I will be praying for you and I hope everything goes ok. This is not good news and I am worried about you.
Thumper:
Get is checked and you will feel better.....because it is more than likely fine.
(Not to diminish your fear, just to make you feel better!)
I also have these symptoms...I have a mammogram and ultrasound mammogram every 4 months or so...this last time I had a needle biopsy. It is just a cyst. (Mine also had blood supply...which led to the biopsy..but benign!) They watch it, I feel it...and keep on praying!
I will say a prayer for you...but the strongest prayers will come from you! Talk to God, and give him your fear...he can handle it for you!
I am proud of you for having a mammogram though....as you know, early detection is very important...but I believe, you will receive good news that will put your mind at ease.
God Bless You,
Sarah
Get is checked and you will feel better.....because it is more than likely fine.
(Not to diminish your fear, just to make you feel better!)
I also have these symptoms...I have a mammogram and ultrasound mammogram every 4 months or so...this last time I had a needle biopsy. It is just a cyst. (Mine also had blood supply...which led to the biopsy..but benign!) They watch it, I feel it...and keep on praying!
I will say a prayer for you...but the strongest prayers will come from you! Talk to God, and give him your fear...he can handle it for you!
I am proud of you for having a mammogram though....as you know, early detection is very important...but I believe, you will receive good news that will put your mind at ease.
God Bless You,
Sarah
thumper
i could have sworn that i posted or emailed you a reply concerning your breast, but i cant find it.....
i understand your fears, i have fibro cystic breasts and i have had an abnormal mammogram where i have had to return to get a more extensive mammo, which then turned out to be normal and i hope and pray this is the same scenario for you.
Dear heavenly Father:
thumper brings so much light and happiness to the people on this board, she is a pure example of Christ's love for us. Father please bring some light to her, she is afraid dear Lord..... please calm her anxieties about the lump in her breast, and Father i pray to you that this lump not be anything serious. be with the doctors, nurses and x ray technicians that they do a thorough job in their investigation of this lump, in your sons precious name i pray, amen.
((((((((((((((((((((thumper)))))))))))))))))))) julie
i could have sworn that i posted or emailed you a reply concerning your breast, but i cant find it.....
i understand your fears, i have fibro cystic breasts and i have had an abnormal mammogram where i have had to return to get a more extensive mammo, which then turned out to be normal and i hope and pray this is the same scenario for you.
Dear heavenly Father:
thumper brings so much light and happiness to the people on this board, she is a pure example of Christ's love for us. Father please bring some light to her, she is afraid dear Lord..... please calm her anxieties about the lump in her breast, and Father i pray to you that this lump not be anything serious. be with the doctors, nurses and x ray technicians that they do a thorough job in their investigation of this lump, in your sons precious name i pray, amen.
((((((((((((((((((((thumper)))))))))))))))))))) julie
thank you sweet pea, sarah and jewels for the beautiful prayer................
thanks for caring ((((((((((((((((sarah))))))))))))))))))
thanks s much.........
usually i am rock, i have gone through alot in my life but i think this is all comming FROM...being my FIRST time....
first lump,
first mamogram.......and all of a sudden it not normal...
and the whole thing.......i dont even want to call back
ok ......just please keep praying for me........
i will love you for it...............
thanks for the support cause i really need it, this is something new for me.....
thank you stephy for your daily faithful prayers .......
i am so gald that we have gotten so close.........
your frienship has and telephone singing sessions has been so fun to me......
a real uplifting part of my day.........
and talking about the Lord and just life ............
thank you jewels for the nice prayer........love u
love ya all..................
thumper
thanks for caring ((((((((((((((((sarah))))))))))))))))))
thanks s much.........
usually i am rock, i have gone through alot in my life but i think this is all comming FROM...being my FIRST time....
first lump,
first mamogram.......and all of a sudden it not normal...
and the whole thing.......i dont even want to call back
ok ......just please keep praying for me........
i will love you for it...............
thanks for the support cause i really need it, this is something new for me.....
thank you stephy for your daily faithful prayers .......
i am so gald that we have gotten so close.........
your frienship has and telephone singing sessions has been so fun to me......
a real uplifting part of my day.........
and talking about the Lord and just life ............
thank you jewels for the nice prayer........love u
love ya all..................
thumper
Yeah I love our daily singing sessions...I am so glad that we have gotten so close too. You have helped me a lot. Whenever I have a problem, you give me good advice and I use your advice too.
