Hi there... I first came across this site last June and since then got clean, relapsed, got clean again, relapsed again and am now at my planning to get clean again stage.. I have it all planned out to do it the same way as I did the last time (which by the way was the longest I've managed to stay clean).. I've got a bit of meth to do me my first 4 to 5 days and then it's just over the counter stuff... Thought I had it sussed last time, but no, fell right back into it.. I'm gonna do it this time though, at least that's what I'm gonna keep telling myself! I've never used meth on a daily basis so that's why I think it helped me the last two times..
If anyone has any other useful tips that they'd like to share with me please do.. It's been so long since I've visited this site, I was ashamed as hell coz I'd relapsed and people on this site were so genuine and open to helping me I just felt s***.
I'm gonna stick to posting this time though, it helps talking with people who've been where I am and am heading (hopefully).
nice one you!!!Lou..hows yerself&Kev?.Glad to have ya back on..Lou dont feel bad about relapsing..christ we have all done it..the main thing is yer movin towards some clean time.Any chance you can get on a clinic or some councilling?it helps in the early stages of coming off.Not much new with me..still clean...still on the lovely City Clinic getting my juice..but no smack 6mnths.by xmas..so ya can both do it.Nice to have you back..dont be a stranger...Take care&talk soon....Davey
Welcome back......think about the ways you have tried last time and then what you think went wrong to cause you to relapse...that may help you reach success this time.....relapse is a natural part of change..ever try dieting.lol. Like the previous post says just happy you keep coming back. I tried getting clean 100 times and every time I learned something different and thats what eventually worked.
Hey Davey! Good to hear from you too. How are things with you? Sounds like you're in good form - got used to all that travelling up and down or has that changed? We're both doing good really only relapsed middle of October after being clean for two and a half months. Might not sound like much but it was two and a half months of nothing, which was good for us. Spent the whole time sneezing for some reason but there you go that's what happens. I think we got lazy and that's what got us back to disaster, too much time on our hands being busy is a big help. I keep telling myself that I'm coming up to the busiest two weeks of the year so that in itself will be some help!
I have some valium to help me when the meth is gone - gonna do some research on the net about interactions etc. Don't plan on taking both at the same time though. The meth really did help last couple of times and coz we're not taking it all the time the comedown isn't so bad. Loads of people have bad colds and flus this time of year so we're just going to convince ourselves that that's all that's wrong with us, we've got crappy colds or flus.
I have learnt a couple of things from each time - people, places etc that I should stay away from and as I said earlier keeping busy is real important. That shouldn't be a problem as we've lots going on at the moment. I won't go into it coz I'd just bore everybody to tears. Another thing I've learnt is never give up trying to give up!
I've never dieted but did give up smoking hash after years and years of smoking the crap. Haven't had a joint in a long time now and that was a hard one to stop but I did it, so I'm going to apply the same strategy to this one as I did to that one and please, please god may it work this time.
I'm gonna sign off now and hit the pillow, I'm looking forward to tomorrow and dreading it a bit but there is light at the end of the tunnel, that I do know. One thing's for sure I'm going to keep posting coz it helps me get crap out of my head. My postings for the next few days will more than likely be 'woe is me' but if I get there in the end, that'll be it.
Davey, as I said earlier, great to hear from you and this time I will keep in touch. You'll have to fill me in on all that's going on with you. Keep yourself well. Talk soon.
I have some valium to help me when the meth is gone - gonna do some research on the net about interactions etc. Don't plan on taking both at the same time though. The meth really did help last couple of times and coz we're not taking it all the time the comedown isn't so bad. Loads of people have bad colds and flus this time of year so we're just going to convince ourselves that that's all that's wrong with us, we've got crappy colds or flus.
I have learnt a couple of things from each time - people, places etc that I should stay away from and as I said earlier keeping busy is real important. That shouldn't be a problem as we've lots going on at the moment. I won't go into it coz I'd just bore everybody to tears. Another thing I've learnt is never give up trying to give up!
I've never dieted but did give up smoking hash after years and years of smoking the crap. Haven't had a joint in a long time now and that was a hard one to stop but I did it, so I'm going to apply the same strategy to this one as I did to that one and please, please god may it work this time.
I'm gonna sign off now and hit the pillow, I'm looking forward to tomorrow and dreading it a bit but there is light at the end of the tunnel, that I do know. One thing's for sure I'm going to keep posting coz it helps me get crap out of my head. My postings for the next few days will more than likely be 'woe is me' but if I get there in the end, that'll be it.
Davey, as I said earlier, great to hear from you and this time I will keep in touch. You'll have to fill me in on all that's going on with you. Keep yourself well. Talk soon.
Hi Lou,
Keep the head up, I know how you are feeling, stopped taking H, on fri night, feeling very ill, had a rough night last night, thought a was going to die vomiting, nightmare.
Be strong, and hopefully we can get through this together.
