Oh man am I craving so bad. I have noticed when confronted with a problem, the first thing I think of is how easy it would be to cope with a pill. Today I start Day 4 of withdrawals/recovery. Although I don't feel like calling a doctor for a script, I still wish I had one. I'm trying so hard to hang on. When, oh when will the day come when I don't think about getting a stupid pill to cope with what life throws me? I promise I will not get a pill for today. I am going to take a bath and pray. I shall be back. Thanks for letting me vent yet again! :)
one day at a time, one day at a time, one day at a time.........
Dear MM try to hold on your doing so well kicking this demons butt.I know you feel like sh-- right now and wish I could help make it easier.The hot baths are GREAT aren't they????what else are you doing to help?????mj ps keep venting as much as you need I don't think any of us doesn't understand that fustration your feeling....
The only other thing I am doing is taking Benadryl to help with anxiety and insomnia. After my little bout of craving, I feel better. It's like I want to get some more but yet I also don't want to be bothered by it anymore. It's really weird. I think the addiction part is saying "come on, I need it" and I'm saying "I'm sick of doing this so I'm staying clean". I mean how can I ever get better if I don't quit? I can't. I know I have to stop eventually so it might as well be now. I guess what is getting to me is everytime something comes up, I automatically think if I had a pill, I could deal with this. I think I'm pretty much done with withdrawals, now comes the hard part of staying clean.
Im gonna sign off but wanted to say that the mental part I think will be our hardest challenge.I 2 am so use to usen it will take a long time to get in the habit of not having a habit.I gotta go for now but PLEASE keep posting and if you need to vent or whatever I'm OK with that and I will understand and not take it personal ok?Take Care.....mj
