What's going on?
How's Joisey?
You alright?
AWW...yep im fine. just a little down in the dumps. thank you for asking. work is real busy, my son got booted out of day care because of his behavior and a close friend who's been sick for quite a few years passed away on Tuesday. so, it's been a merry-go-round for me. Jeresy is loaded with lighting and thunder last night and tonight. i love thunderstorms. my ex is still using on a regular basis and i just keep asking myself why do i keep picking men that are no good for me....my whole life! i pick the ones who in the beginning are awesome and then they slowly lose respect for themselves and me. but this one i really f***ing loved. we were so compatible. i loved everything about him. he was a musician, artsy type. real good looking and intelligent. we had so much in common. it's a shame how we went from being a happy, stay at home and hang out type of couple....watch TV, cook...spend quality time....to him jumping out of his skin and always having to just "run out for a minute" locking himself in the bathroom for 20-30 minutes.........never having money anymore......he went from one extreme to the next right under my nose. i really never thought he would go back to dope after 8 & 1/2 years clean. i just didn't. by the time i knew he was back on the s***, he was mainlining a few bags a day. we have nothing now. i just miss the beginning. i should have known that something was wrong.
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