When I have anger, I use sarcasm sometimes, to get my point across.
I recognized this this weekend with my husband, but I shut up instead. (which isn't helpful either) but I'm not perfect, nor do I claim to be.
Then I found this great old post from Kerr bear...thanking you dear one.
**************"As I cooperate with Rubber Tree Plant to lessen my character defects, It does for me what I can not do for myself. It helps me create kindness in humor. If I need to stand up for myself, It gives me courage so I don't need to use sarcasm to push people away. It doesn't just make me a better person, because I have to do my part. I have learned that my serenity is based on humility. When I willfully take charge, I have no humility and soon I have no serenity. When I give up participating altogether, nothing changes. Humility for me means balancing Rubber Tree Plant's responsibility with my responsibility, so we can be a team."********************************
Lovely truly,
Diana
hi all- ithis weekend i really 'got' it; yes, the clearer i get the more i understand and know this is the better way to live, (though part of me still yeans, craves and misses the escape. does that go away or fade i wonder...?)
i started a new a/d last week, it's kicking in this week... i feel better .... this weekend i did a lot of things of my list... and some of them though 'no way' i surrendered gracefully. had family in from out of town.... was nice.
thumbs up and thoughts...
xo jojo
ps. wonderwoman thanks for that WONDERFUL quote from kerr:) xo
i started a new a/d last week, it's kicking in this week... i feel better .... this weekend i did a lot of things of my list... and some of them though 'no way' i surrendered gracefully. had family in from out of town.... was nice.
thumbs up and thoughts...
xo jojo
ps. wonderwoman thanks for that WONDERFUL quote from kerr:) xo
JJ,
So glad you are feeling much better, you deserve to be at peace, comfortable and self-assured. I imagine the yearning does go away once you find fulfillment in other ways. Like an ex-boyfriend that I thought I'd never get over...I got over him...yet occasionally wonder what he's up to and silently wish him well...he wasn't that good for me anyway. :-)
Although I have scheduled alot of busy-ness today, I'm going to take a moment and lay on the lawn out back and cloud watch......wish you could too. When I am still....I am moving forward. :-)
Love and light,
Diana
So glad you are feeling much better, you deserve to be at peace, comfortable and self-assured. I imagine the yearning does go away once you find fulfillment in other ways. Like an ex-boyfriend that I thought I'd never get over...I got over him...yet occasionally wonder what he's up to and silently wish him well...he wasn't that good for me anyway. :-)
Although I have scheduled alot of busy-ness today, I'm going to take a moment and lay on the lawn out back and cloud watch......wish you could too. When I am still....I am moving forward. :-)
Love and light,
Diana
ww- yes an old boyfriend exactly. you want to 'go there' but know what will happen if you do. toxic and bad. yes, yes!
sounds like you are doing well...ah watching the clouds... read about your new recipes too :)
hope all is well... i'm glad to be clean today. really. it's a beautiful day and i'm home working, therapy later....
bottom line although i miss weed, i DO know i'm actually better this way.
(that also goes for a couple of old boyfriends lol!)
xo jojo
sounds like you are doing well...ah watching the clouds... read about your new recipes too :)
hope all is well... i'm glad to be clean today. really. it's a beautiful day and i'm home working, therapy later....
bottom line although i miss weed, i DO know i'm actually better this way.
(that also goes for a couple of old boyfriends lol!)
xo jojo
Well, I moisied on over here to look for Wonder Woman aka Go Go Power Ranger......and I see she is sarcastic.......I'm aghast......how could this be?
Heya, lady........good on you working on you........nothing better......wish I could lay on the lawn as well, but seeing's we live with postage stamp sized grass patches.........the neighbors would probably call the cops on me......thinking what the hecks up with that nut job today......nah, I love my neighbors.
All good things to ya......hope the meditation is still happening.........and I thank you for your support and kindness, WW........sarcasm is wicked and evil....LOL.
One of those things works my last nerve.......ex hubby always did that to me.
