Dawn:
Hey there. I read yesterdays threads and saw where you were feeling pretty lousy yesterday. I just wanted to check in on you, see how you are feeling.
Let us hear from you. Remember those hot baths, they really help.
Love,
Sarah
Morning Dawn...
You are in prayers and I've said a couple special ones for you...we're here for you when you're ready....
Remember, you don't have to do this alone, promise.....
(((hugs)))
Stacey
You are in prayers and I've said a couple special ones for you...we're here for you when you're ready....
Remember, you don't have to do this alone, promise.....
(((hugs)))
Stacey
Hey Dawn,
I hope you are doing okay. I just wanted you to know I am thinking about you...and I am glad Stacey has got your back! She is a special one!
Hang in there Dawn...you will make it through this...just keep making the next right choice...and reach up for a hand when you need one. Someone here will always be there for you!
I am praying for you Dawn...I am praying you find your way through this chaos and make it to serenity and peace. I wish there was something more I could do for you...but please know, I am thinking beautiful, strong, confident thoughts for you everyday!
Love ya,
Sarah
I hope you are doing okay. I just wanted you to know I am thinking about you...and I am glad Stacey has got your back! She is a special one!
Hang in there Dawn...you will make it through this...just keep making the next right choice...and reach up for a hand when you need one. Someone here will always be there for you!
I am praying for you Dawn...I am praying you find your way through this chaos and make it to serenity and peace. I wish there was something more I could do for you...but please know, I am thinking beautiful, strong, confident thoughts for you everyday!
Love ya,
Sarah
Stacey and Sarah, you are so dear to me. Thank you so much for your thoughts and prayers. I am not doing so good today....day 2 with no vics and I am irritable as hell, achy, cold sweats, the wonderful bathroom experience, and so on......I spent close to 3-1/2 hours in the tub last night, my kidlets thought I had drowned. This is so hard....
Dawn...
I'm keeping you close to my heart right now and praying to God to help you get through this time...Remember to breathe...For me, I had to be gentle with myself, lower all expectations and just bear down and make it through an hour at a time...I kept repeating over and over, this too shall pass...
It's ugly and uncomfortable but I can promise, it does get better a little bit each day. The best part is you never have to go through this again....
When it felt unbearable, I would pray to God and ask for his help to just make it through the day, the hour, the minute if need be...
Be gentle with yourself and we're hear if you want to talk...if not, that's okay too...This too shall pass, I promise....
(((gentle hugs)))
Stacey
I'm keeping you close to my heart right now and praying to God to help you get through this time...Remember to breathe...For me, I had to be gentle with myself, lower all expectations and just bear down and make it through an hour at a time...I kept repeating over and over, this too shall pass...
It's ugly and uncomfortable but I can promise, it does get better a little bit each day. The best part is you never have to go through this again....
When it felt unbearable, I would pray to God and ask for his help to just make it through the day, the hour, the minute if need be...
Be gentle with yourself and we're hear if you want to talk...if not, that's okay too...This too shall pass, I promise....
(((gentle hugs)))
Stacey
I am too ashamed of myself to ask God for help, does that make any sense. I feel unworthy.
Oh Dawn, I remember that feeling. I ached for you when I read those sentences.
For me, I think, that was the most hopeless feeling of all.
He's still there and He will listen to you, I promise.
You are His precious child and he waits for you with open arms.
I know how hard this is, we all know, but it's so worth it.
Believe in yourself.
xxxxoooo
For me, I think, that was the most hopeless feeling of all.
He's still there and He will listen to you, I promise.
You are His precious child and he waits for you with open arms.
I know how hard this is, we all know, but it's so worth it.
Believe in yourself.
xxxxoooo
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| does that make any sense. I feel unworthy. |
Yes, sweetie, that makes perfect sense to me and I like Kat, had those exact feelings for a long time...I remember sharing with Teresa those words and also that I felt that I would never be happy, truly happy that somehow I didn't deserve peace and happiness...I was terrified of being happy and it was pointed out it was fear holding me back and to face the fear and I prayed anyway and I kept praying and somewhere, somehow, that little tiny bit of hope started magnifying and then it went to faith...I can promise your HP is with you, you just have to open up just a bit and let him in....In the beginning, I believed in others enough until I could believe myself....Believe in us, Dawn...The only thing you have to do today is not pick up & use. It's that simple and another phrase that helped me is, using is not an option....I brainwashed myself with that saying and I still use it to this day....
Let us hold your hand...I love you....
xoxo
Stacey
Dawn-I was really pissed at God.I blamed everything that had happened to me on him.I wouldn't own up to it because there is no way I'm supposed to feel that way.It's perfectly o.k.I think it's healthy to own up to everything your feeling.
The last place you should get judgement is from a group a former junkies.
It's always darkest at the end of the tunnel.If you can grasp on to anything for even a minute,things will get better.The drugs want to keep you hostage.That hijacked brain is not going to give up without a fight.The whole physiological process that starts taking place during opiate w/d is that "Flight or fight" signal the brain sends out.It only last a few days.Yes they are horrible but once you get past that,the brain quits signaling the body that is dying.Each day that passes,the signal gets weaker.
Grasp on to that concept and know it will pass.
The last place you should get judgement is from a group a former junkies.
It's always darkest at the end of the tunnel.If you can grasp on to anything for even a minute,things will get better.The drugs want to keep you hostage.That hijacked brain is not going to give up without a fight.The whole physiological process that starts taking place during opiate w/d is that "Flight or fight" signal the brain sends out.It only last a few days.Yes they are horrible but once you get past that,the brain quits signaling the body that is dying.Each day that passes,the signal gets weaker.
Grasp on to that concept and know it will pass.
Dawn:
This is just my opinion but here goes: There is no shame in asking for help...there is only shame in knowing you need help, and not asking.
This works for me in my life, and so that is the way I use it. Maybe it can work for you too. I hope that you make it through another day clean and sober...we only do them one at a time, right???
No one knows what life has in store for us...day by day, but there is one thing I feel certain about...whatever lies ahead...joy or pain...it is best experienced with clarity of mind and heart.
I don't know much about life, but I know that love is key...and I want to be able to "feel" the love that is in my life. I want to be able to project my love for others purely...not through the filter of opiates...and I want to be able to bask in the love others have for me...I don't want to be numb and miss that.
The only way I know how to have this kind of clarity is by being sober. So, for today, I had real joy and I had real pain...and I thank God for both.
Have peace Dawn...and forget about that shame! It doesn't serve you and it damn sure doesn't serve the world.
Love,
Sarah
This is just my opinion but here goes: There is no shame in asking for help...there is only shame in knowing you need help, and not asking.
This works for me in my life, and so that is the way I use it. Maybe it can work for you too. I hope that you make it through another day clean and sober...we only do them one at a time, right???
No one knows what life has in store for us...day by day, but there is one thing I feel certain about...whatever lies ahead...joy or pain...it is best experienced with clarity of mind and heart.
I don't know much about life, but I know that love is key...and I want to be able to "feel" the love that is in my life. I want to be able to project my love for others purely...not through the filter of opiates...and I want to be able to bask in the love others have for me...I don't want to be numb and miss that.
The only way I know how to have this kind of clarity is by being sober. So, for today, I had real joy and I had real pain...and I thank God for both.
Have peace Dawn...and forget about that shame! It doesn't serve you and it damn sure doesn't serve the world.
Love,
Sarah
Shame won't get you well. You have a disease Dawn, it's not your fault. When we take on the "fault" part, is when we don't do anything about it and you are. You are trying so hard. Just hang in there ok? Be kind to yourself and you'll get through this. Cowgirl