I know you don't want to call back, but you need too. It is very important. I can't imagine how scared you are. Whatever the outcome God will take care of you and be there for you and so will I.
I know you don't want to call back, but you need too. It is very important. I can't imagine how scared you are. Whatever the outcome God will take care of you and be there for you and so will I.
Honey,
Just breathe in slowly...............now exhale slowly....................repeat.
Just do what you have to do and take it day by day, hour by hour, or minute by minute if necessary. Keep praying and turn this over to God. It is true, in the time I have been here, several ladies here have posted about lumps, abnormal mammos, etc. and they have all been okay.
I know you are scared, I would be too, it's natural to feel that way. But just keep thinking positive thoughts.
You have my email, use it anytime. You know you have a friend here.
(((BIG HUGS)))) and prayers for you.
Just breathe in slowly...............now exhale slowly....................repeat.
Just do what you have to do and take it day by day, hour by hour, or minute by minute if necessary. Keep praying and turn this over to God. It is true, in the time I have been here, several ladies here have posted about lumps, abnormal mammos, etc. and they have all been okay.
I know you are scared, I would be too, it's natural to feel that way. But just keep thinking positive thoughts.
You have my email, use it anytime. You know you have a friend here.
(((BIG HUGS)))) and prayers for you.
Dear Thump...I am sorry to hear this, but chances are it is still nothing...a cyst most probably. I had one taken out, they were going to do the needle biopsy, but ended up cutting it out...yes, I was freaking out, for over 2 weeks...
Just remember, God does not give us more than we can handle...you are a precious child of God and He loves you...
Just remember, God does not give us more than we can handle...you are a precious child of God and He loves you...
janet, atlas..............big hugs to you both.........
thanks for comming back and posting...........
stay close to me as i go through this process ok.........
i really appreciate the encouragement and especially since you have been through this............
i like to talk to people that have been through some of the simular things....
it helps..........
..........thumper
i guess i better call the doctor back and make an appointment to see what he wants to "discuss"......
normally everything is done over the phone cause i work with him at the hopsital....and i am not required to go in the office for every little thing.........
so i am going to call right now.
i hate this....
thanks for comming back and posting...........
stay close to me as i go through this process ok.........
i really appreciate the encouragement and especially since you have been through this............
i like to talk to people that have been through some of the simular things....
it helps..........
..........thumperi guess i better call the doctor back and make an appointment to see what he wants to "discuss"......
normally everything is done over the phone cause i work with him at the hopsital....and i am not required to go in the office for every little thing.........
so i am going to call right now.
i hate this....
Please let us know what he says.
Just saw this thread....I'm thinking about you Thumps...please, let us know what they say.
Love
Lisa
Love
Lisa
Hi Thumper...
You are in my prayers...and have faith that God will take care of you, no matter what is said...let us know how it goes, my friend...
xoxo
Stacey
You are in my prayers...and have faith that God will take care of you, no matter what is said...let us know how it goes, my friend...
xoxo
Stacey
well after sitting on message all night i called today and the doc went out of town...
so i am thinking it is not seroius.........
but i know you cant tell how seroius it is until there is a biospy....
to be honest i think that its rude to make me wait until the 4th of january.
i dont understand why he could not tell me over the phone...
LIKE HE ALWAYS DOES.........
he left a message and said "i will not dicuss this over the phone with you....
you have to come in" in a kinda serious voice
thats ok............i will update you on the fourth........i am just going to be positive
ladies ...means alot to me to have you with me during this time...
i am already very very depressed......
and beginning to isolate, i do this every damm winter........
and nothing to numb me...........ya know what i mean..........
i am seeking couseling........and just talkin on the phone regulary with stephy has really lifted me out of a loanly place.......
and of course mj.............and it has helped me to realize that its ok to seek couseling..........
it helps to have the support of this board........
i am feeling terrible right about now..................
thank you for your post and for caring.
i will update you on the 4th.
i started back doing my readings on mother teresa......
it helps to..........
so i will bumpin up that thread soon with more quotes.......
thumper
so i am thinking it is not seroius.........
but i know you cant tell how seroius it is until there is a biospy....
to be honest i think that its rude to make me wait until the 4th of january.
i dont understand why he could not tell me over the phone...
