Roll call sort of.
Where's EckieDee?
Missing my Davey.............Davey how's Sian?.....have ya talked to Robbie?
Con, what's crackin? How's the job? How's your wife? How's your hair? LOL
Amity, we know she only has computer access now sporadically so we'll cut her a break.
Kev, how's classes?
Jack, what's going on with your son? How's your mom? How are YOU?
Tres, well I know what's up with that nutter.
Zekk popped by not long ago.
Zero Girl is admist rubble and stuff thanks to mother nature. Z, hoping you are alright. You Strawberry Shortcake.
GYAC!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! What's the scoop, D? When is the wedding? Not yours! LOL Your nieces.
Linz has been MIA.
I'm not forgetting anyone...............just throwing stuff off the top of my head.
Respect and love for everybody over here...........our friends from other parts of the Board please feel welcome to fill us on in.......'specially if ya won a lottery or something.
Jack, what's going on with your son? How's your mom? How are YOU?
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Hey there B
My KID is still living home, unemployed, and depressed.
Remember Sandy,- she is upstate NY -calls every weekend, wants me to move up there & help her sister run their restaurant (well it is really a diner)
Mom is kool- she went to Florida this weekend - a wedding for one of my cousins- her brothers daughter
Me- I am having a few problems with managemant at the mdone clinic- I returned a bottle without the cap & they took 1 away for a month
So now I have to go downtown twice a week. Not good
The crowd outside that place is a little rough. Very Urban area. Lotsa street people- If you can avoid going there ,you should.- but its only for a month
thanksforasking
Whats up with you??
jack
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Hey there B
My KID is still living home, unemployed, and depressed.
Remember Sandy,- she is upstate NY -calls every weekend, wants me to move up there & help her sister run their restaurant (well it is really a diner)
Mom is kool- she went to Florida this weekend - a wedding for one of my cousins- her brothers daughter
Me- I am having a few problems with managemant at the mdone clinic- I returned a bottle without the cap & they took 1 away for a month
So now I have to go downtown twice a week. Not good
The crowd outside that place is a little rough. Very Urban area. Lotsa street people- If you can avoid going there ,you should.- but its only for a month
thanksforasking
Whats up with you??
jack
Het Bryn i'll check in later, away to get raedy for work. Have a good saturday everyone...
Alrite Bryn thanks for asking bout me and Sian.......Im doin good no booze or joints in over three months and obviously no smack .....ive saved up over the few months and just bout a cool mountainbike.....i used to be well into my biking years ago and am gonna give it another go.........alll the neighbourhood kids are jealous of me Ha!.
Sian is back at skool and doing great ,she has a beautiful teacher and im not just talking her learning capabilities.Its her 9th b/day next month aand i cant believe it...how smart and grown up she is........im a very proud Dad and lucky to have her.That about rounds it off....oh Jack i get ya about the clinic i missed one urine sample and now have to go the 70miles once a week for a month insted of twice monthly.
Take care all............Davey
Sian is back at skool and doing great ,she has a beautiful teacher and im not just talking her learning capabilities.Its her 9th b/day next month aand i cant believe it...how smart and grown up she is........im a very proud Dad and lucky to have her.That about rounds it off....oh Jack i get ya about the clinic i missed one urine sample and now have to go the 70miles once a week for a month insted of twice monthly.
Take care all............Davey
Jack and Davey, I'm sorry about the clinics and all...........that's all crazy....they do that if you are missing the cap?.............what?.............nothing can just be simple in this here world.
Jack, remember Sandy?.......are ya kiddin me.........we all know and love Sandy............hey, the diner part sounds pretty good............M&M and Tres may wanna run away and waitress as they are fine at it..........Sandy must miss you something awful Jack and I am sure the same for you.
Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh man, your son............I'm so sorry, Jack........although he's not alone cause I know so many kids/adults that age going through it........it's a different world than we were in...............I hope he gets out of his funk though, Jack........and good for your mom........she just gets on with herself don't she?
Ayo, Kev..............I know you are busy.............we're all proud of ya.
O.K. Davey, Sian will be 9.............how'd that happen and of course she's smart and wonderful.............she takes after you................mountain bike.........that's S-E-X-Y...............LOL...........you should ride it over to the school and show off for the pretty teacher............LOL.............you're gonna be in tip top shape, Davey.
