~bryn~

I believe this board is your home base so to speak so I thought I'd post this here.... A bit back you posted on the PP board some things about Paxil and how hard it is to come off of and we chated a few times about it........Well, you really got my attention and I really don't want to go down that road.....So, I've been trying to taper off of it slowly. Can it be done this way. If not, then how do you get off of it. CT?
Thanks for your help in this matter!
Hey RKT,

Ya know actually I was over on PP yesterday and wanted to ask if you talked to your Doctor........then I got caught up in the COWBOYS......LOL.....another big W! YAY!

Absolutely you have to taper........I don't think there is any other way.......I know someone who did that and well suffice to say it was not good.

So here's what I did and another friend of mine did........and of course I have to say ask your Doctor about it........got that over with.........because when I did he wanted to change me to something else.

O.K. I was on 20mg.........time release........they were little red ones or pink if I am recalling correctly........I cut them in half..........took 10 mg one day and then the 20mg the next........did that for the week.........then down to 10mg every day for a week.........then 10mg one day and 5 the next.......for a week, and then just 5mg.........this is awful to say but it got to the end.......I'd go until I got zapped........or was screaming at people in the graocery store......then I'd take a piece.........a little tiny piece.

Of course this is no way to go about getting off a drug, but hey I had no choice.....and considering I was off the heroin.........it pushed me to do it.......but R no way if ya totally stop it.........within like two or three days you will so feel it........like you had said happened when you were waiting to fill the script........that submarine feeling, mood swings, and the dang ZAPS.......you get electric like shocks........mostly to the face and neck.......but in the arms as well..........you get so exhausted from nothing.

R, I also looked at forums dealing with SSRI's........Paxil in particular.....and you can read what other people have gone through....I don't want to tell you to do the wrong thing, but that's how I did it........personally I don't think it be done in say a week............ya know go 20mg to 10 to 5.......all in one week.

Wishing you all good things R, cause the brain chemistry thing is something else........not to mention and I'm not vain, but I gained weight on that........in places I never gained weight.....my hair got bad on it..........same for my friends....we all got this brittle hair........but alas that's just the physical.

Please, pop over here anytime, R.......we'll be happy to have you.....feel better.
Thanks so much Bryn. My doctor upped my dosage a couple weeks ago to 40 mgs then I read what you said about it so I went back to my original dosage of 20mgs for a couple of weeks and I started this week of about 10mgs or so (1/3 of 40 mg pill). I'm doing fine on that so far. I like your technique so I may ask my doctor (of course) and do something similar. You certainly got my attention on that one. another addiction is all I need right now!

and Thanks for welcoming me here. I read alot on here the other day and even though my prob is PP's there is still lots that can be learned here!
Oh O.K. Rhonda, that sounds like a plan.

I wonder why he upped ya to the 40?

Yes, I was hoping my post made sense. That's good you're feeling O.K. I'll keep checking on ya to see how you're doing.

Yep, always something to learn in this wacky world of drugs, right? Hang over here if things are slow over on PP cause we can learn from you as well. Plus you're cool and kind so we can always use more very cool people over here.


BTW, Rhonda the football over on heroin board belongs to the Brit's. They rule this board. It'll be nice to talk Cowboys once in awhile. LOL Catch ya soon.
Bryn.....Why did he up my dosage? B/c like an idiot I thought 20 mgs wasn't helping and I asked him to, but I read your post shortly after that and decided that I am doing O.K. after all and I need to get off em!

Football belongs to the Brits here huh? LOL!!! O.K. I'll be a good little girl when I'm here. I won't say things like "Cowboys RULE!!"

Thanks again for your help. You are a sweetheart!
Anytime, dahlink......I'm here for ya.

Rhonda, that's alright you asked him to up it.......I mean you did expect to feel something.........what do we know........don't blame yourself......because ya know what you are responsible and caring about you........you ain't needing to get wrapped up in another pill........and you saw it.......it might be just me, but that's a great thing I think.

