Hey Chica,
Hope the baby girl is doing good........and hope you're taking care of yourself too.
You asked about the hiccups.............I used to have them all the time when I was using...........it's all connected obviously...........like the dreaded yawn and the sneezing too...........that means sickness is arriving and soon.
The phrenic nerve has to do with it I think..........your heart rate increases when ya hiccup.............it's all related to respiratory stuff..........how the heroin slows down your breathing.............that nerve goes into spasms.........somehow too the dopamine receptors are effected............the vagus nerve too is A-#1 related as in it's a cranial nerve...........they call it the wandering nerve.
That vagus thing travels all over the place and effects the stomach too........so of course our stomachs and colons are all screwed up from heroin..........the diaphragm spasms some as it's getting relaxed.
Lots of medical stuff............I think the hiccups come from the spasms like O.K. here comes some heavy duty relaxation..........spasm, spasm, spasm.
Good question though, Bunny..........I know in one rehab I was in we were all asking about the sneezing and even a mecial Doctor said we just don't know exactly what causes that............probably like an allergy thing of a type I guess......like where the heck is my dope..........this is foreign....no heroin.....sneeze, sneeze..........watery eyes............yawn!
Da*n I'm a bloomin scientist.........LOL.........that vagus nerve too with throwing up...........I used to love when my partner puked after copping........I'd let him do his first just to see how it was...............he threw up.........I was a happy camper.........like HOORAY the dope is good today.
Sad, right?
pmsl, how funny.
I thought it was connected but he swore blind that it wasnt. He just musnt of known it himself. I always thought it was connected. You kind of pick up on these things when you are around an addict all day every day...lol.
He gets the sneezes too...omg I have never seen someone sneeze like that....he says he gets a punched in the nose feeling too.
We had a big row this morning cos I asked him to leave, he was ok till the gear ran out and he was starting to withdraw then he got a bit nasty. I just ignored him. He said he was leaving 2am this morning...I left him...he did not go...then he said he was sleeping in the spare room.....he went for 5 minutes then returned to my bed. Full of appologies once again after he had scored. His problems was I didnt have any money for him and he was rattling.
Anyway nothing that I aint used to although the line is running very very thin. I am getting bored now. Rollercoaster almighty...lol.
But I am strong...I think...lol. Nah I will get through it and something will happen soon...whether I leave myself or he goes. Maybe some miracle might happen and he sorts himself out but I aint counting my chickens if ya know what I mean. If he does he does is my attitude. I used to ask myself why did I want this more than him....I dont now...I just want my life back and I will fight to get it back.
I have been back to the docs today too....he noticed I had a water infection unoticed when I was in hospital cos they couldnt wait to chuck me out...well its now yet another kidney infection due to neglect from the NHS. I thought it was a little painfull for just a water infection. I told the doctor at the hospital what I thought it was and he just give me some story that my sample would of already been tested. Never been...on tablets now and I am going back next week to discuss my mental health. I am raging just lately....feel like I wanna fight the world...lol. I got majour issues with my attitude. I know what is causing it but I guess it will help if I talk about it...I did with this doc before and he is great. Makes me feel so much better. I prefer talking to him that that stupid councilor they palmed me off with....lol.
Anyway gonna dry my hair and get myself an early night cos I aint having another rough night like I did last night.
Thanks for your reply. Hope your good.
Bye chick....Lynds xx
I thought it was connected but he swore blind that it wasnt. He just musnt of known it himself. I always thought it was connected. You kind of pick up on these things when you are around an addict all day every day...lol.
He gets the sneezes too...omg I have never seen someone sneeze like that....he says he gets a punched in the nose feeling too.
We had a big row this morning cos I asked him to leave, he was ok till the gear ran out and he was starting to withdraw then he got a bit nasty. I just ignored him. He said he was leaving 2am this morning...I left him...he did not go...then he said he was sleeping in the spare room.....he went for 5 minutes then returned to my bed. Full of appologies once again after he had scored. His problems was I didnt have any money for him and he was rattling.
Anyway nothing that I aint used to although the line is running very very thin. I am getting bored now. Rollercoaster almighty...lol.
But I am strong...I think...lol. Nah I will get through it and something will happen soon...whether I leave myself or he goes. Maybe some miracle might happen and he sorts himself out but I aint counting my chickens if ya know what I mean. If he does he does is my attitude. I used to ask myself why did I want this more than him....I dont now...I just want my life back and I will fight to get it back.
I have been back to the docs today too....he noticed I had a water infection unoticed when I was in hospital cos they couldnt wait to chuck me out...well its now yet another kidney infection due to neglect from the NHS. I thought it was a little painfull for just a water infection. I told the doctor at the hospital what I thought it was and he just give me some story that my sample would of already been tested. Never been...on tablets now and I am going back next week to discuss my mental health. I am raging just lately....feel like I wanna fight the world...lol. I got majour issues with my attitude. I know what is causing it but I guess it will help if I talk about it...I did with this doc before and he is great. Makes me feel so much better. I prefer talking to him that that stupid councilor they palmed me off with....lol.
Anyway gonna dry my hair and get myself an early night cos I aint having another rough night like I did last night.
Thanks for your reply. Hope your good.
Bye chick....Lynds xx
Thinking of ya Bunny. Hope you're ok hun! I think you're building up your strength and when the time comes when you've had enough...you'll be just fine. You and your little one will do great.
Maddy x x x
Maddy x x x
Thanks Maddy...I will get where I want to be eventually. It just takes time and strength. I have the time I just dont seem to have the strength to leave him with nothing. I know he has no one to blame but himself but I feel sorry for him slightly. I know that the least I can walk away with is my lovely home and my daughter so I am a winner there...he will have nothing. No one a nd literally nothing. He has worked hard to help build this home over the last month or 2 and a feel like I cant take that away from him just yet. He has walked away from his home to be with me and I dont think anyone deserves to be on the streets. I will hang on till he finds somewhere else. He would have to wait for the council because he doesnt have any family or friends around...infact his family dont even have anything to do with him anymore so he couldnt turn to them. He doesnt even have any decent friends where he can turn to. Once again I know this isnt my problem but I cant help but care.
Lynds xx
Lynds xx