Good lookout on the refrain of weed and liquor too...........ya done good, Davey.
Lots of love from Bryn to y'all......hope everyone else is Okalee Dokalee!
Jack, remember Sandy?.......are ya kiddin me.........we all know and love Sandy............hey, the diner part sounds pretty good............M&M and Tres may wanna run away and waitress as they are fine at it..........Sandy must miss you something awful Jack and I am sure the same for you.
Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh man, your son............I'm so sorry, Jack........although he's not alone cause I know so many kids/adults that age going through it........it's a different world than we were in...............I hope he gets out of his funk though, Jack........and good for your mom........she just gets on with herself don't she?
Ayo, Kev..............I know you are busy.............we're all proud of ya.
O.K. Davey, Sian will be 9.............how'd that happen and of course she's smart and wonderful.............she takes after you................mountain bike.........that's S-E-X-Y...............LOL...........you should ride it over to the school and show off for the pretty teacher............LOL.............you're gonna be in tip top shape, Davey.
Good lookout on the refrain of weed and liquor too...........ya done good, Davey.
Lots of love from Bryn to y'all......hope everyone else is Okalee Dokalee!
Hey Bryn cheers for the shout, how is everything with you? All good i hope. Davey and Jack, i can't believe the clinics are like that where you are.....F***, even in the open jails here you can fail a few dip tests before they send you back to a closed jail. Our clinics are well relaxed compoared to yours. Keep the faith lads, some jobs worths take their jobs too seriously, eh?
College is really good, i really like it. I am stuggling with sociology....that is a pure head f***. But , i know if i put the effort in it will come. Getting used to interacting with people, not feeling like a weirdo as much now. Have a blether with people in class n that . It feels good to speak to people outside my social circle who are not on drugs( well not kit n that). Went and bought a cardi the other day, was looking for the " american student look" carried it off too haha.
Done a charity bungee jump last week, went through to glasgow to do it, was really really scared....brought an extra pair of boxers with me just in case. What a buzz it was.... really good. Natural high...felt right down after it for about 15 mins, Clare pointed this out to me. Apart from that what a day....
Davey, proud of you mate....Bryn and Jack take care. Away to work , have a good sunday all, Kev
College is really good, i really like it. I am stuggling with sociology....that is a pure head f***. But , i know if i put the effort in it will come. Getting used to interacting with people, not feeling like a weirdo as much now. Have a blether with people in class n that . It feels good to speak to people outside my social circle who are not on drugs( well not kit n that). Went and bought a cardi the other day, was looking for the " american student look" carried it off too haha.
Done a charity bungee jump last week, went through to glasgow to do it, was really really scared....brought an extra pair of boxers with me just in case. What a buzz it was.... really good. Natural high...felt right down after it for about 15 mins, Clare pointed this out to me. Apart from that what a day....
Davey, proud of you mate....Bryn and Jack take care. Away to work , have a good sunday all, Kev
Kev glad yer getting on in yer studies......im sure some of the stuff seems daunting ....but mate it will be so worth it.About the clinics my one is pretty lenient its just ive got a new Doctor and hes trying to lay down the law a bit ......he called Doctor Melton and is yer typical red nosed boozing wine type of Doc.Anyway nuff bout him......trying to get that Harvard or Yale look with yer cardie.......LOL......as long as its soft knit and not one of those thick Aran type ones you will be coool........youlll be listening to the Beach Boys next....which aint that out of order.Take care my mucker...................Davey
Hi Bryn :)
Well, Im doing ok I think, 4 months clean I was on 16 Sept....wife still not working but no fault of hers...everytime she gets an interview she gets a call right after telling her she was their second pick..its soooo frustrating...and her self estemm is getting so low...I worry about her a lot...prayers would be appreciated...in my work the good boss i have is leaving and we got a new one in and hes a total high maintenance a******...so i opted to go cross the hall and work on a team there...thought it was best for me...i'll be giving up some power but in the long run i will be learning a lot...bit scared at that...i dont learn as quick as the young ones do but Im going to try...im looking at it like im going back to school for a bit...no loss in pay so Im hoping it will work out...dont think im up to serving another a******...lol...my hair is fine thank you LOL !!...went shoe shoppng for fall sissy shoes !! Had a blast !! me and the shoes...what can I say !! :) Thanks for asking bout all of us Bryn ! I read about your latest with the daughter...I sure hope it gets better for you...I'll keep both of you in my thoughts !
