Well, I've been sober two whole weeks now and I feel good and in control of myself. I saw my Psychiatrist yesterday and he was trying really hard to get me onto antabuse but I refused point blank.
I'm of the opinion now that I've tried umpteen different ways of drinking and not drinking that I just need to keep off it completely 100% because I can't cope with it normally or just have one drink. And I've come to terms with that and it's actually a huge weight lifted off me. I have to be able to keep off it for me not because if I drink I'm gonna get sick, I'd just end up resenting it. Not to mention the huge amount of label reading that would go along with a life on antabuse... no thanks. I think I'll just take responsibilty for myself for once...
Hi Izzy,
Girl I took Antabuse after my second trip to the hospital with pancreatitus. It definitely works. Know how I know? I drank on it. I have never been sooo sick in all my life! That includes pancreatitus. I thought I was going to die. Literally thought I would die from it. Long story short I quit taking it. I think I missed the entire point of what it was for. Just wanted to share my own experience with it. I would never recommend it to anyone who might even entertain the idea of a drink again. If the threat of illness is something people need to stay sober then it is the drug for you. JMHO
I do think it is a crutch and yet another drug to put in our bodies to make something else better. Not a good idea in my opinion.
XX Valarie
Girl I took Antabuse after my second trip to the hospital with pancreatitus. It definitely works. Know how I know? I drank on it. I have never been sooo sick in all my life! That includes pancreatitus. I thought I was going to die. Literally thought I would die from it. Long story short I quit taking it. I think I missed the entire point of what it was for. Just wanted to share my own experience with it. I would never recommend it to anyone who might even entertain the idea of a drink again. If the threat of illness is something people need to stay sober then it is the drug for you. JMHO
I do think it is a crutch and yet another drug to put in our bodies to make something else better. Not a good idea in my opinion.
XX Valarie
Hi Izzy,
I think it's fantastic that you are in charge of your decisions; your life. I've read about Antabuse. At one time my GP wanted me to ingest it also. It's also very hard on the liver, not that alcohol is not. It can make your face quite red. I've known people who drank on it, not good. My Dr. warned me about it, if I did take it I needed to be careful of foods and even the perfume I wore. I think, but I'm not positive on this that it's not available in Canada because the benefits don't out way the risks.
CONGRATULATIONS ON TWO WEEKS IZZY!
I'm so proud of you. So happy for you. You can make up your mind and do this, we all can. What a way to celebrate your 23rd Birthday this month!!
Have a great day!!!
Love,
Chris xxx :-)
I think it's fantastic that you are in charge of your decisions; your life. I've read about Antabuse. At one time my GP wanted me to ingest it also. It's also very hard on the liver, not that alcohol is not. It can make your face quite red. I've known people who drank on it, not good. My Dr. warned me about it, if I did take it I needed to be careful of foods and even the perfume I wore. I think, but I'm not positive on this that it's not available in Canada because the benefits don't out way the risks.
CONGRATULATIONS ON TWO WEEKS IZZY!
I'm so proud of you. So happy for you. You can make up your mind and do this, we all can. What a way to celebrate your 23rd Birthday this month!!
Have a great day!!!
Love,
Chris xxx :-)
Congratulations on 2 weeks! That is awesome.
Hugs.
Hugs.
Like every good Alcoholic, I wasn't ABOUT to let Antabuse stand in my way. I think EVERY body that has taken it has tried to drink on it. That's the concensus of the pshrink I had that gave it to me, anyway. I didn't let him down. The bad news is that you don't die, you just wish you could. The good news is that if you space them out--like wait 4-5 days after stopping, you can drink on them. The bad news is that your system never fully recovers from it and it hastens the inevitable psychological obsessions. The good news is that there IS a solution for the obsessions, but not for the physical allergy. The bad news is that Antabuse increases anxiety--especially when mixed with higher levels of Aspartame (found in diet soft drink, NutraSweet, etc.) in MY experience. The good news is that anti-deps can fix the anxiety. The bad news is that the lethargy associated with the ADs made me gain weight. The good news is that I could still drink on Anti-Deps, too. The bad news is that alcohol is a natural depressant. The good news is that my pshrink could increase the dosage of ADs. The bad news is that I had become more of an inanimate object than a human being. The good news is that when my bottom came rushing up to meet me, I became teachable. The bad news is that I became an AA zealot and evangelista for months while working the steps. The good news is that I've mellowed and am coming to believe everyone has to hit their own bottom to find the humility to do whatever it takes to get sober. The bad news is that a lot of them want to blame, resent, not forgive, or just plain live in denial and eventually relapse. The good news is that I haven't/don't, and I'm chem-free, alcohol free, and addiction free for the first time in my entire life. And it just keeps getting better--One Day At A Time.
