Beside Myself

I'm feeling like a giddy teenage girl.
I just recently got in touch with my high school sweetheart. She has been sending Christmas cards on & off over the years. This last one I got I noticed that the return address had just her and her daughters name. So I sent her a card and put my e-mail address on it. about 4 days later she sent me an e-mail that told me how she was divorced now, and how happy she was that I had got in touch with her.
We had a thing going about 12 years ago, but I was heavy into my drug use at the time and we lived about 65 miles apart. At that time I believe a relationship between us would have be doomed from the get-go.
About 10 years before that she left right out of high school to join the navy. She had a difficult relationship with her Mother back then, and I think she felt that she didn't have a lot of options.
Over the years I've been in relationships with 4 other women that had even a slim chance of working out (all of them were just two addicts trying to hold each other up) I still believe that this girl is the only one that ever came close to knowing who I was.
That being said I'm going in this with eyes wide open. Right from the start I told her about my addiction and recovery. She wants to hook up this Sunday, and I couldn't be happier, and scared out of my wits at the same time. A lot of water has gone under the bridge since the last time we last saw each other. I've put on a few pounds and lost a few teeth. But I'm going in open minded. She is, after all, coming of a bad situation herself. (she wrote to me that her ex had been beating her). So I know I need to tread lightly, for us both.
But for now I'm happy
Nice one Zeek.....glad for ya pal....hope all goes well for Sunday.All the very best..........Davey
awesome--gotta warn ya though be very carefull--when were are really happy and get all giddy we tend to wanna use--especially throwin past relationship stuff into early recovery--bigtime relaps possibility--but you are saying you have your eyes open--thats good--again--thats really awesome i wish you two fun and happy times!
That'll be nice, Z.........maybe just go into it thinking it's just a date.......no expectations and see where that leads.

You deserve something good coming your way.......this just may be it.
Good for you Zekk,
I am happy for you guys. Take it slow and don't make any immediate decisions. Enjoy the time together. I call it twitterpatting from Bambi but my daughter tells me that is when a couple goes all the way. LOL. So have fun twitterpatting (dating). LOL
Dawn
hoping all works out well for the both of you.... do post here with a update.
Throwing in my best wishes as well! ATB!
Zekk, how's it going there? E-mails still flowing?
it's Monday Zekk, how was your date? Hope it was an everlasting experience. Let us know. Please. I was thinking of you yesturday twitterpating. LOL
wonering how zekk is--hope you are doing good!!!!
I didn't mean to keep you all in suspense (lol), but I've been really busy at school. I had gotten behind on some of my groups at the clinic as well, and been leaving the house early everyday and getting home dead tired every night.
Anyway, Jan (an alias) & I never got to hook up that weekend, much to my disappointment. She was suppose to come in to town for her Uncles funeral, which didn't happen until a week later, when she was unable to attend. We do plan to get together as soon as its convenient for the both of us. We stay in nearly constant touch through e-mail (I don't have a land line or cell). It's hard since shes 70 miles away, raising her daughter and holding down a 9 to 6 job. Plus me with school, the clinic, and my part time job. (did I mention I started a part time job). It'll come together at some point. I'm just looking forward to spending a little time with a member of the opposite sex, and just enjoying each others company. You know NORMAL STUFF.

I'll keep you posted, and thanks everyone for being in my corner, and lending a much needed ear.
Well done&good luck on all fronts Zekk......hope all works out for ya....Take care...........Davey
You sound great Zekk...........you're doing really well..........before ya know it you and your dear friend will be hanging out.........doing NORMAL STUFF! LOL

That cracked me up, Normal stuff......man, sometimes I forget what normal is.