To anyone that will repsond back...So it's been I guess, four weeks off pain pills and everything seem's to have gotten worse for me mentally. I still have diahrea, went to the doctor again (came down with a sinus infection). I cannot even go to work, my Anxiety and Depression is so bad, I feel like jumping off a bridge. Everything that I had hidden so long deep inside on these drugs is coming to the surface. Just to give a brief synopsis of my life, I was married to a man who verbally and physically abused me, I had a full abdominal hysterectomy last year where they removed everything including ovaries. Been divorced now for 1 yr & 4 months, I have a protecive order.
Since the detox, my mind keeps showing me past pain, everything is so real ! I have vivid dreams and hearing my ex tell me he wanted to kill me, keeps repeating over and over again in my mind. My right side hurt's, this is where I have the worst scar tissue..my mind is saying that it could be appendicidis or maybe they didn't get it all and I'm sick again. What the hell is happening to me? I thought I had it all together, I also cannot stop crying...I'm taking estrogen for the hormones and paxil for depression but this is ridiculous.
Went to the grocery store yesterday and had to leave, my heart was pounding my hands sweating...Am I having a nervous breakdown? Called the doc but he is out today for the holiday, my work say's I need to go on short term disability. My work thinks I'm just physically sick...what's gonna happen if I lose my job over this? Part of me thinks I should of just stayed on the pain meds...HELP!
DEAR DEE,
THE DEPRESSION CRAP STUCK FOR A WHILE FOR ME . I WOULD NOT WISH THAT ON ANYONE . IT WAS A YEAR OR SO BEFORE I COULD QUIT THE ANTI-DEPRESSANTS . SOME PEOPLE ARE ON THEM FOR LIFE DUE TO THE LACK OF BALANCE OF THE CHEMICALS IN THE BRAIN . TAKING THE MEDICAL LEAVE MIGHT BE A GOOD IDEA TO KEEP FROM LOSING YOUR JOB . YOU SERIOUSLY NEED TO TALK WITH YOUR DOCTOR AND TELL ABOUT WHAT YOU ARE FEELING AND ABOUT THE THOUGHTS AND DREAMS YOU ARE HAVING . FOR THE FIRST SIX MONTHS AFTER STOPPING MY PAIN MEDS I WAS VERY SENSITIVE TO EVERY EMOTION A PERSON CAN FEEL BUT NOW I AM COMPLETELY DRUG FREE AND FEEL GREAT . STICK WITH IT IT GETS SOOO MUCH BETTER. KEEP PRAYING AND DON'T GIVE UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
THE DEPRESSION CRAP STUCK FOR A WHILE FOR ME . I WOULD NOT WISH THAT ON ANYONE . IT WAS A YEAR OR SO BEFORE I COULD QUIT THE ANTI-DEPRESSANTS . SOME PEOPLE ARE ON THEM FOR LIFE DUE TO THE LACK OF BALANCE OF THE CHEMICALS IN THE BRAIN . TAKING THE MEDICAL LEAVE MIGHT BE A GOOD IDEA TO KEEP FROM LOSING YOUR JOB . YOU SERIOUSLY NEED TO TALK WITH YOUR DOCTOR AND TELL ABOUT WHAT YOU ARE FEELING AND ABOUT THE THOUGHTS AND DREAMS YOU ARE HAVING . FOR THE FIRST SIX MONTHS AFTER STOPPING MY PAIN MEDS I WAS VERY SENSITIVE TO EVERY EMOTION A PERSON CAN FEEL BUT NOW I AM COMPLETELY DRUG FREE AND FEEL GREAT . STICK WITH IT IT GETS SOOO MUCH BETTER. KEEP PRAYING AND DON'T GIVE UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hi
It sounds like we have alot in common. I to had a hysterectomy about 1 1/2 yrs ago. I went off the deep end in a different way. I got breast implants, a tatoo, and my belly button ring. Doing all this while taking oxycottin every day. While the drugs were not enough I got a boyfriend( I have been married for 10 years). Now I dont know if the hysterectomy made things worse but my mom sure thinks so. I went to detox and treatment and I do feel better now that I don't take drugs. I am still in my marriage and have alot to work on. What I am trying to say is you are not alone. Please write to me anytime
It sounds like we have alot in common. I to had a hysterectomy about 1 1/2 yrs ago. I went off the deep end in a different way. I got breast implants, a tatoo, and my belly button ring. Doing all this while taking oxycottin every day. While the drugs were not enough I got a boyfriend( I have been married for 10 years). Now I dont know if the hysterectomy made things worse but my mom sure thinks so. I went to detox and treatment and I do feel better now that I don't take drugs. I am still in my marriage and have alot to work on. What I am trying to say is you are not alone. Please write to me anytime
