When I was younger my father used to tell me that, "Addictive Personalities" run in our family. What the HELL does that mean, I'd often wonder, as I watched an aunt stuff herself with food and my parents kicking down cold ones.
At age 13 I was turned onto Weed and at age 14 or 15 I was incarcerated for my addiction. After I was released at age 17 I stayed away from everything, but ciggarettes, for nearly 4 years. Then one day I smoked some herb with a buddy, yes I got high and loved it, but I didn't touch it again for 2 years. It was my buddies birthday and I thought "what the hell" puffed on a joint with him on his b-day. Next thing I know it's been 3 years and I haven't been able to stop smoking. I started smoking daily, slowly at first, and now it's 6 or more times a day (of high %THC).
I know I have an addiction. I know that I need to quit because I have already lost my childhood to the addiction, yet I can't stop, lack of will-power I guess.
I find myself trying to run out of pot all the time, yet in a haze I end up with another bag and even more worries about my addiction and that much further into my hole.
I am fairly educated with the risks of habitual Marijuanna use and the side-effects, but even with knowledge I am worthless in kicking the habit.
Could it be possible that some people just don't have what it takes to stop addictive personalities? Is this when your supposed to check yourself into a hospital for help?
More often than not, the ones who are unable to quit are those who believe that they can do it by the strength of their own will power. For the vast majority of these, all of the kind words and offers of assistance ultimately simply enable them to continually relapse.
There is little that anyone can do to help an addict. However, even the most hard-core addicts among us can not only achieve abstinence but amazingly, also live free of the obsession to use our drug of choice.
Me, I dabbled with a lot of things but always came back to pot. Like you, I come from a family of alcoholics and I started at an early age. I smoked addictively for 18 years and managed to quit by the strength of my will power for extened periods of time but always returned to the pot and wound up smoking it even more addictively as my slide toward my bottom continued. Eventually, I found myself in a very dark place, and then I realized I was an addict and decided that I needed help to quit.
Hospitals and rehabs will definitely help. Me, I went to NA and then AA and listened carefully to what they said and then I followed their directions. I have been clean and sober for over 15 years and life has never been better.
Good luck.
August
There is little that anyone can do to help an addict. However, even the most hard-core addicts among us can not only achieve abstinence but amazingly, also live free of the obsession to use our drug of choice.
Me, I dabbled with a lot of things but always came back to pot. Like you, I come from a family of alcoholics and I started at an early age. I smoked addictively for 18 years and managed to quit by the strength of my will power for extened periods of time but always returned to the pot and wound up smoking it even more addictively as my slide toward my bottom continued. Eventually, I found myself in a very dark place, and then I realized I was an addict and decided that I needed help to quit.
Hospitals and rehabs will definitely help. Me, I went to NA and then AA and listened carefully to what they said and then I followed their directions. I have been clean and sober for over 15 years and life has never been better.
Good luck.
August
I appreciate the words of wisdom and applause you for being sober as long as you have.I was thinking last night of ways I could kill this addiction and came to the conclusion that I should try AA and if I still can't get a grip on life after a few months of trying (AGAIN) on my own, I will check myself into some sort of drug rehab.
I threw away a lot of pot last night too, on my fit of rage against my addiction. My brain and body are telling me it's time to stop! Now hopefully I can.
I like the tabacco comercial which says "Never Quit Quitting!", and I won't quit quitting.
Thanks for the words of wisdom :)
I threw away a lot of pot last night too, on my fit of rage against my addiction. My brain and body are telling me it's time to stop! Now hopefully I can.
I like the tabacco comercial which says "Never Quit Quitting!", and I won't quit quitting.
Thanks for the words of wisdom :)
It takes real courage to take action against your addiction. I swore to quit a thousand times, just as soon as my stash ran out. We always cave and run out for more after we smoke the last of it. The time to change your life is today.
If you make it to AA, open up your mind, your heart, and your ears. You will hear something that rings with truth.
Hang in there, and good luck.
August
If you make it to AA, open up your mind, your heart, and your ears. You will hear something that rings with truth.
Hang in there, and good luck.
August
dear dreadfully hopeless BE NOT HOPELESS!!!!!
i too was a joint addict, than i went to pain meds.
i am now on my 52hour of withdrawals, and man is it pure HELL!!!!!
go get help
and most of all stay away from anyone you know that likes to get high, weed, pills, coke or even beer or liquor
you sound like a very smart person, and those are the ones that have the toughest recovery, because we THINK we know all
find something else to occupy your spare time, that is the root to all evil
idle time
and good luck to you
be strong and smart
get help, and don't be afraid
it is COOL to be straight, and is easy on the pocket book
peace out
i too was a joint addict, than i went to pain meds.
i am now on my 52hour of withdrawals, and man is it pure HELL!!!!!
go get help
and most of all stay away from anyone you know that likes to get high, weed, pills, coke or even beer or liquor
you sound like a very smart person, and those are the ones that have the toughest recovery, because we THINK we know all
find something else to occupy your spare time, that is the root to all evil
idle time
and good luck to you
be strong and smart
get help, and don't be afraid
it is COOL to be straight, and is easy on the pocket book
peace out