Then I had to hit him with a clothes tree with the coats still on it.......naw, just kidding.......my Fish Oil keeps that anger at bay.....recommended.
Peace and light, Babes.
Heya, lady........good on you working on you........nothing better......wish I could lay on the lawn as well, but seeing's we live with postage stamp sized grass patches.........the neighbors would probably call the cops on me......thinking what the hecks up with that nut job today......nah, I love my neighbors.
All good things to ya......hope the meditation is still happening.........and I thank you for your support and kindness, WW........sarcasm is wicked and evil....LOL.
One of those things works my last nerve.......ex hubby always did that to me.
Then I had to hit him with a clothes tree with the coats still on it.......naw, just kidding.......my Fish Oil keeps that anger at bay.....recommended.
Peace and light, Babes.
JJ- so good to hear you say you are glad to be clean....beautiful work...my friend....
Yes....little ol' me....sarcastic...it's true.... I had such a great line too.....I was going to serve him up a little pile-a-reptile-poo on a platter and sweetly say, "no honey, actually, this is crap ".
I hold no resentments, they cause wrinkles.
He is soooo angry right now....dear ones....I called him at work today, thought I could cheer him up, instead i got an earful of f this and f that these people are c suckers etc. my heart started racing, I went all tense, I never in 18 years heard him rage like that. I told him to be careful when he makes those verbal threats at work or he is going to end up in court.
Maybe this is my husband's bottom.
I want to run. he has been taking martial arts...i thought it was good for him, smoking less weed, physical activity...but now I'm stressed he might actually hurt someone....
I think I'll send him a gratitude email, get him to focus on some positives...or maybe it'll make him worse, me being all chipper/annoying. I'm kinda scared a little my friends....but remain steadfast.....sweeping my own side of the street.
90 days on May 19....and do you think it's a coininkydink that it's a saturday night NA night ??? Do you think the ol' higher power mary poppins had somethin to do with that ?
Love, light, lawn lazing and outdoor sports,
Diana
**Edit to say....I sent him my signature "Elephant" instead. He says he never reads my emails because he is too busy, but I send them anyway. :-)
and....Dear Bryn, meditation brought me to a bridge recently, I crossed over and met a knight, he scooped me up onto his horse and took me to a castle where we sat at this huge table and drank from goblets and looked at jewels. He was my friend/my brother in a past life. I'm sure of it.
Yes....little ol' me....sarcastic...it's true.... I had such a great line too.....I was going to serve him up a little pile-a-reptile-poo on a platter and sweetly say, "no honey, actually, this is crap ".
I hold no resentments, they cause wrinkles.
He is soooo angry right now....dear ones....I called him at work today, thought I could cheer him up, instead i got an earful of f this and f that these people are c suckers etc. my heart started racing, I went all tense, I never in 18 years heard him rage like that. I told him to be careful when he makes those verbal threats at work or he is going to end up in court.
Maybe this is my husband's bottom.
I want to run. he has been taking martial arts...i thought it was good for him, smoking less weed, physical activity...but now I'm stressed he might actually hurt someone....
I think I'll send him a gratitude email, get him to focus on some positives...or maybe it'll make him worse, me being all chipper/annoying. I'm kinda scared a little my friends....but remain steadfast.....sweeping my own side of the street.
90 days on May 19....and do you think it's a coininkydink that it's a saturday night NA night ??? Do you think the ol' higher power mary poppins had somethin to do with that ?
Love, light, lawn lazing and outdoor sports,
Diana
**Edit to say....I sent him my signature "Elephant" instead. He says he never reads my emails because he is too busy, but I send them anyway. :-)
and....Dear Bryn, meditation brought me to a bridge recently, I crossed over and met a knight, he scooped me up onto his horse and took me to a castle where we sat at this huge table and drank from goblets and looked at jewels. He was my friend/my brother in a past life. I'm sure of it.
