Good Afternoon everyone, hope everyone is doing ok today. Ive got 5 days to go until i start my sub detox. Ive been reading up about it on the site as i dont know much about it. It is a 10 day course, one tablet a day in which i have to go to the hospital to get it daily. I tried for the first time detoxing porperly back in april with lofexidine it was a nightmare the whole thing i stayed clean for 14 days and its nothing when i read people on here are been clean for months and years, i totally respect you's all. I know whats infront of me this time and im terrified cause there no turning back for me im totally desparate to be clean. I was reading lou message and she was saying she back from spain and she is struggling thinking about heroin. Thats what im terrified off the last time when i was detoxing when it was 5 days into it and the poision is out your body the cravings i had was horrific. I couldn't stop thinking about it, if i only had a wee bit to make me feel a bit normal or i thought if i could only get a few hours sleep i would find it easier to cope with, but boy how wrong was i. I got one good piece of advice from the support on this site and it was one bag is too much and thousands are never enough, how spot on was that piece of advice. Does it get easier the longer you are off it, to stop feeling and thinking about it all the time? Can anyone help with any suggestions in what to do staying away from it. I feel so strong that i will never go back the way the past 7 years feels like 70 years i have been in this hell hole. Im still really embarrased using this site when im still using the minimum of heroin to get me through to wednesday as i know actions speak louder than words but honestly i wouldn't waste all your time ive i wasn't serious and going to put 100% into this. im so scared doing this again but im staying with my mum just now and she is brilliant im so lucky to have her, she would do anything to help me, she is amazing ive dragged her through this hell hole with me and she deserves so much better from me. I cry it breaks my heart when i think of how lucky i am to have her, if i had one wish i would wish that my mum can be proud of me again. Thanks for taking the time to listen to me.
Hi, I have no experience with subs I used methadone at 1st. I'm now 8 months off methadone 15 months off Heroin. Just wanted to say stay STRONG! it's very hard to stay clean. I still crave not as badly or as frequent. It is a life long commitment some days will be better then others it's worth it all. For ME the biggest change was just cutting off old drug ties & old friends. I don't know how anyone could stay clean if they keep the same lifestyle going. You do have to in the end let a lot go, for me that even ment a few family members. I have yet to go to a meeting. I do know people who go to meetings find them very helpful i suggest you get a real support group. Othen then that it really is ONE DAY AT A TIME. I have not yet said "i'll never use again" cause i don't know...I do know every day i did not has not has now added up to over a YEAR.
Yvonne...Z.girl,is spot on...you take gear..become an addict..in yer own case 7yr of addiction&hell.No once yer clean its not bleedin easy you have to change yer whole lifstyle...people,places the lot..if you really have a chance of a H free life.Did you opt for the 10day detox or was it the only one on offer..coz ya gotta think of what happens after that 10days..have you got plans for meetings or a counseller after..cos they help bigtime.Anyway Yvonne glad yer back in yer mums&hope things smooth out on the sub detox ...all the best ...Davey
