Hi Aprill...
I didn't want you to get lost in Pine's thread...I'm not an expert on the benzo's but I did have a run with the xanax about 6yrs ago...I did the same thing as you at the time & flushed them but my husband found out & made me call the doctor to tell them what I had done and was told I really shouldn't have flushed them that I needed to taper off them so he went to the pharmacy, picked up a new script & doled them out according to a taper the doctor has advised (I tapered in 5 days, which after educating myself is incrediably fast taper)....you should contact a doctor about this as I've heard cold turkey can cause seizures...
The up-side is your still on day 4 from the opiates and day 5 will be much better..even though the benzo's are still in your system, I still believe your going to feel much better tomorrow...take it minute by minute if you need to...do not overwhelm yourself..All I did for the first 4 days off of opiates, was get up from bed in the morning (wasn't sleeping at all) and move to the couch for the day, watched "Lifetime" movies, and back to the bed at nighttime...hell, I didn't even change clothes for 4 days...so just take it slow, you will feel better even though at the time, I didn't think I'd ever feel better...it does get better, I promise....
Keep posting as it'll help you get better by talking about it...I'm here for you as I'm sure alot of others are too....
Take care of yourself.....
24Gordon
I have been taking xanax for years but the lowest ml. 30 pills would last me 6 months. as far as the valium I just started taking that the day I stopped the pain pills. The depression I was in before starting pain pills is returning and I am taking AD now but I dont want to go back to severe depression. Everything you just wrote is like me (lifetime channel) the days are going by so slow its driving me insane. I cry all the time. I am so scared I wont be able to do this.
I have been taking xanax for years but the lowest ml. 30 pills would last me 6 months. as far as the valium I just started taking that the day I stopped the pain pills. The depression I was in before starting pain pills is returning and I am taking AD now but I dont want to go back to severe depression. Everything you just wrote is like me (lifetime channel) the days are going by so slow its driving me insane. I cry all the time. I am so scared I wont be able to do this.
Aprill...
One thing I forgot..the greatest thing about recovery is you don't have to do it alone...we can do it together....I'll never forgot for as long as I live, one of the best days of my life was the day I went to my first AA meeting and the acceptance, forgiveness and love that I felt from a bunch of strangers touched me in away I had never experienced before....Aprill, I'm here for you...you're not alone...
Take care
One thing I forgot..the greatest thing about recovery is you don't have to do it alone...we can do it together....I'll never forgot for as long as I live, one of the best days of my life was the day I went to my first AA meeting and the acceptance, forgiveness and love that I felt from a bunch of strangers touched me in away I had never experienced before....Aprill, I'm here for you...you're not alone...
Take care
24Gordon... well put! Another thing i want to add that i have learned at my meetings is that we strive for progress... not perfection. We don't have to be perfect at this recovery thing. Like Gordon said, Aprill, you are not alone in this... don't ever think that. Love, Bri :)
Thank you, every time I get off line and start thinking about pills I get back on. With the help of people like you and finding out where AA is held by me, I can do this. I hope.
Honey...
I know what you feel...I've been there, watching the clock as seconds tick by...just hang on for the moment, I'll be right back (i'm at work)...
Baby steps...
I know what you feel...I've been there, watching the clock as seconds tick by...just hang on for the moment, I'll be right back (i'm at work)...
Baby steps...
I am now in tears because I know I have to get off line because my kids are coming home from school and I cant let them know I have this problem. I dont know if I cant make it thru the evening with out this site and talking to people who know what I am going thru. I will try to come on later if my kids go to friends or out in the snow. You have really helped me thru today and I hope it carrys me thru the evening. Baby steps, just keep thinking baby steps.
Oh Aprill! You know what? I totally forgot to tell you CONGRATS on 4 days without any pain pills... that really is a HUGE step. I am VERY PROUD of you for making this decision. Love, Bri :)
Aprill...
I understand about letting your children know but remember, you are getting better from a disease...it's not a bad thing to be an addict, it's just bad when we stay in active addiction...Remember, baby steps & come back and post when you can...
Hi Bri...
That sums me up perfectly, always progress never perfection..lol...
Take care
I understand about letting your children know but remember, you are getting better from a disease...it's not a bad thing to be an addict, it's just bad when we stay in active addiction...Remember, baby steps & come back and post when you can...
Hi Bri...
That sums me up perfectly, always progress never perfection..lol...
Take care