What yer going all reincarnate on me now........you know darn well that the Blue Power Ranger was your friend.
You want.....(Twilight Zone Music).......co-inky-dink........my three years is on May 19th.........yepper......perhaps that is why I found the pile of reptile dodo so scathingly marvelous.........great minds think alike.
Wow, I wonder what's going on with your man makes him so angry lately....probably and I am not kidding the moon.......and anyone reading this will think we are freaks or trippin I bet....I hope he feels better.....I never liked the month of May.......except for we used to have May Procession...otherwise the allergies come around wicked......and the mood turns cold....often mean.
Catch ya soon, Sister.......glad you're doing good......oh and I did do past life regression..........it's wicked kewl.......yep same people reincarnate with ya each life although your guy sounds like a totem or something like that....oh I don't know what I mean, but you know what I mean.......hahaha.....neat!
You want.....(Twilight Zone Music).......co-inky-dink........my three years is on May 19th.........yepper......perhaps that is why I found the pile of reptile dodo so scathingly marvelous.........great minds think alike.
Wow, I wonder what's going on with your man makes him so angry lately....probably and I am not kidding the moon.......and anyone reading this will think we are freaks or trippin I bet....I hope he feels better.....I never liked the month of May.......except for we used to have May Procession...otherwise the allergies come around wicked......and the mood turns cold....often mean.
Catch ya soon, Sister.......glad you're doing good......oh and I did do past life regression..........it's wicked kewl.......yep same people reincarnate with ya each life although your guy sounds like a totem or something like that....oh I don't know what I mean, but you know what I mean.......hahaha.....neat!
Yeah I know what you mean, like a spirit guide....I was surprised because the guided meditation we did that night was to reach our family or friends who have crossed over, I had no expectations....however medieval times "tripping" blew me away. :-) never been there before as a stoner.....
Wow....it is soooo good to be clean !!!!!!!
The night I took my oldest to the angel seminar, the woman came over to him and gave him a reading....I had hoped this would happen....she told him a young man wanted to give him a message....I knew who it was...I had been thinking of this boy all day....I mentioned him here on the board before...he had died young of epilepsy....it was very touching.......my son and he were friends...they played ball together...my heart is warm when I think of this memory.....:-)
month of may...yup....my cousin's suicide anniversary coming up...my excuse for the relapse...never again...I forgive you M...I forgive you....more importantly...I forgive myself...
There's a 5 week course coming up.....gentleman... is a healer, channel, teacher who does Huna philosophy, Crystals, Pendulums, Energy Work and Healing, Guided Meditations as well as several other areas of Psychic/Spiritual interest.
I'm supposed to go...I just know yanno...:-) http://www.hunainfo.com/
I've never been to Hawaii...but I met a very nice polynesian man in Dubai who pulled me out of the audience to dance with him.....that's what I get for drinking pineapple juice on vacation....I'm such a baaad a**...
Bryn, that's very kewl about may 19...i will be thinking of you that night...still not going to speak up...it'll only be my third time at NA......
my man reached out to hold my hand while driving to work this morning....he is much calmer today...I think it was the elephant in the room...<smile>
Words of wisdom for the day....
Don't worry Be happy...
Wow....it is soooo good to be clean !!!!!!!
The night I took my oldest to the angel seminar, the woman came over to him and gave him a reading....I had hoped this would happen....she told him a young man wanted to give him a message....I knew who it was...I had been thinking of this boy all day....I mentioned him here on the board before...he had died young of epilepsy....it was very touching.......my son and he were friends...they played ball together...my heart is warm when I think of this memory.....:-)
month of may...yup....my cousin's suicide anniversary coming up...my excuse for the relapse...never again...I forgive you M...I forgive you....more importantly...I forgive myself...
There's a 5 week course coming up.....gentleman... is a healer, channel, teacher who does Huna philosophy, Crystals, Pendulums, Energy Work and Healing, Guided Meditations as well as several other areas of Psychic/Spiritual interest.
