....calling you out too...how ya doing? I've been super busy working two positions at my Company and then trying to do the Mom thing and all that...I haven't been to a meeting since Sunday, so I'm a little cuckoo, but I'll get to my Women's stag tomorrow night. Just wanted to say hi and check in with you.
Hey Avondale Girl:) Hello from NZ and missing your posts.
Light and love Zac
Light and love Zac
Hey guys:)
Things are supremely hectic.
My fiance fainted this past Sunday..... on the job and hit a table on the way down...sustaining a concussion. He's fine, but the phone call from the ER was very scary.So I have been playing nursemaid all week, while he has been off from work recuperating.
Today is the anniversary of my Dad's death(23 yrs ago) and now that I am sober...those feelings are very real and raw...compounded with my best friend's passing last month is making the feelings bubble up like a pot of boiling water.
And today we just sold my beloved little sports car (that I've been driving since 1991)and got some thing heavier and more reliable that doesn't have 100 million miles on it. It was hard parting with that little car....she and I went through a lot together...funny how we get attached to inanimate objects.
Oh,yeah....and we are going trough a major management transition at work which has been very tense.
They say that it is through PAIN that we do the most growing....so apparently I am going through a HUGE growth spurt.
Sometimes I feel like the reality of life...life on lifes terms is what just puts me through the ringer.I drank and drugged through most of my adult life and never followed through when life got tricky...or I'd burn the candle at both ends...work myself to death and then binge for a few days, then check out for a few more to recover from it all. I had a nice little system down..which thank the Lord, stopped working for me.
I'm going to meetings every day, talking to my sponsor, working with a new sponsee, sharing in meetings , trying to turn as much as possible over to God....and did I mention coming up on my 2 yr anniversary? So we all know how it is right before an anniversary.
My sponsor says I'm right where I'm supposed to be...I know I am growing for the better because of all of this but doing it all sober is not easy. But nobody ever said sobriety was easy.
I hate coming on here and whining....thats what I'm doing. But hopefully you all will love me in spite of it. I feel comfortable with you guys to share when I'm not feeling so positive and perky.
God forbid you all find out I'm not perfect
I'll be ok..I'll just keep putting one foot in front of the other.
I'll check in more often...I miss chatting. Lately I don't feel like I have much to offer....have been reading mostly.
God Bless,
Carolyn
Things are supremely hectic.
My fiance fainted this past Sunday..... on the job and hit a table on the way down...sustaining a concussion. He's fine, but the phone call from the ER was very scary.So I have been playing nursemaid all week, while he has been off from work recuperating.
Today is the anniversary of my Dad's death(23 yrs ago) and now that I am sober...those feelings are very real and raw...compounded with my best friend's passing last month is making the feelings bubble up like a pot of boiling water.
And today we just sold my beloved little sports car (that I've been driving since 1991)and got some thing heavier and more reliable that doesn't have 100 million miles on it. It was hard parting with that little car....she and I went through a lot together...funny how we get attached to inanimate objects.
Oh,yeah....and we are going trough a major management transition at work which has been very tense.
They say that it is through PAIN that we do the most growing....so apparently I am going through a HUGE growth spurt.
Sometimes I feel like the reality of life...life on lifes terms is what just puts me through the ringer.I drank and drugged through most of my adult life and never followed through when life got tricky...or I'd burn the candle at both ends...work myself to death and then binge for a few days, then check out for a few more to recover from it all. I had a nice little system down..which thank the Lord, stopped working for me.
I'm going to meetings every day, talking to my sponsor, working with a new sponsee, sharing in meetings , trying to turn as much as possible over to God....and did I mention coming up on my 2 yr anniversary? So we all know how it is right before an anniversary.
My sponsor says I'm right where I'm supposed to be...I know I am growing for the better because of all of this but doing it all sober is not easy. But nobody ever said sobriety was easy.
I hate coming on here and whining....thats what I'm doing. But hopefully you all will love me in spite of it. I feel comfortable with you guys to share when I'm not feeling so positive and perky.
God forbid you all find out I'm not perfect
I'll be ok..I'll just keep putting one foot in front of the other.
I'll check in more often...I miss chatting. Lately I don't feel like I have much to offer....have been reading mostly.
God Bless,
Carolyn
Hey Carolyn :)
I didn't read any whining just an awesome read of experience, strength, hope, gratitude and how it all combines to be the miracle of sobriety.
Light and love Zac
I didn't read any whining just an awesome read of experience, strength, hope, gratitude and how it all combines to be the miracle of sobriety.
Light and love Zac
Hey Zac,
Thank you very much. Today is a much better day. Your kindness and postive reassurances are a true blessing.
Hope you have a wonderful rest of your weekend.
God bless,
C
Thank you very much. Today is a much better day. Your kindness and postive reassurances are a true blessing.
Hope you have a wonderful rest of your weekend.
God bless,
C
