Just checked in over on the C & C site. Thought I'd say hello over here too.
How everyone is doing tonight? Hope this message finds everyone clean and sober and also filled with gratitude, peace and serenity. For those who are struggling, know that there is a solution!
Hi WVGirl,
How are things?
I did not make it AA on Sunday, as promised. I felt to rough after a heavy binge on Saturday night. It was the same old cr*p, right I am giving up tomorrow so tonight I have to drink as much as I possibley can. And so I felt like a bag of pooh all day.
My BF was out all day, and usually that is prime drinking time, but I did not not drink! I even went to the shop to buy a sunday paper. I just about had enough cash on me for that, I deliberately left my cards behind, as I knew i would of brought booze on my card. But I walked home quite pleased that I had fought the urge and only come away with a paper. Of course he moaned that I had not picked up milk, which would of meant using my card and then wine would of been brought...... I tried to explain that I had spent the whole day focusing on staying sober, but he just did not get it! Unless you are an alcoholic, normal drinkers have no idea how all consuming this is.
So I actually managed 4 days sober, and the rest have been 'better'.
Thanks for caring, I am hanging in there
xx
How are things?
I did not make it AA on Sunday, as promised. I felt to rough after a heavy binge on Saturday night. It was the same old cr*p, right I am giving up tomorrow so tonight I have to drink as much as I possibley can. And so I felt like a bag of pooh all day.
My BF was out all day, and usually that is prime drinking time, but I did not not drink! I even went to the shop to buy a sunday paper. I just about had enough cash on me for that, I deliberately left my cards behind, as I knew i would of brought booze on my card. But I walked home quite pleased that I had fought the urge and only come away with a paper. Of course he moaned that I had not picked up milk, which would of meant using my card and then wine would of been brought...... I tried to explain that I had spent the whole day focusing on staying sober, but he just did not get it! Unless you are an alcoholic, normal drinkers have no idea how all consuming this is.
So I actually managed 4 days sober, and the rest have been 'better'.
Thanks for caring, I am hanging in there
xx
Good job November on putting together 4 days, that's a big deal, just pick yourself up and dust yourself off and start over. Try to get to a meeting, if you are like me you will not believe the hope that you can find in those rooms. I am going thru something right now that has me so close to picking up and using and drinking, so I am staying at my sister's house and posting under her name of "Rachel", as you know I post under VW Girl. My ex-husband has been garnishing my wages plus taking child support checks from me to the tune of over $1000 a month. I am so clueless, never look at my paystubs, this has been going on for quite some time and here I sit on the weekend, unable to take action on this (ie, get with my Attorney)...I feel violated, stupid and I'm just sitting in fear, panic and anxiety...over this whole thing...thinking only the worst will happen, I won't get my $$ back...he'll scam his way out of this one~he'll try to rationalize how he believes he was due over and above what the court ordered back in 2003...but I am working a Program and doing the right things...so everyone I've talked to said it will turn out okay...I just wish I could let go and let God, but just can't seem to get there right now. I'm actually smoking cigarettes, and I don't even smoke...I can't sleep or eat.....here we go....
Hang in there, your sobriety has to be key. If you use then he has really won. Just take it minute by minute. You are doing the right thing by staying with your sister. Don't let the b*st*rd get you down.
I try not to get wound up over money, easy come easy go, and you cant take it with you. But Speak to your attorney on Monday and get him taken to the cleaners. But please, please dont wind yourself up about it over the weekend. He is not worth a second thought.
You have to stay sober, you are my inspiration!!!
I read the first chapter of the self help book 'a road less traveled' it kind of summed up life really. Life is tough, life is sent to try us, and we have to just deal with it. I pretty much live by that. It will throw you a few rough deals, but take a deep breath and meet them head on. You will be a better person for it.
I am sending you huge hugs and you are in my thoughts, be strong, thinking of you
xx
I try not to get wound up over money, easy come easy go, and you cant take it with you. But Speak to your attorney on Monday and get him taken to the cleaners. But please, please dont wind yourself up about it over the weekend. He is not worth a second thought.
You have to stay sober, you are my inspiration!!!
I read the first chapter of the self help book 'a road less traveled' it kind of summed up life really. Life is tough, life is sent to try us, and we have to just deal with it. I pretty much live by that. It will throw you a few rough deals, but take a deep breath and meet them head on. You will be a better person for it.
I am sending you huge hugs and you are in my thoughts, be strong, thinking of you
xx
Bizzarely my real name is Rachel.......
