I find it is really helping me when I can hear about your stories. a few of you have shared them with me. I realize it is different for everyone, but I am interested in hearing about the stages you went through and when you hit milestones. I know this is just another way to try to get a timeline on these symptoms, but it is helping me understand what my body is going through and giving me something to look forward to and making me realize that I really will feel better then I do today at day `16. I have tried to stay really busy and get my mind off of this but I still have no energy and this overall doomed feeling. Please if anyone has time. L
IIh, did I already tell u mine?
sp I think I kinda know your story. about your brother and all. You said you hadn't reallly ever gone ct. just recently realized you had a problem to. and now you are on sub. did i get it right?
lol. yep. :)
llh
I am a 37 year old mommy of three wonderful children. I have rheumatoid arthrits and was given vicoprofen for the pain. It all started out really simple, one pill a day to take the edge off and give me that energy boost. Wasn't to long and I was up to 20+ a day, and completely out of control. I finally said enough in May of 2005, quit and never looked back. It was one of the hardest things I ever did, but its been one of the most rewarding too. I have met so many wonderful people on this board, and for that I am thankful.
Michelle
I am a 37 year old mommy of three wonderful children. I have rheumatoid arthrits and was given vicoprofen for the pain. It all started out really simple, one pill a day to take the edge off and give me that energy boost. Wasn't to long and I was up to 20+ a day, and completely out of control. I finally said enough in May of 2005, quit and never looked back. It was one of the hardest things I ever did, but its been one of the most rewarding too. I have met so many wonderful people on this board, and for that I am thankful.
Michelle
Michelle...if I haven't told you lately!! You are my hero:)
awww thank you Kee Kee! Anyone who fights thier addiction is a hero in my book, so that makes you one too!
Michelle
Michelle
L
Wow day 16 great job I am so proud of you and can't wait to get there. I am on day 9 and I have good and bad moments. I actually have my energy back so that is a good thing (especially since I had about 7 loads of laudrey to do today) I am not sure if I told you my story I think I did nothing bad ever happened to me I just had a really bad sciatcia problem but eventually got it under control but of course I still took the pills and have been milking that injury for close to 20 years!!! Can you believe that? I actually went to almost three months of chirpractor visits at 20 bucks a pop just so I could continue to get my pills. Funny thing is it never even hurt and the chiropractor is like Oh yea your back is bad it has alot of spasms Yea right!!! Anyway I continued the drugs for many years and added to my repetoire I found somas which I forund worked well with my lortabs and 222's. However, this past summer I started drinking heavy just to go outside and be the fun mom since everyone hangs out at our house. I was drinking vodka right from the bottle, everyone always thought it was wierd when I got tipsy since they never seen me with a drink. I usuallly never got drunk just had a few to get going I knew I was in trouble I tried to quit but relapsed and am back. I am hopin this time works. talk to ya soon
Roxy
Wow day 16 great job I am so proud of you and can't wait to get there. I am on day 9 and I have good and bad moments. I actually have my energy back so that is a good thing (especially since I had about 7 loads of laudrey to do today) I am not sure if I told you my story I think I did nothing bad ever happened to me I just had a really bad sciatcia problem but eventually got it under control but of course I still took the pills and have been milking that injury for close to 20 years!!! Can you believe that? I actually went to almost three months of chirpractor visits at 20 bucks a pop just so I could continue to get my pills. Funny thing is it never even hurt and the chiropractor is like Oh yea your back is bad it has alot of spasms Yea right!!! Anyway I continued the drugs for many years and added to my repetoire I found somas which I forund worked well with my lortabs and 222's. However, this past summer I started drinking heavy just to go outside and be the fun mom since everyone hangs out at our house. I was drinking vodka right from the bottle, everyone always thought it was wierd when I got tipsy since they never seen me with a drink. I usuallly never got drunk just had a few to get going I knew I was in trouble I tried to quit but relapsed and am back. I am hopin this time works. talk to ya soon
Roxy
So roxy did you stop c/t? Are you on sub? My legs still feel like lead, I have no energy back yet at all. I am discouraged with my self. I tried to do my regular routine today and I had to force myself. I still have no desire to do anything not even eat. I haven't had one craving for a pill either, is that weird? Its like I am dead inside.
also Roxy are you doing the adrenal support? if you are can you send me the ingredients of the one that you got? Will you tell me everything that you are taking?
L
Yes I did stop cold turkey all three times I have quit I hope this is the last time oops I mean this is the last time. Wds were not super bad, in fact it was the after stuff that got to me the depression, moodiness nothing to look forward to etc. When I started the supplements I really found I was feeling better. I also am severly anemic so I have to take extra iron. Have you ever been tested for that. I can actually tell when my iron is low because all of a sudden I am exhausted. Yes I don't feel very motivated to do anything. It helps that when it comes to my house I am a bit anal so I have to stay on it no matter how I feel. Plus I find when it is cluttered I feel depressed. You know though I would talk to my doctor I know he said no to the adrenal support but tell him how you are feeling maybe he can prescribe an antidepressant. I am going to try it this way for a while if I don't start feeling better I may talk to my doctor, but I want to give it at least a month. From what I hear it only gets better so hang in there. Sorry I write and run sometimes but when the baby hears the keys tapping he comes running so I often only get short spurts on the computer. Hang in there hon
Roxy
Yes I did stop cold turkey all three times I have quit I hope this is the last time oops I mean this is the last time. Wds were not super bad, in fact it was the after stuff that got to me the depression, moodiness nothing to look forward to etc. When I started the supplements I really found I was feeling better. I also am severly anemic so I have to take extra iron. Have you ever been tested for that. I can actually tell when my iron is low because all of a sudden I am exhausted. Yes I don't feel very motivated to do anything. It helps that when it comes to my house I am a bit anal so I have to stay on it no matter how I feel. Plus I find when it is cluttered I feel depressed. You know though I would talk to my doctor I know he said no to the adrenal support but tell him how you are feeling maybe he can prescribe an antidepressant. I am going to try it this way for a while if I don't start feeling better I may talk to my doctor, but I want to give it at least a month. From what I hear it only gets better so hang in there. Sorry I write and run sometimes but when the baby hears the keys tapping he comes running so I often only get short spurts on the computer. Hang in there hon
Roxy
IIh,
Did you try making that list? Of things that you like to do or things that make you feel good?