The GREAT news is that you've come a long way and you're on the right track--take every opportunity to heal your spirit and live in an attitude of gratitude.
The GREAT news is that you've come a long way and you're on the right track--take every opportunity to heal your spirit and live in an attitude of gratitude.
Superbly written with truth SKG. Thank You, for the side by side comparison. You and your HP have done well!!! You offer honesty, humility, more truth and an abundance of hope here for us.
Hi Izzy,
The way I found this board was when I was looking for a way to get antabuse. I wanted to stop drinking but believed that it was impossible with out something like antabuse. It turned out that it isn't availabel in Canada, but thankfully like you I came to terms with the fact that I can't have just one drink, I acceped the fact the my drinking was unmanageable and out of control. That was a huge weight lifted off of me. That was over a year ago.
It sounds to me like you have found the recipie for sobrity. I'm happy for you Izzy, keep up the good work!
one day at a time, Cookster
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The way I found this board was when I was looking for a way to get antabuse. I wanted to stop drinking but believed that it was impossible with out something like antabuse. It turned out that it isn't availabel in Canada, but thankfully like you I came to terms with the fact that I can't have just one drink, I acceped the fact the my drinking was unmanageable and out of control. That was a huge weight lifted off of me. That was over a year ago.
It sounds to me like you have found the recipie for sobrity. I'm happy for you Izzy, keep up the good work!
one day at a time, Cookster
Hey Izzy congrats on 2 weeks WOW! you are doing so well. everyone here is supporting you and all proud of you for what you are doing. If you are coming clean off booze might as well be clean all the way and not put anything in your system. I am glad you are taking responsibility for yourself. Looks good on you! (( ))))) keep up the good work!
Skg Wow! that was quite a speech you gave there and a good one. Got it all down pat don't ya? lol You have a lot to offer to those who are willing to listen. Hope you stay on this board for the newcomers who are willing to listen and learn.Take care :)
Skg Wow! that was quite a speech you gave there and a good one. Got it all down pat don't ya? lol You have a lot to offer to those who are willing to listen. Hope you stay on this board for the newcomers who are willing to listen and learn.Take care :)
Thanks everyone, you've all got something different to say and a lot to think about.
15 days sober and still feeling good. I know it's only 2 weeks but I feel in control and don't feel like celebrating my success with a drink which I've done before! Lol...
I think if I felt like I needed to be medicated I wouldn't be ready to quit, and as I don't feel the need to be medicated gives me confidence in myself. I feel positive even through the rough patches that are inevitable. I can cope this time...
I feel as though I can say I wont be haviong a drink in the near future, if at all again... ever.
Izzy
15 days sober and still feeling good. I know it's only 2 weeks but I feel in control and don't feel like celebrating my success with a drink which I've done before! Lol...
I think if I felt like I needed to be medicated I wouldn't be ready to quit, and as I don't feel the need to be medicated gives me confidence in myself. I feel positive even through the rough patches that are inevitable. I can cope this time...
I feel as though I can say I wont be haviong a drink in the near future, if at all again... ever.
