So i am trying to change how i think about my life and how i always jump to my oh so trusty little friends the pills. To go through a day with out taking a few before the park or whatever is just so foreign to me. Will i still enjoy things like i do now. It consumes my thinking when i am running low. The how will i get them and how can i make them last goes on and on. SO that part will of course be much more pleasant and peaceful to never be worried. But in the meantime i am struggling to come up with a new plan. help please!!
Backtome, you are obviously addicted to your medication. Was it prescribed to you for legitimate reasons? Now you find your tolerance has gone through the roof. I would say if you are obsessing about them like you speak about and you can't perform the simplest tasks without. Well, you have a problem.
You are the only one that can change your thinking and behaviours. For me attending AA/NA meetings and finding a good addiction specialist was key. The first thing you have to do is stop putting the pills in your mouth. You are going to go through withdrawal...but hey...you bought the ticket and now you have to take the ride.
Not sure what your story is but I can tell you this....it definitely does not get better. It gets worse...you have no where to go but down. Sorry but that is the truth. Until you decide that your done you will continue to get what your getting and from the sounds of things thats not much.
So what are you taking and how much and for how long? I will always suggest cold turkey as the first choice on how to be free. Its not pleasant but you will survive. After that you need f2f support. You need help. You need to ask for it and be clear about what you want and then the miracles will start to happen.
Its in your hands...what do you want to do?
You are the only one that can change your thinking and behaviours. For me attending AA/NA meetings and finding a good addiction specialist was key. The first thing you have to do is stop putting the pills in your mouth. You are going to go through withdrawal...but hey...you bought the ticket and now you have to take the ride.
Not sure what your story is but I can tell you this....it definitely does not get better. It gets worse...you have no where to go but down. Sorry but that is the truth. Until you decide that your done you will continue to get what your getting and from the sounds of things thats not much.
So what are you taking and how much and for how long? I will always suggest cold turkey as the first choice on how to be free. Its not pleasant but you will survive. After that you need f2f support. You need help. You need to ask for it and be clear about what you want and then the miracles will start to happen.
Its in your hands...what do you want to do?
Welcome Back2me!
I hope you take the time to read my post titled "For the Newbies".
I would highly suggest you read read read the forum, go back... there is so much that will help you and lots you can learn. There is a search option at the bottom of the page. Just type in a word you want to know more about, or a member here ... and it'll list every thread associated...
Stick around. We've all been there and a ton of us are anxious to help and give back.
Love
Stacey
I hope you take the time to read my post titled "For the Newbies".
I would highly suggest you read read read the forum, go back... there is so much that will help you and lots you can learn. There is a search option at the bottom of the page. Just type in a word you want to know more about, or a member here ... and it'll list every thread associated...
Stick around. We've all been there and a ton of us are anxious to help and give back.
Love
Stacey
hi and thanks to both of you. Kee kee i posted my short story under help please i need reassurance. Oh i know good and well i have a problem and have had one for quite a while but am just now wanting to change. I will go and read some more posts right now to gain some knowledge and read about everyones experiences.
back2me
i also was a hopeless vicodin addict and i failed at every attempt to get clean, i would highly recommend that you try suboxone SHORT TERM to undo the habit of popping pills, i had not one bit of w/d when i went off a 5 year vicodin episode.google it, it is a great tool, i am now starting to taper off and i can offer no advice to that yet, but will let everyone know how it went, dont feel hopeless, there is still a light at the end of the tunnel, jewels
i also was a hopeless vicodin addict and i failed at every attempt to get clean, i would highly recommend that you try suboxone SHORT TERM to undo the habit of popping pills, i had not one bit of w/d when i went off a 5 year vicodin episode.google it, it is a great tool, i am now starting to taper off and i can offer no advice to that yet, but will let everyone know how it went, dont feel hopeless, there is still a light at the end of the tunnel, jewels
Hey back2me:
I'm still on opiates but, I don't know about going cold turkey. Personally, I'd try to wean down, but if you're like me that won't be easy. I actually hade to give them to my friend to dole out to me once when I was trying to get off. Day 3 without is when I start freaking out. I start obsessing about them, I literally dream about them. I start plotting on how to get them. It consumes me. Recently I went 8 days without them. Thats the longest I've been without them since April of last year. The pain was manageable, then I had my appt with the pain management doc and it's off to the races again. Although, I don't take them like I used to. I used to take 20-30 10mg lortab a day. Now, I'm allowed to take 8 a day and I take anywdhere from 2 to 12. My withdrawals aren't bad at all physically, it's mentally bad. Most people do have bad physical withdrawal ( I have no idea why I don't) a friend of mine takes anywhere from 1-3 a day, when she runs out it ain't pretty. She goes thru hell, but she doesn't have the mental thing like I do. It's thinking of her when I said don't cold turkey it. But some of these other people know what worked for them and they are off of them so I'm not so sure you should listen to me. Talk to lots of people, get all the info you can and then decide what's best for you. KeeKee's been there and I'm always impressed by what she says. She seems very strong in her recovery and always has a positve message. Bullwinkle too, and Gina, and Sharon. I always like to read anything they have. And there is many, many others that I just can't thinkk of off the top of my head. I've said it before and I'll say it again, this is an amazing forum, I'm so grateful I came across it.
Best of luck!!!
I'm still on opiates but, I don't know about going cold turkey. Personally, I'd try to wean down, but if you're like me that won't be easy. I actually hade to give them to my friend to dole out to me once when I was trying to get off. Day 3 without is when I start freaking out. I start obsessing about them, I literally dream about them. I start plotting on how to get them. It consumes me. Recently I went 8 days without them. Thats the longest I've been without them since April of last year. The pain was manageable, then I had my appt with the pain management doc and it's off to the races again. Although, I don't take them like I used to. I used to take 20-30 10mg lortab a day. Now, I'm allowed to take 8 a day and I take anywdhere from 2 to 12. My withdrawals aren't bad at all physically, it's mentally bad. Most people do have bad physical withdrawal ( I have no idea why I don't) a friend of mine takes anywhere from 1-3 a day, when she runs out it ain't pretty. She goes thru hell, but she doesn't have the mental thing like I do. It's thinking of her when I said don't cold turkey it. But some of these other people know what worked for them and they are off of them so I'm not so sure you should listen to me. Talk to lots of people, get all the info you can and then decide what's best for you. KeeKee's been there and I'm always impressed by what she says. She seems very strong in her recovery and always has a positve message. Bullwinkle too, and Gina, and Sharon. I always like to read anything they have. And there is many, many others that I just can't thinkk of off the top of my head. I've said it before and I'll say it again, this is an amazing forum, I'm so grateful I came across it.
Best of luck!!!