Thanks so much for posting your stories, this is what I read this board, not the other stuff. It sounds like you are having panick attacks. I have had them off an on for years now and they are so real. I think quitting taking pills tends to bring them out. I know it did me, thats why I relapsed because I thought I was going nuts. I have relapsed for about a month now and know I have got to quit again soon. I am just trying to mentally prepare myself for this and am taking zoloft now in hopes it will offset some of that major anxiety I have. I found when I quit that if I took one ativan a day, it calmed me down alot, but I didn't have but a couple. I have TMJ that is severe and the dentist prescribed lortab for me again and now am taking them again. I know ativan is addictive too, but I plan to get at least 30 of them and when I quit again I am going to take one a day and hopes that helps alot. One of my main problems is my blood pressure goes through the roof when I quit even does that between pills. Don't give up and lets keep posting about our problems and we can help listen to each other.
alone
You are not alone. I do understand what you are going through. I have been there more than once. do you have support at home to help you through the detox. Every time you ask someone how to do this you are going to get a different answer. I will agree going cold turkey is very hard on one. If you have done this before and you think the Xanex helps I would take it i have I know it helps. I have never been addicted to it though so just make sure you are not doing it alone. I am not saying take drugs so know one panic. I am just saying Detox at home sucks. The hard part is not getting off the drugs its staying OFF
You are not alone. I do understand what you are going through. I have been there more than once. do you have support at home to help you through the detox. Every time you ask someone how to do this you are going to get a different answer. I will agree going cold turkey is very hard on one. If you have done this before and you think the Xanex helps I would take it i have I know it helps. I have never been addicted to it though so just make sure you are not doing it alone. I am not saying take drugs so know one panic. I am just saying Detox at home sucks. The hard part is not getting off the drugs its staying OFF
Yeah the hard part is staying off, that was my problem I thought I had it all figured out and could quit. I tried Suboxone the first time and still have half of them left. It was either that medicine or just my panic attacks that lead me to believe I was going absolutley crazy and so depressed. I was off of lortab for 3 weeks when I went to dentist for my TMJ which is painful and I think is brought on by stress and didn't tell him I was an addict. The first couple of pills I thought I could take as I neede, but I abuse them. I have suboxone left and going to talk to my family doctor about ativan. I have taken that on and off for the last couple of years and have never abused it. I really hope me taking zoloft in getting prepared for the major anxiety I know I am going to experience is going to help. I don't feel good taking these pills anymore, they just help me function. I feel like I am dying inside and I don't have anyone to talk to about this, that is why I am looking for a board to help. Thats why I hate all the crap here. I just want talk about our problems and solutions
Dear, X-pill junkie, Tanya & Alone,
Thank you all so much, it's so nice to hear that I am not alone...When you are detoxing you really feel alone, I thought I was tough and did this thing by myself, read the book Rational Recovery and said ok, I'm ready..boy was I in for a surprise.
I have Xanax and take them when needed and it's helped, the doctor also gave me clonidine which helps with the raised blood pressure and detox, my doctor prescribed it to me, I broke down and told my doc everything, now I have to go see him tomorrow and hope and pray that he will sign the short term disability forms so that I don't get fired.
Tanya, I understand so much about going nut's after the Hysterectomy, I didn't feel like a woman, so just to prove it I had to go out to the bar and find a couple one night stands..Man the things we do when we are feeling blue. I soooo wish I could of got a belly ring but my weight has piled on since then and I've had three surgeries on my poor tummy, scars..scars...yuck..speaking of weight gain I also think that pain pills caused me to gain weight, what do any of you think???
