Hey everyone--man there sure is a feeling of comraderie these days its so great-I am wanting a update--how are ya doing--what are you doing and who are you doing it with haha--wish i was doing it LOL so sorry moderators--just messing around
I am ok--feeling tired broke and worried but thats ok--ill take that any day over strung the fu** out...am I right!
I have been having some craving lately which is odd-believe it or not it feels really weird to be thinking about using--im actually getting pics in my head, and i cannot say if it were in fron of me i wouldnt jump--luckily i am not around anyone anymore that is even closely associated with that tpe of thing--but yeah i know thats not good enough
I think im bored--for real!! i work and come home and im a mom--life is full, but i am craving excitement--i think i need to start painting and stuff again--that gets me excited!
I dont know just feeling very meloncolly about life.....maybe take a class...but i know me---chronic procrastinator--i am the ultimate putter--offer but anyway im ok--what about all of you--???? if you dont answer--ill call ya out :) in a nice way of course
Not too long ago I also wanted to get the ol' creative juices flowing again so I dusted off my old acoustic & started playing a bit again.
Then Diff(I think) mentioned something about painting so I went out & bought all kinds of tubes & brushes, paper , etc... but alas I wasn't as talented as I thought- or I just got impatient.
Just thought Id tell ya- - hobbies are the best- relieves stress, kills time, builds confidence
best,
jack
Then Diff(I think) mentioned something about painting so I went out & bought all kinds of tubes & brushes, paper , etc... but alas I wasn't as talented as I thought- or I just got impatient.
Just thought Id tell ya- - hobbies are the best- relieves stress, kills time, builds confidence
best,
jack
Alrite.....Amity...hope yer feelin a bit better over the life stuff.....its only natural to have a bit of emotion hard as it is.over it.
Still seems that you got love in yer head .....fairplay to ya!!!!!.
Also as you know ive had my fair share of the old cravings so il stand by you knowing what they are like and how easy it is for those devious thoughts to creep in.As Jack says a hobby is a good way of keeping the drug thoughts at bay.I aint really had one books,music are daily helps....join yer local library is always a cheap good one.
Anyhoe Amity take care of you&yer boy............Davey
Still seems that you got love in yer head .....fairplay to ya!!!!!.
Also as you know ive had my fair share of the old cravings so il stand by you knowing what they are like and how easy it is for those devious thoughts to creep in.As Jack says a hobby is a good way of keeping the drug thoughts at bay.I aint really had one books,music are daily helps....join yer local library is always a cheap good one.
Anyhoe Amity take care of you&yer boy............Davey
Hey Amity, I havent posted in a while, been trying to keep busy... I'm staying clean, still going to the clinic and groups and counseling, and I finally got a job, went to the lung dr's, my meds alone are a grand a month, so I have to make sure I get help for that, and hopefully I'll have an apt. and some furniture soon, and my own comp, whooohooo!
Amity, Amity,
Hey chica...........well I'm doing it...........with Eli Manning only he's busy right this second...............I'm on the next episode with "Dancing With The Stars", and I up and took pole dancing lessons............and am doing a little theater too.
Pffffffffffffttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt, girl I ain't got a creative bone in my body......what I am doing is caring for the elderly.............oh yeah it's real good for the soul and self confidence.................between my mom and a neighbor I help, and NOW my gentleman friends mom...........who I'd do anything for cause he sure helped me and mine.............that's what I am doing........I'm maid, errand runner, nurse, psychotherapist, house keeping and sounding board.
Lots of fun and keeping me young.............no, it ain't..........all it got me is wishing and a hoping I die a young and painless death cause this old people business s*cks............other than that yeah I'm chill.
You hang in there, babes...............please.........we all get them days, weeks and all..............you know how it goes............and TMI, but I'm doing it with myself if that helps...............LOL...............messing with ya.
Hey chica...........well I'm doing it...........with Eli Manning only he's busy right this second...............I'm on the next episode with "Dancing With The Stars", and I up and took pole dancing lessons............and am doing a little theater too.
Pffffffffffffttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt, girl I ain't got a creative bone in my body......what I am doing is caring for the elderly.............oh yeah it's real good for the soul and self confidence.................between my mom and a neighbor I help, and NOW my gentleman friends mom...........who I'd do anything for cause he sure helped me and mine.............that's what I am doing........I'm maid, errand runner, nurse, psychotherapist, house keeping and sounding board.
Lots of fun and keeping me young.............no, it ain't..........all it got me is wishing and a hoping I die a young and painless death cause this old people business s*cks............other than that yeah I'm chill.