Just as long as you're feeling alright.........oh yes, football.........what we call soccer..........indeed the Brits love their footie.......I think they have a laugh at the likes of our football.........GO COWBOYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hey, anyway did ya see the IGGLES quarter back spouting a bunch of hooey? Bottom line is he was here NINE YEARS.......we got no ring.......now he's running his mouth...........and after he made his mom all that money on the Chunky Soup commercials....he makes my head explode......oh who cares caught I'm a Cowboys fan anyway........WOOT!
Hey Bryn.............How are things? I just thought I'd pop in and say hello. I am doing pretty good on tapering off of Paxil. I don't know the exact mgs I'm taking now. It's a pretty small piece, but i'd say about 5 mgs. No problems so far.

My cowboys won again last sunday. Looking for a 4th win this sunday. They are coming back! i am so excited.

Hope all is well with you!!
Hi Rhonda,

That is awesome news. Good for you. The little pieces work. I'm glad ya popped over here. I was peeking on the PP board the other night and saw you were on.

Rhonda, I hope things are going better with your mom. You certainly have alot going on, and you're handling it beautifully. That's alot of stress and the fact you even considered you rather not get hooked on any meds like Paxil speaks volumes. You really are doing good. Again, I'm hoping your mom is a little better today.

Yeah, your BOYS is rocking it. I smell another W for this week. I'll be watching if it doesn't coincide with my Phillies. Suddenly the city is all about the boys of summer and not them Eagles. Jumping on the band wagon they are. Understandable as we haven't had any champs in this town for too long.

Take care Rhonda and congrats to you. On the Cowboys and your Paxil kick. I'm so happy you're not having any problems with it.
((((((((((((awe)))))))))))))))Bryn..............You are so sweet to have even read about my problems with my mother, but to actually remember it and say those nice things just shows that you are an angel! Thank you. Mother isn't much better and just treats me worse and worse every day. They have got to get an open spot for her in the Nursing home soon or I think I will lose my mind. By the way where are you from? I got to see the Eagles play the Cowboys once in Dallas. I took as many pictures of them as I did my boys. It was exciting. I hope you had a nice day and all is well with you.
Rhonda, I am not an angel........I am actually a mean, evil woman......LOL....seriously, I am very mean.

Oh anytime, Rhonda.......I know it's been tough on you..........I admire you for keeping it all together...........it's very, very stressful caring for your mom.......and I am certain with your mom being hostile it must be extremely tough..........I am so sorry.........my own mom isn't in the best of health, but she isn't at any mean point.............and she better not be...........or she's in for it...I am just kidding.,,,,,,,,I'll let her slide.

Rhonda, I live in Philadelphia.........I am NO Eagles Phan though.......ahhh, so ya saw the Boys play the Birds then.........I got to see the vice versa here twice......and the Boys are despised here with a passion..........I saw them back in our old stadium where chaos ruled..........put it this way you couldn't bring little children to the games..........it was that bad.

Anyway I'm more a baseball phan..........BTW, anything begins with a "F" we say a "PH"..........like in fan we say PHAN........clever ain't we here.......so I am thrilled the Phillies won the title and we're playing Colorodo Rockies starting first game at home tomorrow night.............we need some kind of championship here in this city and quick.......yes, Aikman is a household name here....a man to be treasured and respected...........#22 as well...........the Boys of old......the FOUR RINGS of Troy..........LOL..........trust me that's not the norm in Philly......just growing up in my house.........we stick with winners and NOW ROMO..............WOOT..........that kid is great.

Much respect to ya Rhonda.........you're really handling life and reality and all it's ups and awful downs............you're doing great..........hope your mom is a little nicer today...........bless her...........take care of you though too if ya can.
Bryn...........Ahh yes....the wonder years............Troy, Emmett, and Michael! I started watching them when Troy was on his way up. Love him..............Romo is good, but I think I can't see his talent b/c I thought Troy was the $$it. alot of people think that Romo is as good or better than Troy.

I watch a little baseball with my son. He is a diehard Cardinals fan. We watch a little Nascar. Used to watch alot of Basketball, but not anymore. Don't really know why.