LIKE HE ALWAYS DOES.........
he left a message and said "i will not dicuss this over the phone with you....
you have to come in" in a kinda serious voice
thats ok............i will update you on the fourth........i am just going to be positive
ladies ...means alot to me to have you with me during this time...
i am already very very depressed......
and beginning to isolate, i do this every damm winter........
and nothing to numb me...........ya know what i mean..........
i am seeking couseling........and just talkin on the phone regulary with stephy has really lifted me out of a loanly place.......
and of course mj.............and it has helped me to realize that its ok to seek couseling..........
it helps to have the support of this board........
i am feeling terrible right about now..................
thank you for your post and for caring.
i will update you on the 4th.
i started back doing my readings on mother teresa......
it helps to..........
so i will bumpin up that thread soon with more quotes.......
thumper
I just wanted you to know that I really enjoy talking to you on the phone. I am glad that I have helped you because I really hate to hear that you are depressed. I know how much depression can suck and I hope that you get out of your depression and start to be HAPPY...whoo hoo.
You have helped me too and I am glad that I have had the opportunity to get to know you. We have lots of fun on the phone and I can be my silly, nerdy self around you. I love you and dont ever forget that, ok?
You have helped me too and I am glad that I have had the opportunity to get to know you. We have lots of fun on the phone and I can be my silly, nerdy self around you. I love you and dont ever forget that, ok?
dear "thumper" ~
on september 3, 2005, i woke with some pretty severe abdominal pain. for five days prior to this, i had been placed on a z-pak for an upper respiratory infection and finished it on the 2nd. as the morning progressed, the abdominal pain worsened and i was struck with some other not so pleasant gastrointestional complaints that i will spare you with the details.
now i'm not one to call a doctor on weekends for advice; however, the pain became such that i could not sit, lie, stand, or get into any position that brought comfort. i finally relented and the doctor on call told me to go to the pharmacy and get some zantac for my upper G.I. and immodium for the lower G. I. problems i was having. the doctor seemed to think i had developed antibiotic gastritis and these two OTC meds would do the trick.
thank God i had a dear friend here who went to the pharmacy for me, because it would have been impossible to drive there by myself. when she returned with the doctors orders in hand, i took the zantac and immodium...to no avail. by 4 that afternoon, the pain was intractable and i had become dehydrated. my friend called the doctor back and was instructed to take me to the ER.
now this was a holiday weekend - labor day weekend to be exact. it is of no coincidence that God put me right where I needed to be and the people in my life who needed to be there. this ER physician came into the treatment room, listened to what was going on with me, and started two IV's wide open, the dehydration was so severe. he ordered some blood work, examined me, and agreed that this was probably a reaction from the z-pak. however, God nudged this man and he came back into the room and said: "sammy - even though i think this is nothing more than antibiotic gastritis, i'm going to order a CT of your abdomen."
i was in no position to disagree, "thumper." off to the CT scanning room they wheeled me and i underwent the CT. within 30 mins or so, i was back in the treatment room and felt much better and thought i was going to be released. but i have to laugh because within 5 minutes of being returned to my room, this nurse walked in with this syringe and said: "i have some medicine that the doctor has ordered me to give you in your IV." quizzically, i looked at her and asked what this medicine was and why the need - although a little weak, i felt physically better and wanted to go home. the nurse then told me she was giving me IV injectable dilaudid and i was like - huh? i don't need this, as i am not in any pain! before i could finish my objection she had completed dosing me and about 2 minutes later another ER doctor walked in (there had been a shift change) and my original doctor had left.