I'm supposed to go...I just know yanno...:-) http://www.hunainfo.com/
I've never been to Hawaii...but I met a very nice polynesian man in Dubai who pulled me out of the audience to dance with him.....that's what I get for drinking pineapple juice on vacation....I'm such a baaad a**...
Bryn, that's very kewl about may 19...i will be thinking of you that night...still not going to speak up...it'll only be my third time at NA......
my man reached out to hold my hand while driving to work this morning....he is much calmer today...I think it was the elephant in the room...<smile>
Words of wisdom for the day....
Don't worry Be happy...
That's exactly why I popped over here.......wanted to see how your honey was.
Ahhhhh, see it's all around now........he's calm and reached for your hand......good stuff........made me smile.
You were in DUBAI? Oh I would love to go there..........only I'd be afraid if I couldn't sit in first class........haha.......wow that had to be cool......oh you'd be dancing with that man today.......same if ya were at a Blues Festival......you know that........and I'd be too.
We can't take up the board with our stuff too much me thinks......but we are somewhat sympatico.......and I never smoked pot.........so it ain't no tripping......anything I've seen or heard..........experienced.........never did acid.
I'm Catholic.........and I'm a Pisces and yes I do believe.........I'm a tad afraid of an angel though.........if it was in the form of those huge like Seraphim and all them......in human form........one was right in my house.......even paramedics seen it and police officers.............and we all thought he was with the others.
Yepper.........you keep off that weed, WW cause your so much more can we say enlightened or in touch............as we are supposed to be.
You still watch sappy movies though.......everyone else........indeed being clean can be fun, and funny as well............even entertaining......it's kewl.
I'm so sorry about your cousin too WW........keep reaching out.
Ahhhhh, see it's all around now........he's calm and reached for your hand......good stuff........made me smile.
You were in DUBAI? Oh I would love to go there..........only I'd be afraid if I couldn't sit in first class........haha.......wow that had to be cool......oh you'd be dancing with that man today.......same if ya were at a Blues Festival......you know that........and I'd be too.
We can't take up the board with our stuff too much me thinks......but we are somewhat sympatico.......and I never smoked pot.........so it ain't no tripping......anything I've seen or heard..........experienced.........never did acid.
I'm Catholic.........and I'm a Pisces and yes I do believe.........I'm a tad afraid of an angel though.........if it was in the form of those huge like Seraphim and all them......in human form........one was right in my house.......even paramedics seen it and police officers.............and we all thought he was with the others.
Yepper.........you keep off that weed, WW cause your so much more can we say enlightened or in touch............as we are supposed to be.
You still watch sappy movies though.......everyone else........indeed being clean can be fun, and funny as well............even entertaining......it's kewl.
I'm so sorry about your cousin too WW........keep reaching out.
It seems the deeper I go, the more questions arise....
And Bryn, why the heck did I start humming that song "go tell it on the mountain" today when driving my car ??? I don't even know all the lyrics, but the tune just popped into my head. Where did that come from ??? Angels ?? Spirit guides ??? God ??? Buddha ??? My Grandmas ??
Sometimes I wonder about me.....
I smoked weed because I lived in fear of my own essence....isn't that fricken silly ?
The lack of luminescence in my essence throughout my adolescence is becoming an obsolescence. yeah....something like that <smile>
glad you're here....:-)
Sleep well...
With love, light and convalescence,
Diana
And Bryn, why the heck did I start humming that song "go tell it on the mountain" today when driving my car ??? I don't even know all the lyrics, but the tune just popped into my head. Where did that come from ??? Angels ?? Spirit guides ??? God ??? Buddha ??? My Grandmas ??
Sometimes I wonder about me.....
I smoked weed because I lived in fear of my own essence....isn't that fricken silly ?
The lack of luminescence in my essence throughout my adolescence is becoming an obsolescence. yeah....something like that <smile>
glad you're here....:-)
Sleep well...
With love, light and convalescence,
Diana
