So I'm watching Cops "the t.v show" the other day. These two guys get caught with wax baggies. They also have needles on em. They are arrested and all. The cop ask the one guy have you ever tried to stop...he say's yea, I was clean FOR THREE years!. I could tell he looked to fresh to have been back long. The cop ask how long you been back ..he say's a month. That scared me deeply. I have my ONE year in. Seeing that made me relise i'm far from done with my recovery. I've heard the stories of being clean for years and going back, but seeing it made it seem more real to me. Seeing needles still puts a lump in my chest.
..Zerogirl..
..Thats the thing about addiction..no matter how long an addict has been clean..we never know wots round the corner..i have mates who have had different amounts of clean time and they relapsed at sum point..one of them had almost 7 yrs clean and relapsed and is in active addiction still..i don,t think we could never say never about not using again cos thats not how addiction is..anything or anyone could trigger an addict into using again..no matter how long they,ve been clean..all we can do is believe in our own strength and desires
and fight it on a daily basis..personally i would never say never..of course i don,t wanna use ever again..but none of us know wot the future holds for us..we just have to go thru the motions of staying clean and trying to get thru our days the best way we can..good luck.Robbie..
..Thats the thing about addiction..no matter how long an addict has been clean..we never know wots round the corner..i have mates who have had different amounts of clean time and they relapsed at sum point..one of them had almost 7 yrs clean and relapsed and is in active addiction still..i don,t think we could never say never about not using again cos thats not how addiction is..anything or anyone could trigger an addict into using again..no matter how long they,ve been clean..all we can do is believe in our own strength and desires
and fight it on a daily basis..personally i would never say never..of course i don,t wanna use ever again..but none of us know wot the future holds for us..we just have to go thru the motions of staying clean and trying to get thru our days the best way we can..good luck.Robbie..
I relapses after 3 years clean. Like that I never thought I would take smack again. I couldn't believe how quickly I fell back into that lifestyle, was using daily within 2 weeks.
Rehab seems to get worse with ever relapse.
Addicts can never become complacent.
Rehab seems to get worse with ever relapse.
Addicts can never become complacent.
Addicts can never become complacent.
my mother just said the same thing to me, I become complacent easily,
my mother just said the same thing to me, I become complacent easily,
I think i often get to comfortable in my head with the ideal i'll never use again. Then other times i'm plotting on where, when to get it. It's always there, I do still want it "deep down". I just did not think it would last this long. I won't tell my mom i'll never use again, she's ask me to tell her that. Recently i've thought once this baby, i'm pregnant with is born i'll do a lil. That's so stupid, once the baby is here i'll have nearly 2 years in!. I'm going to be a mother of Three they deserve me to be clean. I did tell my mom today I thought I still needed more treatment. I have not been on methadone since December and have went to any meeting. I know I don't wanna go back to the way things were.
Hi there i was clean from 1999 til 2005 and now i am back at the begining 6 years later the saying is true once a addict always a addict that one last go or that little treat isnt worth it cause the one last time leads to another wont hurt and then a just once more and then before you know it you are bqck to where it started dont mean to put a downer on it all but that is just the way it happens and well done on a year clean you must be very proud of yourself and if i were you i would be to take care
thanks for this post...i think I too have become complacent at 2 yrs clean here......with working the night shift, havent made a meeting in ages. Swear I will never use again, don't miss it one bit, but after reading this post, makes me nervous.....think i will go to a meeting tonight
Sue... as you say. Once an addict, always an addict. It has so much truth in it, but I suppose there are different stages. Recovery is foever, I suppose. And each day, then week, then month and eventually year will be a stepping stone, that each individual deserves to acheieve.
A good peice of advice I heard was: "Every now and again someone falls off the wagon, but you have to be on the wagon to be able to fall off."
For those of you from the UK, did you see the Channel 4 'Going Cold Turkey' week (or something to a similar effect)? It was 3 individuals with 3 different dependencies. One was an injector, one a smoker, and one a methadone addict. It was incredible.
There were interviews with addicts ranging from 2 years addicted to 27 years addicted. There were success stories and tragedies, and they actually showed someone shooting up, in the house they lived in. He explained he had been clean, but couldn't handle it. To see the loss of anxiety and euphoria on his face was terrifying.
... and it made me understand that little bit more.
For you to come out the other side, even for a while and keep trying is amazing, and I will never understand how hard it is, I can only see from my partner's pain, but you will know you have overcome one of the hardest things to do in your life. Overcome an addiction. An addiction is involentary.
Pup x
A good peice of advice I heard was: "Every now and again someone falls off the wagon, but you have to be on the wagon to be able to fall off."
For those of you from the UK, did you see the Channel 4 'Going Cold Turkey' week (or something to a similar effect)? It was 3 individuals with 3 different dependencies. One was an injector, one a smoker, and one a methadone addict. It was incredible.
There were interviews with addicts ranging from 2 years addicted to 27 years addicted. There were success stories and tragedies, and they actually showed someone shooting up, in the house they lived in. He explained he had been clean, but couldn't handle it. To see the loss of anxiety and euphoria on his face was terrifying.
... and it made me understand that little bit more.
For you to come out the other side, even for a while and keep trying is amazing, and I will never understand how hard it is, I can only see from my partner's pain, but you will know you have overcome one of the hardest things to do in your life. Overcome an addiction. An addiction is involentary.
Pup x
Know what you mean, ZeeGee about seeing syringes...they are available here fairly easily & folks geeze up in alleys& byways & throw them on the ground for children & animals to find...It is disgusting & it makes me angry to see it. At least put it in a bin, for cryin' out loud.Or better yet,do it @ home.Don't leave yr. trash around.
