The last 24 hours have been a little unreal for me. My brother who's 23 "addict" is in the hospital. He gets xanax bars from his doctor. He was at my moms trailer park yesterday. There are witnesses to this it is under police investagation. Inside the trailer park it seems a guy pulled up ask him if he had weed for sale. My brother told him no but, he had xanax. My brother pulls out a lil handful maybe 8 pills the guy grabed them my brother said he tried to get them back the guy pulled his car in reverse and knocked my brother down with the car then he ran him over. He was knocked out. The car ran over his head face chest and leg. He has a tire mark across his cheeck his front teeth are chipped he has 4 broken ribs. He is still in the hospital they put in a epidural for pain. Guy damn near killed him over a few xanax.
If life was not stressful enough i get this e-mail from a "old friend today" I'm going to post word for word what she sent me. Here it is:
So I am going to take a jump and just be straight up- but do you still know anywhere to buy some dog food I need a buck.
I dunno the last time I talked to Kevin he was doing so much better then the last time I saw him- and I felt like a f***ing b**** because I stirred up his feelings- I honestly didn't expect that-
Hahahah you know where I am going with this-
Do you know if he is still clean? Which I pray to god that they boy is. I tried calling him but I think it was an old number from awhile ago- that-or he recognized my number and didn't want to pick up lol i dunno- any who I am in itching like crazy to catch a buzz- but I wanted to get enough to last a little while because I am having massive problems trying to find some- No Worries- I'm not looking to get hooked- I believe I still have the strength to control it- I do. Damn..its just been so long and I have a little bit of money and just want to get messed up- you know how it is/was
Sorry if this email is offense- as in - "is this the only f***ing reason she is writing me!?"- and I'm a holla back "No no"
just had to give it a try and risk asking
Dude----- It is awesome- you success story of kicking the habit- Not to be out of line at all- but I am really happy for the little ones because they can look at their mom in the light.
End of her note Kevin she is talking about in this note is my brother. What a fill in the blank she is....OMG she knows he and I have been trying to stay clean. She writes she did not want to stir up HIS feelings last he relasped on H it was with HER. HAHAHA then she writes how awsome it is that i'm clean lol. I don't think that note deserves a responce. Her not getting hooked a total joke she and i were banging up daily together some 5-6 years ago. So TODAY I'M GREATFUL I'M OFF H because i don't need to send out retarded e-mails to old connects. I am greatful i'm not getting my face ran over for trying to sell xanax.
Oh ZG, man thank God he's alive..............I know you worry sick about your brother..................and here he gives you another reason to.............your mom must be a nervous wreck...............I don't even want to say "I hope this wakes him up"..................people are so nuts...............that's freakin attempted murder..................I hate to sound cliche, but your baby bro is here for some reason because you get your head ran over like that...........Dear God.
I just sent up a prayer and will send up extras tonight...........crazy town alright.
Oh that chick....................wish I lived by you................I'd be over there to kick her tail..............that's about as rude as well a junkie can get ain't it? Talk about manipulative.............it's allllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll about the dope and the itch and the lies.........................and then a cheery "Oh good for you and your kids can now see ya in this light"....................I'll give her a light............see how ignorant we can be like that when we were using?
Thinking of Kevin and you and everybody...................except that chick.
I just sent up a prayer and will send up extras tonight...........crazy town alright.
Oh that chick....................wish I lived by you................I'd be over there to kick her tail..............that's about as rude as well a junkie can get ain't it? Talk about manipulative.............it's allllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll about the dope and the itch and the lies.........................and then a cheery "Oh good for you and your kids can now see ya in this light"....................I'll give her a light............see how ignorant we can be like that when we were using?
Thinking of Kevin and you and everybody...................except that chick.
ZG-excuse my ignorance here but a week or two ago i ssen a post from amity saying she had relapsed on 2xanax bars and some beer,i thought she was on a diet and had broke the rule,s stuffin her face with chocolate or something but obviously xanax is a drug of some sort,could u or someone else tell me what it is?is it a benzo or something?and my apologies to amity for thinkin she had ate all the xanax in the fridge and left f***-all for the wee one,s breakfast or something,,,cheers....eck..x
TY bryn. I almost had to laugh at that letter it was so full of bullcrap totally her addiction talking. I posted my brothers pics they are some 20 hours after he was ran over. His rib are broken 4 of em. The ribs don't look so bad from the outside. More ugly things addiction does. I don't get how some xanax are worth running down a 23 year old kid this driver left him blackout not moving HE knew he ran over him.
Eckie: xanax are benzos he gets xanax bars which are a higher mg then just a regular xanax. They are is used to treat anxiety disorders, panic disorders, and anxiety caused by depression. Like a super valuim they are stronger kick in faster.
Too funny you thought it was some kind of snack food.
Eckie: xanax are benzos he gets xanax bars which are a higher mg then just a regular xanax. They are is used to treat anxiety disorders, panic disorders, and anxiety caused by depression. Like a super valuim they are stronger kick in faster.
Too funny you thought it was some kind of snack food.
Jeepers crow, ZG! Glad he's still among the living...imagine doing that to someone for a few mgs of whatever. That email...yeesh...that girl needs to have her head toilet-dunked...she's so full of shi+ why not? Betcha she thought she was being all kinds of slick and smooth, too...it's actually insulting how transparent it all is. How's the other stuff with your daughter?
Glad he's okay...
Peace~MomNMore
Glad he's okay...
Peace~MomNMore
ZG......I usually post on the PP board, but I read your post bout your brother and I just had to say I am so sorry that happened to him. That is just awful.....can't believe what drugs will make people do......it's a tragedy.
I hope he gets better soon!