Geo
Keep the head up, I know how you are feeling, stopped taking H, on fri night, feeling very ill, had a rough night last night, thought a was going to die vomiting, nightmare.
Be strong, and hopefully we can get through this together.
Geo
Hey Geo!
I know how you feel. I'm beginning to cluck now but want to wait another couple of hours before I take some of my methadone. Had my last little bit of smoke last night at about 11 and its 1.40 following day now. Woke up feeling s***, sore legs the usual crap! Hopefully it won't be so bad for me this time as I only relapsed in October I'll just have to wait and see. Wiped all the numbers out of my phone last night too which I reckon was a good idea - takes the temptation away a bit.
I'd great plans for today - was gonna take some methadone and get out of the house and wander round the shops but I couldn't even make it into the shower the way I'm feeling at the moment. Maybe after I've taken a few mills I'll feel a bit better and I might make the effort to get out of the house for a while.
Your doing well if I was you I'd be proud of that! Are you just coming down with nothing or have you got anything to help you? OTC Meds can be helpful, they may not take away the symptoms completely but they can reduce them. You keep it up - I'm only a few days behind you!
Hopefully this day next week we'll be able to look back and say thanks be to god that's over and done with - that's when the hard stuff begins, staying away from it. I'm going away for the month of January and where I'm going there's no H, thankfully.
Keep in touch!
I know how you feel. I'm beginning to cluck now but want to wait another couple of hours before I take some of my methadone. Had my last little bit of smoke last night at about 11 and its 1.40 following day now. Woke up feeling s***, sore legs the usual crap! Hopefully it won't be so bad for me this time as I only relapsed in October I'll just have to wait and see. Wiped all the numbers out of my phone last night too which I reckon was a good idea - takes the temptation away a bit.
I'd great plans for today - was gonna take some methadone and get out of the house and wander round the shops but I couldn't even make it into the shower the way I'm feeling at the moment. Maybe after I've taken a few mills I'll feel a bit better and I might make the effort to get out of the house for a while.
Your doing well if I was you I'd be proud of that! Are you just coming down with nothing or have you got anything to help you? OTC Meds can be helpful, they may not take away the symptoms completely but they can reduce them. You keep it up - I'm only a few days behind you!
Hopefully this day next week we'll be able to look back and say thanks be to god that's over and done with - that's when the hard stuff begins, staying away from it. I'm going away for the month of January and where I'm going there's no H, thankfully.
Keep in touch!
Hi Lou,
Had my last smoke on friday night, have been smoking just over a 16th, every 2 days, stopped on friday night, and it's now 14:00 on sun, had about 15mil of meth yesterday, it helped a bit, but not much.
Last night, was really bad, throught a was going 2 die, rought, I have 5 britlofex, which I have taken 2 this morn, so they are helping a little bit.
I have got 4 8mil subs, but a don't wanna take 1 to soon, scared it will make me really ill with the meth from yesterday. What do you think, I had the last 5mil of meth at 18:30 last night.
It's really good to see all the usual faces in here, this place is such good help, as you know, i'm in the house by myself with no one 2 talk 2.
wanted to get out of the house myself, this place is a mess but i mangaged to forced some noodles into me, but am never going 2 b fit 2 clean.
Keep in torch Lou,
Geo
Had my last smoke on friday night, have been smoking just over a 16th, every 2 days, stopped on friday night, and it's now 14:00 on sun, had about 15mil of meth yesterday, it helped a bit, but not much.
Last night, was really bad, throught a was going 2 die, rought, I have 5 britlofex, which I have taken 2 this morn, so they are helping a little bit.
I have got 4 8mil subs, but a don't wanna take 1 to soon, scared it will make me really ill with the meth from yesterday. What do you think, I had the last 5mil of meth at 18:30 last night.
It's really good to see all the usual faces in here, this place is such good help, as you know, i'm in the house by myself with no one 2 talk 2.
wanted to get out of the house myself, this place is a mess but i mangaged to forced some noodles into me, but am never going 2 b fit 2 clean.
Keep in torch Lou,
Geo
Alright..Lou..yer 2.1/2 mnths. was great..well done&i understand how you feel about your relapse..but as you said practice makes perfect as in getting yer head around this battle that is kicking the habit fulltime.Very brave&honest thing you did with taking the dealers nos.of yer mobile..as you know you gotta break all ties with smack so yer deff.goin in the right direction..pat on the back for you both.Im still making my trip every 2wks. to the clinic..so nothing new in that respect.Just back from the pool(yep we got one down here)lol..with my daughter Sian..so its a busy time getting all her stuff together..but all good.I will be 6mnth. clean off smack&benzos around xmas..which will be my 1st. xmas without it in 10yrs. so its gonna be a bit special.You mentioned you gave up the hash ..fair play..theres been a bit of a drought all over..i like you have been a lifetime smoker..but because its been so hard to get a bit im thinking of knocking that on the head..i only used it at night to put me asleep..anyway but we will see!!.Talk soon..my regards to you both as ever...Davey
