Bobs Words/my Embaressment(how About You?)

Pain Pills
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I checked out early yesterday from the board,was having a rough time.Im happy to say,i made it through the night,went with my husband to an appointment,dinner and some christmas shopping for our grandchildren.It was nice and helped me to stop thinking about how rotten i was feeling.While catching up on the board today i read something Bob said that i can relate to sooooo much,he said


I ran into someone once that looked familiar, it' turns out I knew her from the 80's era, I didn't really like the story of me I was told, so, today when I see someone that looks familiar I run really fast the other way! lmao

That sentence rings so true for me,still to this day.Just the other night i went to an AA meeting,while they were introducing themsleves one by one,i recognized 3 people there,one women I knew pretty well,the other 2 guys were very familiar.I KNEW that i knew them from somewhere,school? Wasnt sure but as i sat there i just KNEW it was from my younger drinking days, i could picture the bar scenes all over again.I could see them looking at me (my first time at this particualr meeting)and i could see their wheels turning also.I couldnt help but think,god,please dont let them have better memories than I !!!Or please dont let them have been anywhere where i might have made an a** out of myself! There were so many memories of when i was younger and drinking that i am mortified of. I did some crazy things.A few i will NEVER EVER forget.But just like Bob said,when i see people from High school,becasue we were all out partying then,18 was the drinking age,but we could all get in at 16,several bars around would let us all in,and we'ld drink all night,sometimes come in on Saturday at noon and party all day!(my god its a wonder we didnt die,actually a few of us did)but when i run into these people now,i cant help but want to turn and walk the other way(and i have done just that...a few times)walk the other way to avoid a person i didnt want to have to talk to because of incidents from my younger years.So at this AA meeting im starting to get myself worked up a little,feeling a little uncomfortable and then i thought,hey,they are here for the same reason as me,they have their own embarressing moments they'ld rather forget.And that made me feel a little better.One question i ALWAYS hated when i was younger and out in the bars every single weekend,sometime all weekend long was..."Do you remember what you did last night?"...and i would always say no,and dont tell me! Unfortuanetly as the day went on i usually would remember.

I was just wondering,do any of you feel the same way?Apparently Bob does,how many others?~KIM

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Good Morning Kim,

I'm so glad yesterday worked out for you. I was wondering. Yes, I've had those terrible moments. Usually for me someone will tell me we went to school together and I have no memory of them at all. And I always hated being told the next day what I had done. There is a particular New Year's Eve that will still make me hang my head in shame. Haven't been recognized in awhile though. When I looked into NA meetings in my area, the only one was in my old neighborhood. Wonder who I'd run into there. Bet I'd know 80%! Beck
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yes iv run into people from my past, and prayed they don,t rember me, but the looks on there faces say they do, i did a lot of things in my past im not proud of also, but can,t chang that, but im not that person no moer, thank god, somtimes people rember me but i don,t rember them so then i wonder were i no them from, our how we now one another, hoping its not to embarsing, its what we do today that matters i cant chang the past wish i could some of it enyways, have a goodday karen.
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J&J,

i love your christmas decorations!

i'll have to get mine up.