OH GOD, TODAY IS BAD, TRULY WORST THEN YESTERDAY. MY SCALP FEELS LIKE IT HAS BUGS CRAWLING ALL OVER IT. I HAVE BECOME A GIANT TWITCHING MACHINE. I CANNOT BELIEVE HOW BAD I FEEL . HAVE HAD ROOT CANALS WAY MORE PLEASANT THEN THIS.
I HAVE BEEN GETTING SO MANY WONDERFUL REPLIES REGARDING HOW LONG THESE SYMPTOMS WOULD LAST. I NEVER SLEPT LAST NIGHT. I AM SO RESTLESS. I DON'T WANT TO LEAVE THE HOUSE EVEN THOUGH I NEED SOME MOTRIN. I AM AFRAID TO DRIVE BECAUSE MY VISION IS BLURRED AND MY JUDGEMENT IS VERY CLOUDED.
I WANT THIS TO END. TODAY IS DAY 2. I HAVE NO APPETITE AND EVEN IF I DID, I AM TOO TIRED TO TRY TO MAKE SOMETHING TO EAT. I AM DRINKING LOTS OF WATER TO FLUSH THESE NASTY TOXINS. I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO. WHEN I GET MY REFILL DO I KEEP IT AND TRY NOT TO USE IT??
I WANT IT SO BADLY. I AM SO WIRED YET SO TIRED TODAY. MY STOMACH HASN'T BEEN TOO UPSET, PROBABLY CAUSE ITS EMPTY. I AM JUST DRINKING AND DRINKING WATER. I FEEL SO FUNKY. I JUST AM SO ON EDGE AND THE ONLY THING KEEPING ME FOCUSED IS POSTING AWAY IN THIS WEBSITE.
I AM A FULL BLOWN ADDICT AND AM ASHAMED THAT IT HAS COME THIS FAR.
Sweetheart...ask yourself, would you ever want to go through this again? If you take the pills again, you will eventually have to go through this again. You will run out. You've got 2 days. That's 2 days longer than a week ago. When that script comes, flush em. I know you won't but I had to say it. How bad do you want this? Find an NA meeting in your area and GO. Do you have a close friend that you can confide in? Someone to help you through the next couple of weeks. Someone who can help you be strong and throw the pills away.
On a different note...I for one would be so scared of what I was getting from online pharmacies. You have no idea what ingredients are in those pills. Could be rat poision for all you know.
Keep asking yourself these questions.....you're worth it. You deserve a clean life, but you won't get it here on this board without in person help.
Cowgirl
On a different note...I for one would be so scared of what I was getting from online pharmacies. You have no idea what ingredients are in those pills. Could be rat poision for all you know.
Keep asking yourself these questions.....you're worth it. You deserve a clean life, but you won't get it here on this board without in person help.
Cowgirl
