Good for you Allison. I was just about to post and suggest at least cutting back to better prepare for the new year. You can start to put a "recovery foundation" in place now by cutting back on the drugs and check out an NA meeting too! There's nothing, IMO, like f2f support. Good luck, Jim
Allison-I'm tapering too. It takes will power. You might want to give them to someone else to hold and dole them out to you. Thats what I did and it's working.
Tapering doesn't work for a lot of addicts cause they simply can't control their pill intake...
If you can control it great. But your still gonna suffer withdrawls. By going cold turkey the w/d's might be harder but they don't last as long.
If you can control it great. But your still gonna suffer withdrawls. By going cold turkey the w/d's might be harder but they don't last as long.
my taper plan seems to be working fine. i was taking 10 to 12 methadone 10mil.per day for about 1 1/2 years about 5 weeks ago i started my plan now i am at 3 per day at the end of this week i will go to 2 per day and i seem to be able to stay on my plan for now. if i see it is not going to work at 2 per day then i will hand them over to someone else so stick to your plan and make it work
thanks
johnny
thanks
johnny
If I had 90 pills tapering was never a good idea. I couldn't be trusted. I waited until I was down to bare bones when I started....then it was c/t. It sucked so bad. Just know it will be a rough 10 days....2 weeks....then you will see some light at the end of the tunnel. Stick with it. Eventually the stuff is out of your system. Then you have to deal with the mental cravings. You must cut yourself off of every avenue that allows you to get drugs. Doctors, friends, etc. Let the ones who need to know you are withdrawing know ....
It's no picnic but it can be done. You can do it. At least you will have the Holidays out of the way. January cleansing!!!!! Good luck.
It's no picnic but it can be done. You can do it. At least you will have the Holidays out of the way. January cleansing!!!!! Good luck.
allison-
If you quit before the holidays, you will have a CLEAN CHRISTMAS!!!!! Imagine that. What a present for your family. If you stop now, you can get the really hard w/ds out of the way before christmas.
I know that may sound like it's not worth it, but if you get your pills the way I got mine, nothing is harder than waiting for the days to pass so you can get your refill. Or if you are waiting for the doc to call the parmacy back to ok a refill - it is the longest day or two ever.
Right now, even though I still think about the pills quite often, I am no longer a slave to them. I am not lying to the docs anymore, I am not going to the pharmacy embarresed, because I know they are looking at me like a criminal drug addict, and I am not hurting my body and mind. It is an overpowering feeling.
I know this Christmas will be hard without my old pall 7.5, but for me to know that I am being an honest, clean person, I really think it is worth it.
-britney
If you quit before the holidays, you will have a CLEAN CHRISTMAS!!!!! Imagine that. What a present for your family. If you stop now, you can get the really hard w/ds out of the way before christmas.
I know that may sound like it's not worth it, but if you get your pills the way I got mine, nothing is harder than waiting for the days to pass so you can get your refill. Or if you are waiting for the doc to call the parmacy back to ok a refill - it is the longest day or two ever.
Right now, even though I still think about the pills quite often, I am no longer a slave to them. I am not lying to the docs anymore, I am not going to the pharmacy embarresed, because I know they are looking at me like a criminal drug addict, and I am not hurting my body and mind. It is an overpowering feeling.
I know this Christmas will be hard without my old pall 7.5, but for me to know that I am being an honest, clean person, I really think it is worth it.
-britney
I am overwhelmed by the support and advice on this website. Thank you all for your information.
Britney, I agree, a clean christmas would be great. But, not logical to me. Can't even think of it. The good thing is that I function fine w/ the pills. I don't even get a high. If I were groggy or "high", I wouldn't take them when my kids are present. I know you are probably thinking, "She's high and doesn't realize it". But the truth is I am completly active, normal, and productive and alert on the pills. Maybe it is because I do not take so many at once and my tolerance to them is so high. I will be better for my family during the holidays on the LT's. Isn't that horrible? It's amazing that you start taking the pills for pain, and then can't stop taking them because of the pain.
I do know one day this will be over, but I am scared of thinking when I am clean I will want to take them again so I can actually feel the high again.
I will tell my husband when it's time for the WD's. I will have to. He is actually my best friend and he will help me stay away from them and get through it. But will he feel betrayed by my secret and the money I have spent on them. It's not hard to figure out if you are taking 12 to 15 per day, it is costing some money. I bet i spend at least $300.00 a week.
Britney, I agree, a clean christmas would be great. But, not logical to me. Can't even think of it. The good thing is that I function fine w/ the pills. I don't even get a high. If I were groggy or "high", I wouldn't take them when my kids are present. I know you are probably thinking, "She's high and doesn't realize it". But the truth is I am completly active, normal, and productive and alert on the pills. Maybe it is because I do not take so many at once and my tolerance to them is so high. I will be better for my family during the holidays on the LT's. Isn't that horrible? It's amazing that you start taking the pills for pain, and then can't stop taking them because of the pain.
I do know one day this will be over, but I am scared of thinking when I am clean I will want to take them again so I can actually feel the high again.
I will tell my husband when it's time for the WD's. I will have to. He is actually my best friend and he will help me stay away from them and get through it. But will he feel betrayed by my secret and the money I have spent on them. It's not hard to figure out if you are taking 12 to 15 per day, it is costing some money. I bet i spend at least $300.00 a week.
Allison,
The pills made me feel "normal"...I was great on them....my house was spotless, I was supermom.....and my work was great. Being off them is what is tough and it will probably be tough for you too. It is part of withdrawal and not being on drugs. I was never groggy either. But now that I am off them, everything is a bit foggy and I am lazy. I am hoping to get back how I used to be....lots of energy, etc.
Good luck....Have a nice Holidays too
The pills made me feel "normal"...I was great on them....my house was spotless, I was supermom.....and my work was great. Being off them is what is tough and it will probably be tough for you too. It is part of withdrawal and not being on drugs. I was never groggy either. But now that I am off them, everything is a bit foggy and I am lazy. I am hoping to get back how I used to be....lots of energy, etc.
Good luck....Have a nice Holidays too