That has really helped me when I'm paralyzed.... Because then you don't have to sit and think about all the things you wish you could be doing or felt better doing and have to choose between all of this stuff in your head. It's all out on a piece of paper and then you can just pick one.
I don't know... it's helped me. Sometimes even just the distraction of making the list helps.
Try not to get too discouraged... you're really doing great, it's just going to take awhile...
Did you try making that list? Of things that you like to do or things that make you feel good?
That has really helped me when I'm paralyzed.... Because then you don't have to sit and think about all the things you wish you could be doing or felt better doing and have to choose between all of this stuff in your head. It's all out on a piece of paper and then you can just pick one.
I don't know... it's helped me. Sometimes even just the distraction of making the list helps.
Try not to get too discouraged... you're really doing great, it's just going to take awhile...
llh and roxy! you are both awesome!!!! omg...hang in there! I remember day 16, and how I "should" be feeling normal by then. Well, hardly, but you are right on normals butt now, lol!! The digestive thing gave me a hard time, (start takin the fiber) and I sweat (and stunk) at night terribly! I just remember not wanting to have to do those clean times again!!! I knew it would only happen again. I was taking 21 or more hydrocodone a day (15/325's) and days I couldn't get them I had methadone.I got to where I preferred the methadone, and took 6 to 8 a day. 2 at a time, thought I'd found the perfect buzz. I wish I'd read more before that hell began. They were extremely difficult to get off of. I did the ct thing, it was horrible. I am into my 3rd month clean time now, and sooooo happy. It does take forever or so it seems, but I get a little energy back more everyday. I know it is not fake energy anymore, and thats what keeps me pumped. Keep up the good work!! Benadril helped me a little, when I got tired of flip floppin in bed all night. ...Brendidi
Brendid thanks so much only on day 9 but hanging in there and yea the sweats are the worst I still have those.
As for the ingredients in the adrenal support here goes
whole raw tissue concentrated from bovine sources specificlly processed to preserve all natural occuring vitamins enzymesetc.. also magnesium sterate and maltodextrine
I also take coenzyme Q10 B100 zinc picolinate Same 400 and Gaba at night
I actually got this list off this website the last time I tried to quit Same and Gaba are great for mood so you may want to try those. Ok well I must be getting upstairs duty calls hee hee
Talk to ya soon
Roxy
As for the ingredients in the adrenal support here goes
whole raw tissue concentrated from bovine sources specificlly processed to preserve all natural occuring vitamins enzymesetc.. also magnesium sterate and maltodextrine
I also take coenzyme Q10 B100 zinc picolinate Same 400 and Gaba at night
I actually got this list off this website the last time I tried to quit Same and Gaba are great for mood so you may want to try those. Ok well I must be getting upstairs duty calls hee hee
Talk to ya soon
Roxy
brendidi, thanks for the pep talk. It helps to know it will get better. You inspire me to go on.
Sp, I tried every thing you suggested today and I will try again tomorrow. I am not giving up. I will do anything to feel better.
llh,
In order to find out more about a person, you can follow their posts from the time they first got on the board by going to SEARCH near the bottom and putting in their name there and hitting go. It will bring up all their past "threads" posted. It's a great way to get to know a person's history without them having to restate it. Best of luck, honey.
My own daughter is Only4mypets and used to post about a year ago. She asked me to come on board with her when she attempted to get off pills she took for strong pain, but in the end she was unable to do so because of the pain issues. She's been throuogh just about everything in her attempts, but the back pain is unbearable without help. She's presently on fentenyl patches and a TENS unit. Had to quit her job as manager of a large pet supply company & go back to being lead cashier because she couldn't do all the hours required on her feet. She's bummed at how much pain and depression dog her all her life and she's still in her 30's. I stay around because I love the compassion I've found here. These are my kind of people and I enjoy talking with them. I'm also here to learn about any new attempts to address pain issues.
In order to find out more about a person, you can follow their posts from the time they first got on the board by going to SEARCH near the bottom and putting in their name there and hitting go. It will bring up all their past "threads" posted. It's a great way to get to know a person's history without them having to restate it. Best of luck, honey.
My own daughter is Only4mypets and used to post about a year ago. She asked me to come on board with her when she attempted to get off pills she took for strong pain, but in the end she was unable to do so because of the pain issues. She's been throuogh just about everything in her attempts, but the back pain is unbearable without help. She's presently on fentenyl patches and a TENS unit. Had to quit her job as manager of a large pet supply company & go back to being lead cashier because she couldn't do all the hours required on her feet. She's bummed at how much pain and depression dog her all her life and she's still in her 30's. I stay around because I love the compassion I've found here. These are my kind of people and I enjoy talking with them. I'm also here to learn about any new attempts to address pain issues.