You hang in there, babes...............please.........we all get them days, weeks and all..............you know how it goes............and TMI, but I'm doing it with myself if that helps...............LOL...............messing with ya.
ok--are we dancin around ourselves--what about you guys!!!! :) just playin--jack,davey,bryn--whats a girl to do wothout peeps like you!! good to see ya trooper--keep us posted--life is just so much easier without worryin about getting sick isn't it!! so happy for you keep it up girlie. Bryn--you are a blessing to all who encounter you--will you come take care of me and my family :) better get back to work--talk at ya laters
I'm not an addict, but I watched an addict throw his life away. You need to know that when you do drugs, your not just hurting yourself. You hurting the people who love you. Your putting them through the pain your running away from. You mentally f***ing them over. I know it starts off just being fun, and the lucky people are able to quit because they know it needs to end, but others don't. The ones who don't mess everything up. They lie and use people to get what they want, not caring about anyone in the process. The don't listen when people beg them to stop, they just give the answer "oh f*** off I can stop anytime I want." Face it, NO YOU CAN'T. You need to think about your little brother or sister, who watched you go out every night and slowly kill yourself. How they stood over your coffin and looked down at your ice cold body. How you left them with the most undescriable pain. How you killed them. Think of this message as a warning. Stop the drugs now. your hurting everyone around you. So just stop.
Hi HND,
I'm the ex of an alcoholic and believe me, I know what you mean. I might have to watch my two children watch their mother slide further into a sad and lonely place. I might have to watch them watch her kill herself slowly. Whetever happens, their lives are already coloured, their emotions shaped, their memories of their mother influenced by some of her choices - and by some of mine.
The people on this board inspire me. They are struggling with a terrible burden, fighting a chemical addiction, a psychological addiction, and often dealing with issues you and I wouldn't wish on our worst enemies. If you read their posts you will learn that many of them feel very guilty and ashamed. Yet the reality is that many of them were simply being the best human being they knew how to be.....not all of us come with an instruction manual or parents who didn't need one really badly....
By all means cheer them on. By all means be on their side. They want for themselves what you want for them, but a million times more than you want it for them.
I say this: there but for the Grace of God go I, and I don't know if I would have the strength of character, moral stature and shining human spirit that these good people show here day after day after day in trying to be the best they can be. I am in awe, and I am inspired by their courage and determination.
They are heroes. Cheer them on.
I don't know what you've been through or what you're going through, but your pain sounds very deep. I have lived in dread of the scene you describe but I no longer let that dread destroy my life. Please pop over to the message board for the families and partners of addicts. There's a lot of inspiring people there, too. Maybe we can help each other.
I'm the ex of an alcoholic and believe me, I know what you mean. I might have to watch my two children watch their mother slide further into a sad and lonely place. I might have to watch them watch her kill herself slowly. Whetever happens, their lives are already coloured, their emotions shaped, their memories of their mother influenced by some of her choices - and by some of mine.
The people on this board inspire me. They are struggling with a terrible burden, fighting a chemical addiction, a psychological addiction, and often dealing with issues you and I wouldn't wish on our worst enemies. If you read their posts you will learn that many of them feel very guilty and ashamed. Yet the reality is that many of them were simply being the best human being they knew how to be.....not all of us come with an instruction manual or parents who didn't need one really badly....
By all means cheer them on. By all means be on their side. They want for themselves what you want for them, but a million times more than you want it for them.
I say this: there but for the Grace of God go I, and I don't know if I would have the strength of character, moral stature and shining human spirit that these good people show here day after day after day in trying to be the best they can be. I am in awe, and I am inspired by their courage and determination.
They are heroes. Cheer them on.
I don't know what you've been through or what you're going through, but your pain sounds very deep. I have lived in dread of the scene you describe but I no longer let that dread destroy my life. Please pop over to the message board for the families and partners of addicts. There's a lot of inspiring people there, too. Maybe we can help each other.
Thank you Martin.
HND, please know I am also so very sorry for your pain.........I can't even begin to fathom what you have been through and never want to.
Most of us here on the board are in recovery and we have guilt.......some of us have loved ones who have died from drugs and are in deep pain about that as well...........we do know the dangers and heartache we have caused.
Nothing though hurts I am certain though like what you have ben through.
I'm so sorry.
HND, please know I am also so very sorry for your pain.........I can't even begin to fathom what you have been through and never want to.
Most of us here on the board are in recovery and we have guilt.......some of us have loved ones who have died from drugs and are in deep pain about that as well...........we do know the dangers and heartache we have caused.
Nothing though hurts I am certain though like what you have ben through.
I'm so sorry.
Thank You Martin
I am so sorry for your pain HND.
I am so sorry for your pain HND.
thank you for sharing and the warning--i know you meant it to help, I hope you keep coming back and get support this is a great place to learn about how to deal with the addict in your life in a healthy way. trust me --addiction was not a choice for me--some may disagree--yes i made the choicxe to use everday but the fact thatmy brain tells me to go ingest a substancewhen i feel certain ways is out of my control, so please take the time to learn what addiction is all about and that we are not evil people who wantt o hurt our families--we do get better--welcome
See, Amity excellent post and you have such a big heart, honey.