this new physician said to me: "sammy - we are going to have to admit you to the hospital tonight because your CT scan has revealed that there is a 13 cm mass on your right kidney that is highly suspicious of a malignancy." now i know why he gave me that dilaudid - i guess in his own way he thought if i was medicated it may soften the blow of the news he just shared with me?
now mind you, i had not exhibited any renal symptoms other than a mild back ache over right flank, but hey, i'm old and with the aging process comes all kinds of aches and pains that i usually don't give too much power too. to this day, i have no idea why they felt the need to medicate me, because learning of what the CT revealed, it sure was a sobering experience.
so this doctor goes on with what kind of room do i want (private or semi-private), who can we call for you, blah, blah, blah, and i know in my heart of hearts that he was doing the best he could to see that my health interests were being taken care of. however, he overlooked one thing and it is probably because at the time he really didn't know who he was dealing with. he overlooked my spiritual power and connection. i reared up off of the stretcher and said: "doc, you are telling me that i have a 13 cm tumor on my kidney that is highly suggestive of a malignancy. i'm willing to bet that this tumor has been there for quite some time - i was just unaware of its presence. if it's all the same to you, my spirit would thrive better at home, surrounded by my family and friends and where i can be still and connect with the God within. i am requesting that you discharge me immediately, allow me to do what i need to do (which included finding the best urological oncologist in my city), and go where i will be surrounded with love. when i am surrounded with love, there is no place for fear."
the doctor relented to my request and said, "i will call you PCP and if your PCP says it is ok to let you go home, i will let you." i said a quick prayer to God when he left the room, to His will to be done. within minutes, the ER doc entered the room and told me that he was going to discharge me to my home with the understanding that i was to contact my PCP to get "things" lined up for further treatment.
on september 13, 2005 my right kidney was removed, along with that tumor. and once again, i was home within 36 hours post-op doing what i love to do - love. before i was born, "thumper", God knew me. i am here on this planet, at this time, in this life and with these skills according to God's divine appointment. i seek revelation of God's will for me and accept God's purpose for my life.
each day i wake, i ask, "what do You have for me to do today God? who would You have me reach out to? during this season of love, i focus on what You are bringing into being. long ago, mary went up on the roof and said yes, Lord! i too come into the high places in consciousness and say yes. teach me Your ways so that i am ready and available to You. sometimes this big fat ego of mine perceive situations as adversities or impassable challenges. then i get still -simply being still in the midst of Your love and i realize that i am being cared for by the most incredible force of love in the universe. the illusion of my fears dissolve into just what they are supposed to be - illusions.
i am learning, "thumper", and will pass this on to you that i should not be discouraged or disappointed in anything, or any person. when i am disappointed it is because my will, my desire, has been frustrated. i learn that when i submit to the divine will, for God's will is all-wise. wait, then, for God's appointments, learning to tread the path wisely, serenely. i am never disappointed by my divine appointment.
thanks for letting me share.
namaste' dear friend ~
sammy
<this post has not been edited by the author because she is tired and must call it a day! :) >
on september 3, 2005, i woke with some pretty severe abdominal pain. for five days prior to this, i had been placed on a z-pak for an upper respiratory infection and finished it on the 2nd. as the morning progressed, the abdominal pain worsened and i was struck with some other not so pleasant gastrointestional complaints that i will spare you with the details.
now i'm not one to call a doctor on weekends for advice; however, the pain became such that i could not sit, lie, stand, or get into any position that brought comfort. i finally relented and the doctor on call told me to go to the pharmacy and get some zantac for my upper G.I. and immodium for the lower G. I. problems i was having. the doctor seemed to think i had developed antibiotic gastritis and these two OTC meds would do the trick.
thank God i had a dear friend here who went to the pharmacy for me, because it would have been impossible to drive there by myself. when she returned with the doctors orders in hand, i took the zantac and immodium...to no avail. by 4 that afternoon, the pain was intractable and i had become dehydrated. my friend called the doctor back and was instructed to take me to the ER.