Con
Well, Im doing ok I think, 4 months clean I was on 16 Sept....wife still not working but no fault of hers...everytime she gets an interview she gets a call right after telling her she was their second pick..its soooo frustrating...and her self estemm is getting so low...I worry about her a lot...prayers would be appreciated...in my work the good boss i have is leaving and we got a new one in and hes a total high maintenance a******...so i opted to go cross the hall and work on a team there...thought it was best for me...i'll be giving up some power but in the long run i will be learning a lot...bit scared at that...i dont learn as quick as the young ones do but Im going to try...im looking at it like im going back to school for a bit...no loss in pay so Im hoping it will work out...dont think im up to serving another a******...lol...my hair is fine thank you LOL !!...went shoe shoppng for fall sissy shoes !! Had a blast !! me and the shoes...what can I say !! :) Thanks for asking bout all of us Bryn ! I read about your latest with the daughter...I sure hope it gets better for you...I'll keep both of you in my thoughts !
Con
Sup Bryn,
Hope your doing well, I'm fine, still in school, and loving it. Half way through my meth de-tox. Hit 14mg yesterday, and have till the end of October before I'll no longer have to visit the clinic anymore.
I'm feeling a little bad in the mornings, but, once I get a shower , and hit the road I start feeling OK. Starting to loss sleep too. But I figure in a couple months time, I'll be in good shape.
Oh, yea trying to quit smoking too. Talk about tough, I thought heroin was hard to kick!(lol)
Love ya Bryn!
Hope your doing well, I'm fine, still in school, and loving it. Half way through my meth de-tox. Hit 14mg yesterday, and have till the end of October before I'll no longer have to visit the clinic anymore.
I'm feeling a little bad in the mornings, but, once I get a shower , and hit the road I start feeling OK. Starting to loss sleep too. But I figure in a couple months time, I'll be in good shape.
Oh, yea trying to quit smoking too. Talk about tough, I thought heroin was hard to kick!(lol)
Love ya Bryn!
Still missing eckie and GYAC...seen GYAC around fairly recently, but maybe eck's driving his magic bus...Thanks for checking out my pic Con, they are cute, aren't they? Honestly, I think they keep me young (well not young exactly, but I feel it =)
ECKIEFCUKINDEE,is alive n kickin,was at IBROX today with a busload of fellow huns,IBROX,t u all is the home of the famous GLASGOW RANGERS,took me nearly an hour to get back out of Glasgow,we won 2-1 too.Ive not really got much to say at the moment as my life is still in turmoil,though starting to deal with it a lot better,hope to get a flat real soon then i can properly move on.Was driving a coach in the early hours last-nite when a group of neds i was passing wouldnt get off the road and one went through the motions of putting a buckfast bottle through my windscreen,swear to god it would have hit me square in the face,i honestly felt like running over the little b*******.I would,ve been the one lying in prison though,so thankfully he didnt throw it and i didnt run him over,will fill u all in on my up.s,n,downs at some point,so take care my friend,s..ECKIE DEE...a sight 2c.......
HELLO GOOD PEOPLE!
All is well on this end....getting ready for the fall concert season and a wedding next year (Bryn, it will be here before I know it). Over the weekend I saw someone I used to use with and it dam near brought me to my knee's. She tried to go the other way I guess because she was in such shame but I marched right up to her and gave her the biggest hug I could. She then cried her eyes out....I mean I could feel her weighing on my arms and just releasing her pain. That hug went on forever and I was determined to stay as long as I was needed. She looked up and said Darin, how the fukc did you do it? I told her it's hard to put in words but better put in action. She then said D.....I just can't get out. I said to her that one statement will keep you trapped. After that we parted ways both looking back at one another and you know a thought came to me instantly.... it's so hard to see what you were and even harder to see what will always be waiting for you if you take a trip backwards.
