Crazy Town

ive been so up and down and then everything seemed to be falling into place i removed myself from hurt the addicat and it feelt good.....then hes here needing me as its all going to end hes had enough wants family and me....then it doesnt make any sence and hes weird ....i remove myself dont play the answer of txt nothing and hes here talking ....our child gets hurt and we feel like nothing has ever come between us.....no meth nothing and then bame.....but im cool and just leave it be.....then hes on the phone comming home needing and then nothing .......im not falling apart anger not there not even sad just....cant even think how to name or find a word......like being in a crazy town but not resident? any one know?
im not so crash hot on the computer and sorry have posted in wrong section.