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I cannot get out of this trap Help if u can dont slam me. I go to Methadone clinic 6 days a week , get 120 mgs of methadone 11 bucks aday. I also have a doctor in sc that gives me 120 roxyacodone 15 mgs , 90 zanax 1 mg and ten 50 mcg fentenal patchs a month, if I stop meth clinc and just go to my Doc will the meds he gives me keep withdralls away?? if they do we all know its just a matter of time till your doctor gets in spome mess and will stop writing class 2 meds. also my girl hates methadone clinics she says its just legasl dope dealing, so she dont know I am doing both. I am a drug addict with real pain also. I hate keeping this lie going it costs 11 bucks aday on methadone, and costs me 320 a month for doc and RXS each month, I make about 350 a week anmd still pay my share of the bills, I cant keep this up, I am trying to get on ssd but it takes soooooo long Roger
Hi Roger

I am assuming that you take the roxys for breakthrough pain with the patches. Those two right there are a pretty hefty dose of narcotics. Why do you go to the meth clinic? Is if for the buzz, or is there some other reason? I don't know anything about methadone, other than its a b**** to come off of. I would think your w/d from the methadone would be minimal considering all the other narcotics that you are on, but like I said I don't know anything about methadone. Do you see a pain managment doctor for your pain? Sorry I don't have any answers. Someone with more knowledge should come along soon. I hope you get some answers.

michelle
Hi there,

I too am sorry that you are in distress, this is really a difficult one, hopefully someone will have this exact experience as you are having and post to you.
Personally although i have no experience with methadone, i would also think that you should be able to stop taking it and not go through severe withdrawal because you have the other narcotics from the dr, and the xanax for anxiety etc...

is it possible to tell your Dr the truth? Honesty would probaly be a huge weight off your shoulders as the hiding, lying and financial burden with the methadone is getting to you as it would anyone....

why did you go on the methadone program/ Was your pain not relieved with your regular doc? can you tell him the truth? Can you tell yourself the truth?
Difficult problem but one that you can get out of....it will just take some serious soul serching and honesty on your part...

i hope someone else has a better suggestion for you, the narcotic withdrawal is not as dangerous as the xanax is, so you want to make sure you do not stop that one cold turkey...
Please stay in touch and let us know how youare doing.
hugs,
Ali
Roger
Go to a detox. Get the help you need.
Kat....Why didnt i think of that ??? Yup...best advise thus far...sorry i didnt think of it myself.Roger.... i did you a disservice. I apologize.

They will have the proper knowledge to get you through this..

let us know how you are doing please..
Hugs
ali
Hey Roger,
I am glad to see you posting asking for help. I think it's great you want to change because if you don't you will probably die. You are on the patches, methadone, xanax and percocet? Those are all very strong narcotics and I don't know if your drinking but if you are you are you will eventually overdose. You cannot continue going down this same path. So right now you will have to pay the price a little. You have been very hard on your body for a long time. Sure you don't want to feel withdrawl nobody does but no pain no gain. You have to start somewhere.

I would suggest looking into rehab. IF that isn't an option then I would suggest tomorrow when you go to the clinic you tell them you want to start weaning off the methadone. I detoxed from methadone back in 2002. I wasn't taken near the amount you are and it was a very painful detox. I survived it though. Since you are are taking 120 mgs a day maybe you can ask them to drop you to 110 for a few days and then drop 2 1/2- 5 mgs every few days until you get a litte lower. Then you may want to jump off.

It sucks your not telling your doctor your taking methadone on the side. If you were honest with him he would probably cut you off everything. So I would start getting the clinic to taper you off meth and then worry about the other medications.

If I were you I would be saving every dime I had and I would find a suboxone doctor in your area when you are ready to quit the percocet and patches. The sub would keep you off all the other medications and totally stop the withdrawl from happening. Sure it's expensive but I think it would be worth every dime in your situation.

I hope you get the help you need no matter what you decide. The most important thing is that your trying to wean off some of the medication little by little. You will get there. It may be a slow process but nothing changes if nothing changes. You'll ge there. Have some faith in yourself. Get a plan in order and stick to it Roger. Your worth it. Good luck to you! Rae
roger

help me out here. any time that i was ever on meth the clinic tested me. usually, 2 dirtys and i was out.

how are you managing to fly under the meth clinic's radar?

if you truly have a desire to be drug free, take kat's suggestion and get yourself into a medically supervised inpatient detox.

aside from bemoaning the financial burden to maintain your habit i really didn't perceive a desire to get clean. w/d's are inevitable. at some point you will have to deal with them. getting clean is like the old car transmission commercial from tv -- "you can pay me now or you can pay me later."

no one can help you until you become willing to help yourself. to what lengths are you willing to go in order to break this cycle of insanity?

it doesn't get better, only worse.

*sdr*

sdr,

Very good advice, but as you will see, Roger doesnt think ANYONE is clean, or can get clean.
Rog,
There is no soft way, check yourself in.

Regards,
Tom
Rog,
Go to a detox before you die of an overdose.Thats all I can say. Take care.
God bless
gi
I agree with detox. I went in, it was the only way I could make myself stay away from my dealers long enough to get clean. On my own, I was lost.

Roger, I know that you are sick and tired of being sick and tired. So, when will you find that rock bottom that us addicts must find before we make the most important decision of our lives?

You have a choice of Jails, Institutions and Death.

I pray that you make the right one.
I come up hot I dont get take homes, I been there 8 months and do not get take homes also its a private clinic Peace to all Rog
Keep coming back Roger!
Roger,
Go to a detox. You can do this! Keep posting!
Omega
Roger,
Stop playing the game before its too late. Get help or be a slave forever.
Good Luck ........shel
Roger

Just wondering how your doing tonight, and if you have given any of these suggestions any thought. Keep talking to us.

michelle
Hey Roger...

Take the money you spend on dr's and pills and get your butt checked into a rehab. Start telling the truth to those that love you and let them help.

You will be the next one that we hear has died from drug related causes if you don't pull your head out and start listening.

You and I have done this dance for awhile now and you know how much I care about you. But I or anyone else here can't help you until you decide you want to quit. Then take the suggestions and do something about it.

I love you
Cowgirl
Living a lie and your addicted. You can't be proud of that. Now do something to make you feel proud. Seek help. Your friend, travis.
Here you are Roger... Now, there is no excuse to NOT seek out help.

http://dasis3.samhsa.gov/
bump to roger

roger re read your story and then say that you dont need help..

We are here for you no matter what but please tell us what is going on..

Hugs,

Ali