Thanks again for all your support....I'm glad I found this board.
Thank you all so much, it's so nice to hear that I am not alone...When you are detoxing you really feel alone, I thought I was tough and did this thing by myself, read the book Rational Recovery and said ok, I'm ready..boy was I in for a surprise.
I have Xanax and take them when needed and it's helped, the doctor also gave me clonidine which helps with the raised blood pressure and detox, my doctor prescribed it to me, I broke down and told my doc everything, now I have to go see him tomorrow and hope and pray that he will sign the short term disability forms so that I don't get fired.
Tanya, I understand so much about going nut's after the Hysterectomy, I didn't feel like a woman, so just to prove it I had to go out to the bar and find a couple one night stands..Man the things we do when we are feeling blue. I soooo wish I could of got a belly ring but my weight has piled on since then and I've had three surgeries on my poor tummy, scars..scars...yuck..speaking of weight gain I also think that pain pills caused me to gain weight, what do any of you think???
Thanks again for all your support....I'm glad I found this board.
Alone
I doubt very much that it was Suboxone that made you feel that way,
most people say that if they do get some effect from it then its usually mild eurphoria.
Some days I suffer from depression and then I will be alright for a while.
I think its just somthing that goes hand in hand with detoxing.
I have taken sedatives ie nitrazipan or vallium before but any meds that you use for depression can somtimes make things worse.
Sure they might make you feel better in the short term but most are only a
"quick fix" and when you stop taking them you may find that your depression etc has got worse.
Try herbal remedies but the best thing you could do is meditation and breathing exercises, if you can use your mind to master your body then you will be well on the way.
We are all capable of so much more, we all have so much hidden potential and the mind is a very powerfull tool.
A large part of any addiction or even depression is in your mind, we only need to get a hold of it nad we would be ok, I guess its just more easy to reach for those pills.
I doubt very much that it was Suboxone that made you feel that way,
most people say that if they do get some effect from it then its usually mild eurphoria.
Some days I suffer from depression and then I will be alright for a while.
I think its just somthing that goes hand in hand with detoxing.
I have taken sedatives ie nitrazipan or vallium before but any meds that you use for depression can somtimes make things worse.
Sure they might make you feel better in the short term but most are only a
"quick fix" and when you stop taking them you may find that your depression etc has got worse.
Try herbal remedies but the best thing you could do is meditation and breathing exercises, if you can use your mind to master your body then you will be well on the way.
We are all capable of so much more, we all have so much hidden potential and the mind is a very powerfull tool.
A large part of any addiction or even depression is in your mind, we only need to get a hold of it nad we would be ok, I guess its just more easy to reach for those pills.
Dear Alone, I take Suboxone also and I noticed I due feel more depressed on it. I am now trying to wean off due to the depression and fatigue. I have been through withdrawl and detox three different times and Yes You are depressed due to the fact of not having that certain drug in your body anymore but I noticed on the Suboxone when you first take it you do have some mild euphoria for a few hours and then the severe depression hits until its time to take your next pill the next day. I do have to say Suboxone is a Wonderful drug for withdrawl but as far as long term I think it depends on how well a person can tolerate the medicine. I have been on it for almost 4 months and I feel worst on it the longer I take it, so I think It is time to come off. Wish me Luck and let me no how well you tolerate the suboxone this time around. Take care Michele
I've been off the suboxone for about a week and a half now and feel so much better. I am just like Michele as far as that drug goes. At first it was great for the withdrawals and then it felt pretty good for a while, but the longer I took it the worse I felt. There towards the end it was just a viscious cycle. When I got up every morning, I would wait (feeling like warmed over death) as long as I could before I took it because I knew what the results would be a the end of the day. Finally I would take it and feel slightly, only SLIGHTLY better for a while and then I would just crash. I would just want to sleep and I would feel soooooo agitated and plain mean until I went to bed and started all over again the next day. That's how it affected me. Some people have really good results and they say its a lifesaver. I think that's great. For me, I'm glad to be off of it. I will just take it a day at a time and pray for the best. By the way, I did this with my doctors (addictionoligists) supervision and don't think it's something to play with. I would like to know how anyone else is doing on this drug. Thanks, donalee