On another note I was clicking around on youtube and found a clip that floored the heck out of me and thought I would share it here....I cannot stop playing because it displays what I love most about music.......true beauty.....hope you like!
Click: Selah Sue
All is well on this end....getting ready for the fall concert season and a wedding next year (Bryn, it will be here before I know it). Over the weekend I saw someone I used to use with and it dam near brought me to my knee's. She tried to go the other way I guess because she was in such shame but I marched right up to her and gave her the biggest hug I could. She then cried her eyes out....I mean I could feel her weighing on my arms and just releasing her pain. That hug went on forever and I was determined to stay as long as I was needed. She looked up and said Darin, how the fukc did you do it? I told her it's hard to put in words but better put in action. She then said D.....I just can't get out. I said to her that one statement will keep you trapped. After that we parted ways both looking back at one another and you know a thought came to me instantly.... it's so hard to see what you were and even harder to see what will always be waiting for you if you take a trip backwards.
On another note I was clicking around on youtube and found a clip that floored the heck out of me and thought I would share it here....I cannot stop playing because it displays what I love most about music.......true beauty.....hope you like!
Click: Selah Sue
Hey D, checked her out and she is impressive...love that stylie music.
Your post was quite moving...that woman probably needed that hug as much as anyone has never needed one and thank God you were there to give it to her. I believe in the butterfly wings theory...you never know what even the smallest action will create, either where it happened or elsewhere in the world. The ramifications of that loving, calming embrace may not be yours to know in this moment, but something beautiful was created and beautiful things never die.
I'm so glad you're here...here in the larger sense, I mean.
Peace~M&M
Your post was quite moving...that woman probably needed that hug as much as anyone has never needed one and thank God you were there to give it to her. I believe in the butterfly wings theory...you never know what even the smallest action will create, either where it happened or elsewhere in the world. The ramifications of that loving, calming embrace may not be yours to know in this moment, but something beautiful was created and beautiful things never die.
I'm so glad you're here...here in the larger sense, I mean.
Peace~M&M
Thanks MNM,
I cannot stop watching that clip.......and I can't wait for a full length release from her!!
It chocked me up a little because this was a friend before the drugs and all those good memories came rushing over me followed by the bad ones. It felt like she needed a moment of release.....that moment to let it all go....including the walls we addicts build. Daisy was usually that rock solid go hard type of lady but that day she was a weak depleated bowl of painful tears. I was glad I was there at that moment because when we are in that state all we want to know is that someone understands and cares. She looked at me with a glint of hope in her eye through all the pain I saw. I know her journey is all her own but a part of me wanted to save her but we know that can never happen. The thought of her has stayed with me since we saw one another even to the point of me calling around to my support team and they said what I already know deep down.....if she is not ready for help....you are not able to help! This humbled me so because no matter how far you grow away from it it's still there as a reminder of your past pain and someones current nightmare.
I cannot stop watching that clip.......and I can't wait for a full length release from her!!
It chocked me up a little because this was a friend before the drugs and all those good memories came rushing over me followed by the bad ones. It felt like she needed a moment of release.....that moment to let it all go....including the walls we addicts build. Daisy was usually that rock solid go hard type of lady but that day she was a weak depleated bowl of painful tears. I was glad I was there at that moment because when we are in that state all we want to know is that someone understands and cares. She looked at me with a glint of hope in her eye through all the pain I saw. I know her journey is all her own but a part of me wanted to save her but we know that can never happen. The thought of her has stayed with me since we saw one another even to the point of me calling around to my support team and they said what I already know deep down.....if she is not ready for help....you are not able to help! This humbled me so because no matter how far you grow away from it it's still there as a reminder of your past pain and someones current nightmare.
PS.....saw the pic on the Fam board..........ADORABLE.......but one question....were is the 50yr old lady?
"This humbled me so because no matter how far you grow away from it it's still there as a reminder of your past pain and someones current nightmare "
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I get the same feeling when I have to go to the clinic, and pass some of the old timers that I have a little history with
respectalways
jack
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I get the same feeling when I have to go to the clinic, and pass some of the old timers that I have a little history with
respectalways
jack
Here Miss!
Aye aye all!
