You know how when your older you say that birthdays dont matter much anymore??
Well thats true- - except now , in the midst of unemployment, uncertainty, maybe 10 yrs away from retirement- - I have to start a new plan.
We already know that drugs arent involved in any plan , (well I certainly dont think they are- -) They havent been for sooo long
But now the plan involves real issues- like security for me- and my kid. I ,like a lot of us, started saving(401K or whatever) kinda late in y working career. As a matter of fact- - I didnt even have a working career until I was about 40
So now as I move into early(well maybe mid) 50,s- I am starting to think of all the time wasted -on getting wasted.
I know whats done is done- and I should just move forward- and honest to god ,Im sooo sick of trying to find a suitable job, Im ready to take anything offered.- -I was even thinking of telling Sandy to come back ,and get her old job back- they are looking for a Quality Control Manager at the old place of employment.
Then I think , why would I do that?? - So I would feel more secure? or am I starting to get paranoid, and dont want to be alone as time goes on?? At least I was comfortable with her- - I didnt like her drinking ,and I guess we just thought after 17 years we could move on. However, after a yr or 2 now - Im thinking maybe we should re-think this.
As long as it aint about me being selfish- and we talked everything out. Really ,it was mutual, mature, no damage was done to anyones feelings, it was supposed to be an experiment - and it has lasted a long time.
I dont know- - birthdays when your in your 50,s make ya thin a lot more than birthdays in your 30,s -ya know??
ramdomThoughtsat 6AM
JACK
Do you still love you're ex partner? If the issues that brought you're seperation on are now, no longer issues maybe you should give it another crack o' the whip for both your sakes. If they're still there then maybe its time to talk them through who knows what might happen? Much love KKxx
Jack, I'm coming back tomorrow to give my thoughts on this.
Happy belated birthday, been thinking about you ~ M&M
Happy belated birthday, been thinking about you ~ M&M
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY JACK, MANY HAPPY RETUNS MATE KKxx
happy birthday Jack
get yourself over to England we'll get rid of those birthday blues
k
get yourself over to England we'll get rid of those birthday blues
k
Hey Jack, happy belated birthday. Have you spoke with Sandy about it ?
Hi Dee
Yeah - she would rather I move to Albany,NY- - wE,LL see what happens
Yeah - she would rather I move to Albany,NY- - wE,LL see what happens
HB and welcome to middle age.My 401k was rendered null and void with the 2008 crash so that's not even security anymore.My home is paid off and that's all she wrote.I'll be landscaping in a wheelchair and pointing with a cane.Whatever,it certainly beats the options I was facing.Reirement does not sound appealing to me anyway albeit AARP certainly views it differently.I have more energy at 55 than I did at 45.The only difference is that certain muscles don't see it that way.....no, not that one.
I can still surf and swear like a sailor so I have some juice left.I do need to tone my driving down.
I can still surf and swear like a sailor so I have some juice left.I do need to tone my driving down.
So I wrote you this long response about a week ago and then hit some keystroke and it went *poof* and I was so aggro I couldn't rewrite it.
Sounds like you are a bit staus quo here...that's what Sandy wanted when she first left. How's the job market in Albany? It may not be NYC, but it's not a bad little city, kinda nice actually.
You two are still connected...spending holidays together...still talking about being back together...it ain't over, Jack. How has Sandy been since moving? Did she deal with her medical issues? Has her drinking abated at all? How much do you miss her...not just the being in a relationship, but her, the person Sandy is? I know you worry about your mom (hopefully you are done worrying about your son...he can and should take care of himself and maybe even his grandmother, too).
The "we'll see" attitude is probably healthy for both of you...but sometimes these things need a little nudge....just sayin'...
Peace ~ M&M
Change is hard at our age, but you made it through the break-up, who knows, maybe this is a good thing...
Sounds like you are a bit staus quo here...that's what Sandy wanted when she first left. How's the job market in Albany? It may not be NYC, but it's not a bad little city, kinda nice actually.
You two are still connected...spending holidays together...still talking about being back together...it ain't over, Jack. How has Sandy been since moving? Did she deal with her medical issues? Has her drinking abated at all? How much do you miss her...not just the being in a relationship, but her, the person Sandy is? I know you worry about your mom (hopefully you are done worrying about your son...he can and should take care of himself and maybe even his grandmother, too).
The "we'll see" attitude is probably healthy for both of you...but sometimes these things need a little nudge....just sayin'...
Peace ~ M&M
Change is hard at our age, but you made it through the break-up, who knows, maybe this is a good thing...
Tim-
Thanks for the good wishes- - yeah middle age snuck up on me a little. My kid was at his mothers last week , and he brought me a bunch of pictures that were taken 25 yrs ago when I was married to his mother.
Man, I was young- -I gotta say we were a good looking family
Not that age turned me into an oger- -but when your 30, its a whole different look then when your 54.- -
respect
jack
Looking for work is the worst and most stressful thing to go through at this age- -it just beats ya down- -
Oh well, Im healthy and feel sharp ,so thats a good thing
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Mom-
I am still thinking about moving to Albany, but yeah, I think about if its going to be a better situation or not. I do like upstate NY and the city of Albany is nice- but the idea of leaving and starting again with Sandy is not an easy move
Sure ,we still care very much for each other, but I wonder if its just the comfort level is so high-
She sez that since she left she drinks only rarely, I believe her- -she isnt a liar
She is working as a home health aide- so she doest want to come back down here and jump into the corporate scene again- thats probably what stressed her out so much
So I guess its up to be - -I keep in touch every week end and make the trip every now and then- -so I will decide before the winter on my plans
Thanks for askin- Im gonna try to go back to sleep for a few hours
Talk later
jack
Thanks for the good wishes- - yeah middle age snuck up on me a little. My kid was at his mothers last week , and he brought me a bunch of pictures that were taken 25 yrs ago when I was married to his mother.
Man, I was young- -I gotta say we were a good looking family
Not that age turned me into an oger- -but when your 30, its a whole different look then when your 54.- -
respect
jack
Looking for work is the worst and most stressful thing to go through at this age- -it just beats ya down- -
Oh well, Im healthy and feel sharp ,so thats a good thing
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Mom-
I am still thinking about moving to Albany, but yeah, I think about if its going to be a better situation or not. I do like upstate NY and the city of Albany is nice- but the idea of leaving and starting again with Sandy is not an easy move
Sure ,we still care very much for each other, but I wonder if its just the comfort level is so high-
She sez that since she left she drinks only rarely, I believe her- -she isnt a liar
She is working as a home health aide- so she doest want to come back down here and jump into the corporate scene again- thats probably what stressed her out so much
So I guess its up to be - -I keep in touch every week end and make the trip every now and then- -so I will decide before the winter on my plans
Thanks for askin- Im gonna try to go back to sleep for a few hours
Talk later
jack