I hope he gets better soon!
Yeah momnmore that letter blew my mind I say it lightly but, acually this girl was a friend of mine at one time, i've known her for YEARS. It's very clear how cleaver she thinks she is lol. However she was so HAPPY my brother and I are off it..why the crap would you drag someone back in you knew was off? I do not have ill feelings towards her i do hope she finds her own light or whatever. She is a very beautiful girl at one time a beautiful person as well. That letter was a total trigger i had a few mins of the "i'm gonna go score with her and try to get half her dope moment". I'm done with that life...it always comes a knocking.
I am very greatful my baby brother was not killed. I ask him if he was mad that guy ran him over. He said well i tried to get my pills back he clearly wanted them. He said yeah i'm mad but, it aint helping anything.
TY RTK it is a horrible twisted thing "addiction". I'm always shocked at what people in general can do to another human with no reguard at all.
I am very greatful my baby brother was not killed. I ask him if he was mad that guy ran him over. He said well i tried to get my pills back he clearly wanted them. He said yeah i'm mad but, it aint helping anything.
TY RTK it is a horrible twisted thing "addiction". I'm always shocked at what people in general can do to another human with no reguard at all.
ZG.....way sorry about your Bro...and the letter...forgive me...Im reading the posts today...and I read this one too...I could cringe...the letter reminds me of when I was asknig like everyone in the world when it got all dry out here...we are SUCH losers when we are using...
Eck...didnt know what the f*** a xanex bar was either...thanks for explanation ZG
Eck...didnt know what the f*** a xanex bar was either...thanks for explanation ZG
Hey ZG, sorry to hear about your bro, hope he gets well soon! All that over drugs...doesn't surprise me, shocks me , but doesn't surprise me. Maybe he can take a positive out of this, cause it could've been alot worse...thank god it wasn't!
Your 'friend' and i use that word lightly...what a belter! Yeah, she's happy that you're clean..BULLSH*T. Why is it the people who " are so happy for you", try and give you or try and get you to get them drugs? It doesn't merit a reply..
Zg Sending you some P vibes, you've got all this sh*t going on just now and it's all other people bringing it in you life. Stay strong and take care, Kev
Your 'friend' and i use that word lightly...what a belter! Yeah, she's happy that you're clean..BULLSH*T. Why is it the people who " are so happy for you", try and give you or try and get you to get them drugs? It doesn't merit a reply..
Zg Sending you some P vibes, you've got all this sh*t going on just now and it's all other people bringing it in you life. Stay strong and take care, Kev
OMG OMG OMG......................ZG I am so sorry.
WTH?
Ugggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
WTH?
Ugggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
oh z--so sorry!! man --i do hope this helps him realize that s not the way to go...but imno one to preach!! has the person been caught--was it reported, or is it no use? and that girl--ist it crazy the backwards thinking that goes with using, we think we are slick and no-one has caught on--haha--whatever
eck--LOL thats funny u thought i binged on candy bars LOL--i havent used since and am feeling better, but for a good week i was craving using again pretty strong, those chemicals, they get in your brain and bring back all the old little devil cells that have gone dormant from lack of use, and they are just as strong and mean and manipulative as ever....learn from it and move on--npt beating myself up over it.....
eck--LOL thats funny u thought i binged on candy bars LOL--i havent used since and am feeling better, but for a good week i was craving using again pretty strong, those chemicals, they get in your brain and bring back all the old little devil cells that have gone dormant from lack of use, and they are just as strong and mean and manipulative as ever....learn from it and move on--npt beating myself up over it.....
ZG.......I popped back over here to see how your brother is doing? (Isn't it funny how just b/c we ususally post on one particular board that when we visit another we feel like an intruder?...LOL).. Anyway, Is he still in the hospital? How is he feeling now? I still can't believe that happened like it did.
You know what, Rhonda? I used to feel like that intruder when I first started nosing around on the heroin board, but I asked and kept on coming because those here are so welcoming, loving, and open. I love it here and on the Alcohol board and I have learned as much on these as on the Family board...thank God for these frinds of mine. Nice to see you =)
Yes, everyone on this board has always been very friendly and welcoming to me. I really enjoy coming here and reading posts b/c for one thing I feel like an addiction is an addiction...doesn't matter what we are addicted to. We can all understand where each other is coming from.
So, you are a family member of someone who has an addiction? For some reason I thought you were the one with the addiction...LOL Don't know where I got that from. In any case, I always enjoy talking with you..........oh, and Bryn....she is a sweetheart isn't she? I owe her for helping me get off Paxil....she was such a big help! :)
So, you are a family member of someone who has an addiction? For some reason I thought you were the one with the addiction...LOL Don't know where I got that from. In any case, I always enjoy talking with you..........oh, and Bryn....she is a sweetheart isn't she? I owe her for helping me get off Paxil....she was such a big help! :)
Both actually, I came for help with my daughter's addiction, to better understand it, and at one time for help 'fixing' it...as if such a thing were possible. Live and learn. I was a cocaine abuser for four years in my 20s and my dad was a user for years as well as an active alcoholic throughout my youth. When I think of the lost time and wasted money...argh! I am an addictive personality and I guess that's one reason I was fearful of my daughter's path...but that's what it is - her path, not mine. Not going down that road again...no desire for years.
Sorry for the hijack ZG...and as for you...stop it right now and take care of yourself...you are much too valuable to slip back. We're all here for you and good for telling on yourself. How's your bro?
Peace~M&M
Sorry for the hijack ZG...and as for you...stop it right now and take care of yourself...you are much too valuable to slip back. We're all here for you and good for telling on yourself. How's your bro?
Peace~M&M