now this was a holiday weekend - labor day weekend to be exact. it is of no coincidence that God put me right where I needed to be and the people in my life who needed to be there. this ER physician came into the treatment room, listened to what was going on with me, and started two IV's wide open, the dehydration was so severe. he ordered some blood work, examined me, and agreed that this was probably a reaction from the z-pak. however, God nudged this man and he came back into the room and said: "sammy - even though i think this is nothing more than antibiotic gastritis, i'm going to order a CT of your abdomen."
i was in no position to disagree, "thumper." off to the CT scanning room they wheeled me and i underwent the CT. within 30 mins or so, i was back in the treatment room and felt much better and thought i was going to be released. but i have to laugh because within 5 minutes of being returned to my room, this nurse walked in with this syringe and said: "i have some medicine that the doctor has ordered me to give you in your IV." quizzically, i looked at her and asked what this medicine was and why the need - although a little weak, i felt physically better and wanted to go home. the nurse then told me she was giving me IV injectable dilaudid and i was like - huh? i don't need this, as i am not in any pain! before i could finish my objection she had completed dosing me and about 2 minutes later another ER doctor walked in (there had been a shift change) and my original doctor had left.
this new physician said to me: "sammy - we are going to have to admit you to the hospital tonight because your CT scan has revealed that there is a 13 cm mass on your right kidney that is highly suspicious of a malignancy." now i know why he gave me that dilaudid - i guess in his own way he thought if i was medicated it may soften the blow of the news he just shared with me?
now mind you, i had not exhibited any renal symptoms other than a mild back ache over right flank, but hey, i'm old and with the aging process comes all kinds of aches and pains that i usually don't give too much power too. to this day, i have no idea why they felt the need to medicate me, because learning of what the CT revealed, it sure was a sobering experience.
so this doctor goes on with what kind of room do i want (private or semi-private), who can we call for you, blah, blah, blah, and i know in my heart of hearts that he was doing the best he could to see that my health interests were being taken care of. however, he overlooked one thing and it is probably because at the time he really didn't know who he was dealing with. he overlooked my spiritual power and connection. i reared up off of the stretcher and said: "doc, you are telling me that i have a 13 cm tumor on my kidney that is highly suggestive of a malignancy. i'm willing to bet that this tumor has been there for quite some time - i was just unaware of its presence. if it's all the same to you, my spirit would thrive better at home, surrounded by my family and friends and where i can be still and connect with the God within. i am requesting that you discharge me immediately, allow me to do what i need to do (which included finding the best urological oncologist in my city), and go where i will be surrounded with love. when i am surrounded with love, there is no place for fear."
the doctor relented to my request and said, "i will call you PCP and if your PCP says it is ok to let you go home, i will let you." i said a quick prayer to God when he left the room, to His will to be done. within minutes, the ER doc entered the room and told me that he was going to discharge me to my home with the understanding that i was to contact my PCP to get "things" lined up for further treatment.
on september 13, 2005 my right kidney was removed, along with that tumor. and once again, i was home within 36 hours post-op doing what i love to do - love. before i was born, "thumper", God knew me. i am here on this planet, at this time, in this life and with these skills according to God's divine appointment. i seek revelation of God's will for me and accept God's purpose for my life.
each day i wake, i ask, "what do You have for me to do today God? who would You have me reach out to? during this season of love, i focus on what You are bringing into being. long ago, mary went up on the roof and said yes, Lord! i too come into the high places in consciousness and say yes. teach me Your ways so that i am ready and available to You. sometimes this big fat ego of mine perceive situations as adversities or impassable challenges. then i get still -simply being still in the midst of Your love and i realize that i am being cared for by the most incredible force of love in the universe. the illusion of my fears dissolve into just what they are supposed to be - illusions.
i am learning, "thumper", and will pass this on to you that i should not be discouraged or disappointed in anything, or any person. when i am disappointed it is because my will, my desire, has been frustrated. i learn that when i submit to the divine will, for God's will is all-wise. wait, then, for God's appointments, learning to tread the path wisely, serenely. i am never disappointed by my divine appointment.
thanks for letting me share.