Izzy
Izzy you're doing brilliantly. Whether it's forever or one day at a time you're doing brilliantly.....I love that you're taking control of your life. Do you know, at 50 years old I'm just beginning to recognise the many areas of my life where I was STILL waiting for some adult to come along and take care of me. I rush into burning buildings and confront CEOs and I'm a great dad and I'm STILL waiting for an adult to rescue me in other areas of my life. Crazy...? Nah, just a little damaged....."they f*** you up, your mum and dad, they don't mean to but they do..... " A great poem but it doesn't turn the lock on the door of that prison for us....somehow we have to be open and LISTEN with our souls to the gentle whispering that says.....you know, we can do this.....we can work it out, we can take one step, we can do this one right thing...and then the next right thing...and well, the light seems a little stronger over here...and the sun a little warmer....and the water, the water is clearer and sparkles....and those smiles, those smiles on the faces of the people waiting for us, on the faces of those we do not even know are waiting for us, on the faces of people we have yet to meet who are going to like us and love us and be there for us and for whom we will bear pain and be strong and whose love we will feel and return, and those smiles in the very souls of those we forgive and love and will never ever blame again for doing their absolute best for us the very best they knew how at the time.
Oh Izzy, I am so glad I know you...your story lifts my soul.
Oh Izzy, I am so glad I know you...your story lifts my soul.
The only thing that kept me sober was working on my head. I had to change my thinking and actions and learn how to not run for a drink or drug whenever life showed up. You're doing great so far, Izzy. What are you doing for your head?
Kat that is a REALLY good point you brought up and one I hope one you will heed Izzy. 19 weeks for me now and I am slowly learning how to deal and cope with the negative things in my head.Ain't easy to retrain a brain especially one that's been swimming in booze . Gotta get rid of the stinkin thinkin.Hey Izzy how is your pig doing now? hope the lil one is all better. (((( ))))
As you all know I've had hard stuff to deal with since deciding to get sober, my mum, the pig... etc... and not once have I run for a drink throughout all that, which I know I would have done before, perfect excuse to go get bladdered...
I think I've just accpeted that this is the way I have to live, I'm not bitter about it at all, when I get stressed I go out on my own, have a smoke, do a bit of shopping just stuff to get me thinking about other stuff instead of dwelling on the crap that I've let drag me down for so long.
I'm just thinking different this time round. I've had two or three goes at getting sober and each time I've thought I can have one drink then stop which is total crap, I know that now, so I have none instead! Or a diet coke or a mango frappuccino from Starbucks. I'm pretty gone on them at the moment lol...
My piggy is doing great, her skin has healed completely and the hair is beginning to grow back ever so slightly. I'm just relieved it didn't get infected but then I took all the steps necessary and more to make sure that didn't happen... I care too much about my animals to let them suffer... I will have to give them a shampoo soon though as they are quite prone to sitting on top of each other and weeing LOL... that makes me laugh but it's so gross lol!
Anyway, I hope you can see my positivity.
Thanks,
Izzy
I think I've just accpeted that this is the way I have to live, I'm not bitter about it at all, when I get stressed I go out on my own, have a smoke, do a bit of shopping just stuff to get me thinking about other stuff instead of dwelling on the crap that I've let drag me down for so long.
I'm just thinking different this time round. I've had two or three goes at getting sober and each time I've thought I can have one drink then stop which is total crap, I know that now, so I have none instead! Or a diet coke or a mango frappuccino from Starbucks. I'm pretty gone on them at the moment lol...
My piggy is doing great, her skin has healed completely and the hair is beginning to grow back ever so slightly. I'm just relieved it didn't get infected but then I took all the steps necessary and more to make sure that didn't happen... I care too much about my animals to let them suffer... I will have to give them a shampoo soon though as they are quite prone to sitting on top of each other and weeing LOL... that makes me laugh but it's so gross lol!
Anyway, I hope you can see my positivity.
Thanks,
Izzy
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sometimes when I just remind myself that sobriety is a process it takes the edge off thinking about looking for changes that are'nt happening soon enough
Hey Izzy,
Just wondering how you are doing? Check in and keep us up to date... Hoping that you are still staying sober,
one day at a time, Cookster
Just wondering how you are doing? Check in and keep us up to date... Hoping that you are still staying sober,
one day at a time, Cookster