You said your mom was ill too. Does she live with you? The sad thing about all of this is that I used to look up to my mother, Thought she hung the moon. Little did I know that she had a pill addiction problem for many years which has caused her to lie and be manipulative. I always believed everything she said, but have since found out that she lied bout most everything. On top of her illness she takes an unimaginable amount of pp's. If I can say it's unimaginable then it must be outrageous b/c I could eat quite a few myself when I was using. I will always remember her like she is right now and it literally destroys all of my childhood memories. Well, enough of that mess.

So, you live in Philly. That is what I thought. You are such a breath of fresh air. I lurk and read on this forum alot and your posts are so genuine and honest. (and I'm not just blowing smoke up your butt. LOL) How long have you been in recovery? Did you do it c/t or with help?
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Well, It has been nice chatting with you. I gotta hit the hay. got an early wake up call tomorrow. Talk to you later.
Hey Bryn and Rhonda:

I hope you don't mind me jumping in but I wanted to say s'thing to both of you.

Bryn: You seem so sweet and helpful to e'one - I can't see you ever being mean.

Rhonda Girl: I am so proud of you. I almost got caught up on Seroquel when I stopped the Xanax last year - Dr. gave me 50 mg to sleep. It was my middle son who said - but Mom, will 50 mg not be enough a month from now and you will take more? I flushed them and told Dr. I didn't need them.

Rhonda - I think I've told you - hope you won't feel bad about the nursing home - my f-in-law actually begged us to live with us - sad - but we couldn't do it - The 3 months he was there was horrible - our whole household changed and not for the good.

To you both - I thought I was the only woman who is now LOVING football!
I really love college ball - GO CLEMSON TIGERS!!!
they need all the help they can get.

Love you both,
Becky
becky_link2001@yahoo.com
Becky Jean, you come on over and jump in any old time ya like........Rhonda rocks and is absolutely one tough cookie wrapped in a sweet package...I'm wicked proud of her and her quest to find balance and some darn peace of mind.......plus she's a real live Cowboy's fan so she rates high.

Ummmmmmm, Becky Jean who the heck are the Clemson Tigers....LOL....now I'm gonna look them up........I don't know alot of college ball actually.........here we got Penn State........and then the Ivy League the Quakers..........about all I know....well GO CLEMSON TIGERS!

**O.K. I have an addiction to that show "Friday Night Lights".....I'll say no more.

Rhonda, that has to be so tough.........about your mom.........coming at a time in life now you're finding out these things........respectfully, no doubt it was tough on your mom too back then..........trying to make it seem she was so together..........and I bet she didn't even think she had a problem.

Ohhhhhhh, I have no doubts if you say she's taking alot of PP's.........as addicts we so know what alot is and what's not alot.......absolutely......and it has to be a burden on you as well having them right there in your house.

Rhonda, maybe in a way your mom did hang the moon, AND the stars and had the sun shine for ya...........in her own way..........how many of us truly are who others think we are........heck, even who we truly are? It has to hurt though and the pain I know is quite real even as adults..........therapy helps me with this stuff..........cause my own mom well she's something else.

In a nutshell I've been clean for three years and five months...had to count....I didn't do drugs as a young person............waited till I was an old head.......real smart move..........and it took a long time for me to finally get it.

Sort of I did it cold turkey in a way........it was years before I went to a rehab.....that was after endless kicks.........horrific stuff...........I swore I wouldn't be back to rehab...........but, alas there I was............walked out of that one......used again for some time..........and finally that was that.

Wound up I went to a detox...........a really nasty, nasty place.........next stop from that joint is prison............it's just a detox..........no meetings..........nothing..........you're only there cause they got the best methadone in decent supply.........stay a few days and wean and goodbye......and walked out with a pack of guys..........every single one of them went to get high right away.............and myself and one young kid just looked at eachother and said "No thanks"............and left for home.........and that was that...........so I think for me being in such a bad place was a really good thing.

Not wanting to go back there that's for sure..........so there's my story........and you're doing really, really well Rhonda.........you have alot going on........and the stress of mom's..........let alone ill.........and plus newfound knowledge of how things truly were..........you are holding it together, and how.......keep your chin up and stay chill...........cry if ya have to.........and move on.

Thanks for checking in, Rhonda, and Becky you too..........nice to have you ladies over here with us...........don't we have some fabulous, kind, considerate and funny people on this part of the board? They crack me the heck up.