namaste' dear friend ~
sammy
<this post has not been edited by the author because she is tired and must call it a day! :) >
Thumper! Hang in there! I am so sorry to read all the big scare....they are terrible about letting us worry first! I also had that scare, twice actually. One was a cyst, that was removed under the knife, and the second time, the dum dums read a chest xray, seen the "scar" (they thought it was lung cancer) and after leaving a weird message on my machine friday late afternoon!!!! well, i freaked of course, went out and bought a new puppy, lol!! Really thought it was death for me, I was pathetic, lol! I am not making light of you having to wait so long to hear any news, but it is'nt worth being sick over. Tell someone and you will surely hear a similar story. Its amazing how many "scare" we go through in a lifetime. Prayers to you!!! Brenda
.............S A M M Ythank you sammy..........
your right..........
thank you for your wisdom..........
i appreciate every word you posted to me..........
i will email you here real soon.......
i really like you so much..........and you like hearts like me.......
i thank the Lord that he lead you to post to me......
thumper
edit..............LISA, STACEY, BRENDA.....SWEETS...
thanks again sammy.........
i have decided that i am not scared anymore.........
what ever comes in the future........
i will face it......good or bad.........
i will walk through it gracefully with the Lord at my side.....
trusting Him with my whole heart.........
believing in His fatithfulness and love for me , no matter what..........
in the mean time i am going to extend my hand to those that are hurting or sad.
thank you Lord for being with me..i know you will not leave my side..
sorry that i leave yours sometimes.......
thank you for always taking me back...........
forgive me for my lack of faith in YOU sometimes.......
sometimes i forget.......i get lost in my thoughts and worries.....
can you please forgive me.........
thank you Lord.........
i am gonna straighten up now.......
and help others.......
because i trust you will always help me.....
so why should i worry.............
i love you Lord..............."thumper"
i have decided that i am not scared anymore.........
what ever comes in the future........
i will face it......good or bad.........
i will walk through it gracefully with the Lord at my side.....
trusting Him with my whole heart.........
believing in His fatithfulness and love for me , no matter what..........
in the mean time i am going to extend my hand to those that are hurting or sad.
thank you Lord for being with me..i know you will not leave my side..
sorry that i leave yours sometimes.......
thank you for always taking me back...........
forgive me for my lack of faith in YOU sometimes.......
sometimes i forget.......i get lost in my thoughts and worries.....
can you please forgive me.........
thank you Lord.........
i am gonna straighten up now.......
and help others.......
because i trust you will always help me.....
so why should i worry.............
i love you Lord..............."thumper"
Thumper,
It was rude for him to deliver a message that he must see you in person, then leave town and leave you wondering for a week. However, I would take this as a positive sign. If he had worst case scenarios running through his mind, he would have made arrangements for you immediately. So please stay positive, okay? I'm still sending positive energy your way. Hang in there.
It was rude for him to deliver a message that he must see you in person, then leave town and leave you wondering for a week. However, I would take this as a positive sign. If he had worst case scenarios running through his mind, he would have made arrangements for you immediately. So please stay positive, okay? I'm still sending positive energy your way. Hang in there.
Sometimes I don't understand drs at all.
Thumps, did you get my last email? I haven't heard back and wanted to make sure you got it? I'm having problems with my server apparently. Would you let me know?
If you ever need to talk, you have my phone number and it works both way kiddo.
Love
Lisa
Thumps, did you get my last email? I haven't heard back and wanted to make sure you got it? I'm having problems with my server apparently. Would you let me know?
If you ever need to talk, you have my phone number and it works both way kiddo.
Love
Lisa
atlas..............thank you , your right.......it is a positive sign.
lisa...........i did get your email, i am behind in responding to many emails....
forgive me...
i will get back to you.....
if you need me , i am always a phone call away.........
i pray for you and your recovery lisa....
i always think about you......
i want you to feel better and get well and strong.......
thank you for thinking of me........
thumper
lisa...........i did get your email, i am behind in responding to many emails....
forgive me...
i will get back to you.....
if you need me , i am always a phone call away.........
i pray for you and your recovery lisa....
i always think about you......
i want you to feel better and get well and strong.......
thank you for thinking of me........
thumper
