This is so very true: -
I have absolutely no pleasure in the stimulants in which I sometimes so madly indulge. It has not been in the pursuit of pleasure that I have periled life and reputation and reason. It has been the desperate attempt to escape from torturing memories, from a sense of insupportable loneliness and a dread of some strange impending doom.
Edgar Allan Poe
Who can relate to this poem? I would love to hear other people's thoughts on this...
I'm really surprised I didn't know Edgar Allen poe had experienced using stimulants. I'm 4 month clean and my addiction to drugs has turned into food addiction and I'm really sad. I had really tried to keep fit so I have a good feeling about my body. It's all going out of control.
Dear Momo,
Amazing that you're 4 months clean; well done to you! Addiction is so strong that we reach for other escapes, and it is so common to turn straight to another one. I hope you feel more in control today. I have joined a gym in a desperate attempt to lead a normal life as well, but, like you, I feel out of control a lot of the time. Every day is such a struggle but I keep fighting this debilitating illness.
Stay strong.
HL
Amazing that you're 4 months clean; well done to you! Addiction is so strong that we reach for other escapes, and it is so common to turn straight to another one. I hope you feel more in control today. I have joined a gym in a desperate attempt to lead a normal life as well, but, like you, I feel out of control a lot of the time. Every day is such a struggle but I keep fighting this debilitating illness.
Stay strong.
HL
Hidden Light, thanks for the inspiring words, I started working out today. yesterday was a much better day and I think I was in control more or less. Lately I've been in pretty bad mood but I have to deal with it cause I know they're not going to last long. I hope you're doing great and I pray for strength and good vibes each step of your journey . Thank you.
i just don't care who knows. i don't want to be secretive. its my past. i'm not scared to write on here. if someone wants to know 10 years from now i was writing on here about my addiction. so motherf***ing what. i never felt so good after i write on here. maybe subconsciously i hope someone will read it and never use again in their life. NEVER NO MATTER WHAT!. i want to be me without that stuff for the rest of my life. No i'm not volunteering all my dirt, but writing on here helps me feel cleaner. no more fear or what they think. the past helped me get here. i feel great staying clean. out