Well, I'm on day 2 of sub. Not officially I must add, but I'm doing this none the less. Got enough sub to do a 7 day detox. It's actually suboxone, not subutex which is a whole new ball game for me. Felt awful last night, really bad (only had 4mg of sub yesterday). Had to work today and me and my partner were sitting in bed this morning with the duvet pulled up to our chins, seriously thinking of just jacking it all in and admitting defeat but we had no choice but to get up and go to work as we just can't take any more time off. Been a rough morning but since I took my sub about an hour ago (8mg), feeling quite a bit better. Not 100% but tomorrow should be better. Have to admit, I was really scared to take the suboxone because of the Nalorex in them. Thought i'd end up ill (especially with no doctor guiding me through) but my partner went first and braved it for both! Wish I had the day off but I'm here now and going to just get on with the day as best I can. Sorry i've been MIA, always do when I relapse as I just feel too hypocrytical to give anyone advice when I'm one to talk!! So hey, I'm back, gimme some goss!!!!!!!!!!
Lovin you all,
Linz x
Aye aye all!
Well, I'm on day 2 of sub. Not officially I must add, but I'm doing this none the less. Got enough sub to do a 7 day detox. It's actually suboxone, not subutex which is a whole new ball game for me. Felt awful last night, really bad (only had 4mg of sub yesterday). Had to work today and me and my partner were sitting in bed this morning with the duvet pulled up to our chins, seriously thinking of just jacking it all in and admitting defeat but we had no choice but to get up and go to work as we just can't take any more time off. Been a rough morning but since I took my sub about an hour ago (8mg), feeling quite a bit better. Not 100% but tomorrow should be better. Have to admit, I was really scared to take the suboxone because of the Nalorex in them. Thought i'd end up ill (especially with no doctor guiding me through) but my partner went first and braved it for both! Wish I had the day off but I'm here now and going to just get on with the day as best I can. Sorry i've been MIA, always do when I relapse as I just feel too hypocrytical to give anyone advice when I'm one to talk!! So hey, I'm back, gimme some goss!!!!!!!!!!
Lovin you all,
Linz x
Here ya go, Linz...............here's some goss..........whatever that is.
Briefly and yeah I said briefly..........LOL...........can I ask..............is it possible to love people ya never even met?
I'll tell ya I love you guys................look at us...............all different but all the same...............doing how we do............and my heart fills with every word each of you share............cause you're my internet fam.............fam across the pond..............fam speaking German................fam bungee jumping and quitting smoking and I just adore you guys........just sayin!
GYAC's post brought me to my knees and profound ain't the word......and I'm gonna pray for his friend............pray as hard as she hugged him cause look at us............I mean give us some goss!
Lil Miss Sassy Shoes...............LOL..........Con, you mean Sassy or Sissy?
Eckie he's on a bus to fantastico............Eckie Dee! LOL
K, and Kev got a dang cardigan...........now I am scared.
Zekk, yeah the smoking it is tough...........very tough.......keep going though.
M&M, she's our resident fam member from the other side and we cherish her as do her lil students..........we're her big kids.
Linz, come on now honey I'mma see you clean and staying and you are no hypocrite........you're my Linz.
Where's that Zero Girl now? I miss Robbie big time.
Briefly and yeah I said briefly..........LOL...........can I ask..............is it possible to love people ya never even met?
I'll tell ya I love you guys................look at us...............all different but all the same...............doing how we do............and my heart fills with every word each of you share............cause you're my internet fam.............fam across the pond..............fam speaking German................fam bungee jumping and quitting smoking and I just adore you guys........just sayin!
GYAC's post brought me to my knees and profound ain't the word......and I'm gonna pray for his friend............pray as hard as she hugged him cause look at us............I mean give us some goss!
Lil Miss Sassy Shoes...............LOL..........Con, you mean Sassy or Sissy?
Eckie he's on a bus to fantastico............Eckie Dee! LOL
K, and Kev got a dang cardigan...........now I am scared.
Zekk, yeah the smoking it is tough...........very tough.......keep going though.
M&M, she's our resident fam member from the other side and we cherish her as do her lil students..........we're her big kids.
Linz, come on now honey I'mma see you clean and staying and you are no hypocrite........you're my Linz.
Where's that Zero Girl now? I miss Robbie big time.
